Melodies from cicada and frogs creped into my ears followed by whispers of the wind, a sound that very familiar to me. It’s always calm me when I run from my house and hide in the wood. When the weather is nice, I’ll sleep there listening to sing of little animals, waiting for the sun to sink down. Smiling, this sound reminds me of my bittersweet memories.

I opening my eyes, like a baby who just woke up. I try to stand up but fail, I can feel my body but can’t move it. I can do nothing, not a finger can move.

Bright green is all I can see, there no object can tell me where I am, like the sun or stars. I can feel ripples go through below my body, make me imagine that I am lying down in a pool of water, however, I’m still dry is a proof that is false. I scared with what going on, but the impression of wandering with waves while listening to a soothing tone is a comfortable experience.

I indulge myself with this comfortable feeling while trying to remember what happened. My memory is hazy, like someone who just wakes up after a coma, after don’t know how long my memories slowly come back and I can remember everything.

“So, I already dead,” I said, there no surge emotions. What I’m feeling is just acceptance.

I tried to call the system, but there no answer.

I tried to use my ability, but there nothing happens.

I can't move from this position. My mind wanders around while lying down, motionless.

‘I wonder if everyone who died has the same experience,’ my thought wander sometimes thinking unimportant thing.

Minutes become an hour, hours become a day, days become a month, months become a year.

Time passed for god knows how long, and I still wandering here, even the sound already dissipated, I tried to scream for help to god, devil, system and many name deity I said consecutively, but there no answer. Is it hell, heaven or neither of it. I tried to kill myself by bitting my tongue but failed. Heck, I’m never got hungry here.

I have a bad feeling that I will here forever, it’s bad, I read a news said normal people can get crazy with less than one-year confinement. Right now I’m in the same situation with them, alone, watching blinding green lights in this silent place, for eternity.

I’m afraid, I’m terrified, I doubt I will get used to this feeling, the feeling of helplessness. I’m thinking about my life on earth, why I don’t go adventure in my life more? Why didn’t I go outside of my comfort zone and met more people? What am I afraid back then? Without realizing a little tear crawling outside my eyes.

The stagnant time continues, no sign any changes soon. I closing my eyes, fantasizing about what I will do if I can get out of this place, then trying to sleep like always, but I can’t.

One day, there a small shift in the green light, nearly unnoticeable because I never focusing my sight after a few days here. Five white chains appear from nothingness, one of them binding my neck and the other fours binding and pull all my limbs. My body right now is standing like the letter X, not the most comfortable position.

I’m observing my surrounding, the chains are the only objects around here. There nothing on the horizon except more green lights. Looking all of this, I felt despair, realize there no difference between can and can’t move my body, there’s no hope for escape in the first place.

This place is stable with periodical wave below my feet like always. But not long after, the green light pulsate synchronizing with wave motion. My boring time changing faster than I thought, but unfortunately, it's not for the better.

The white chains glowing and change to rose color, I can feel a series of lightning spark surging through my vein. For the first time since I got here, I felt a pain and its hurt more than my father beating. However, that spark doesn’t last long and slowly dissipated.

“At least it already ends,” I said after a sigh feeling relieved.

But, oh boy, I never so wrong.

The chains' glow becomes brighter, and the green lights around me slowly change color following the chains' glow. Red spheres made of particle lights appear one by one in front of me, it approaching me and they dive into my chest, go inside my body.

All my blood in my vein boiling, my heart hurts and I can’t breathe in. Although all of that happens, I can’t die and the more time passing more painful it becomes. Something like blood come out from all holes of my body, and my vision become red.

I screamed, again and again, my throat isn’t sore even after that long screaming. I hope it’s just a nightmare, I hope it will end, I hope I can die. However, I know it won’t end, this torture will going for eternity.

A long time passed, even the wave below me already become red, I still screaming can’t bear the pain inside my body. This place here is a strange place. I never dehydrated even when my blood always coming out. and I can scream without stopping even when I can't breathe in. However, I never have time to think about that.

One day it stops, the pain inside my body slowly disappear and I can breathe again. The chains become translucent and fading, after a while it disappears. I who can’t move my body fall over on my back.

I know it’s over when looking at the green sky again.

On that day my tears gushing like a fountain. I cry for the second time after I got here, like a bitch.

After crying for a long time, I finally can sleep for the first time. Dreaming about an adventure that I never got.

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A faint melody crawled into my ears, a voice I never heard for a long time. Frogs croaking and cicadas chirping like a music, calming my mind.

I’m opening my eyes once again, waking up and looking at the green sky. Once again, the situation becomes tranquil and calming, but this time my memories aren’t as hazy as before.

My eyes filled with determinations and my mind become clearer than ever, this time I realize how alone I am, there no chance of getting any help.

If there any help, I will take it. However, I won’t scream again. I will exert all of my willpower to get out of this place. Even though right now the place is tranquil but there’s no guarantee those chains won’t come again.

A week passed, and I can move my finger.

A month passed, and I can move my right hand.

And after god knows how long, the music already disappear and I can sit and look at the horizon again. I don’t want to acknowledge it, but my willpower becomes stronger after those tortures.

‘If it continues maybe I can get out from this damned place someday,’ I realize it’s impossible for me without any abilities, but that mindset always encouraging me in time of despair.

One day, some slight change happen again in this green space. When I notice it, my hand trembling. terrified of what will happen to me. A question pop out, the question which always sticks in my mind, 'What torture will be next?'

I’m looking at the sky, afraid there any chains again, I will try to avoid it this time, but with my meager speed, I felt doubtful.

I wait quite long, but there no sign of change in the sky again. However, when I look at my body, I realize it becomes translucent, and slowly disintegrated become particles of light. I see this condition before, the ability of someone who killed me before. At this time my mind just wondering where I will go next. Will it be a new hell, more painful than now. After that, my consciousness slowly fading away.

Sounds of frogs and cicada reaching my ears, following by feel of the wind all over my body waking me up from my slumber.

I open my eyes, seeing at orange blinding lights pass through green gaps. I tried to breathe and smell the unique forest aroma, it’s always calming my mind.

I wake up and sit, looking at the beautiful sunset. My tears flow, thinking about why I never appreciate the beauty of it before. Soon, a smell of roasted meat come into my nose making my stomach rumbling.

Hunger, it’s a sensation that I never feel for a long time.

I standing up and go to the origin of the smell, there a middle-aged man roasting a deer meat. I swallow my saliva, crave that meat. So I approach him and try to ask some of it. Before I got near, he begins talking without turn his back.

“Oh, you already woke up. ‘Me’ of this universe.”