Yahoo Messenger: 2nd July 2001 12:58 AM

Subject: I hate being a burden on people or trouble for anyone

romeobanglore: honey

julietscity: yes

romeobanglore: great...I got you now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

romeobanglore: change your status message

julietscity: It's late now, hurry home

romeobanglore: I slept all day... I don't feel sleepy

julietscity: I felt sleepy

romeobanglore: but you have to go to bed now...you have interview tomorrow

julietscity: yes...bye

romeobanglore: yes...go...go to sleep

romeobanglore: wait a minute

romeobanglore: did you get my mails about the company's English?

julietscity: that's not what I want

julietscity: but you said their English is okay ... so I think it's good for me

romeobanglore: then what was that you wanted?

romeobanglore: they made it too complicate

julietscity: just one more chance to be interviewed ... I don't care so much...

julietscity: they want some experts who are excellent in English...

romeobanglore: too much technical jargon...

julietscity: it's ok now

julietscity: thanks anyway

romeobanglore: you should try...you know...I have noticed, these days, your English has improved very much

julietscity: hmm...I don't think so

romeobanglore: I do...I told you once...I asked you whether you are reading English books now, right?

julietscity: did you ask? It's not me...

romeobanglore: and the important thing... did you feel so much pain in your stomach?

romeobanglore: nononono...I asked you...but you didn't take it seriously

julietscity: nono... so much pain in my brain not stomach!

romeobanglore: of course yes...it's only you

romeobanglore: because of Friday's talk?

julietscity: I don't remember what happened so long ago

romeobanglore: I remember, I asked you , because you were using phrases from books

romeobanglore: it's a sign of good English

romeobanglore: your pain has come down now?

julietscity: think about it ... it's all because of a high-tech website company, that's all

julietscity: no... my pain will last a week

romeobanglore: why it is so???

romeobanglore: what can I do for you????

julietscity: kill me personally, take my life... take me away from this world

romeobanglore: what is this! you are always talking like this

romeobanglore: why are you so depressed? because of the job?

julietscity: because you always say you know this ... but ... you still are not ready to accept it.

julietscity: because of life

romeobanglore: I understand the feeling of a moment...but not something like this....always like this

romeobanglore: what has life done wrong for you? don't tell me all those old things about life

julietscity: sorry... from this moment... I won't tell you... and it won't be my always

romeobanglore: is that the solution?

romeobanglore: honey...I want you to cheer up... not to think of the unhappy side of life

julietscity: yes... yes... I am happy now

romeobanglore: do you think I don't have any problems? there are...but the thought of you cheers me up...if I can't do anything for you, I am of no use to you

julietscity: sorry... your stomach is not feeling well ... calm down and go home

romeobanglore: that's ok...it's just stomach

julietscity: I said the same word to you...

romeobanglore: yes...

romeobanglore: why don't you think that I want you?

romeobanglore: why don't you think that there is a person thinking of you 24 hours?

julietscity: the truth is, this person cannot solve my current pain

romeobanglore: then what is the use of having me!

julietscity: ask God ... how do I know now!

julietscity: I don't even think, what's the use of owning myself?

romeobanglore: so..it's clear...I can't solve your pain...there is no use

romeobanglore: good... I thought I was in some way useful... I won't think like that again... I know where I am

julietscity: of course you are

romeobanglore: we will talk later

julietscity: no...it's not necessary to talk this topic again

romeobanglore: ok

romeobanglore: go and sleep

julietscity: no

julietscity: you go home

romeobanglore: ok...

romeobanglore: take care

romeobanglore: see you later

romeobanglore: write about the interview tomorrow

julietscity: for what... it won't succeed

romeobanglore: it will...you try...

julietscity: I sent my resume to this company a month ago...

romeobanglore: okkk

julietscity: they have interviewed a lot of people ... Now they only think of me ... and ... my English will not pass the exam

romeobanglore: so they want to meet you now

romeobanglore: let us see...honey...

romeobanglore: and again, Wednesday, you may have to attend the second round of the other interview

julietscity: yes...it will succeed...and I will get a job next week and there is no problem...so...don't worry on me...I will be happy

romeobanglore: you know...you have to believe in yourself first

julietscity: yes... I will be attending a second interview with this bastard boss and he will ask me to help him with the PR job

julietscity: then...next week... I am about to be recruited for two new jobs ... so ... everything will be done and it is worth celebrating

romeobanglore: if you don't believe in yourself, nothing will work

julietscity: Yes...I believe in myself too much... I believe in my failure also...

romeobanglore: you don't believe in yourself...you are not self confident now

julietscity: the afterlife is ok for me ... everything will be better, a whole new life will be there, welcome me

romeobanglore: if only you believe in it...I believe in it

romeobanglore: go and sleep now

julietscity: my sleeping time is around 2:00 to 3:00 am

julietscity: leave me here... go home now

romeobanglore: that's not good! you need at least 7 hours of sleep

julietscity: I woke up late

romeobanglore: still...every one needs that much sleep

julietscity: I need to enjoy your happiness and achievements here and remind me of what you said

julietscity: something you might like... something you might not like...

romeobanglore: my happiness!

julietscity: how to live... how to move on... how to practice pretending... how to be a confident person...

romeobanglore: your self-confidence is low ... I suggest you see a doctor

julietscity: hmmm...to bad...I thought you were my doctor...

romeobanglore: and it's clear now...I can't do anything for you

romeobanglore: you won't listen to me

julietscity: no one likes the psychiatric record of their life ... now you think I have a serious problem and need to see a doctor????

romeobanglore: and I start to doubt my ability to keep you happy

julietscity: Enough, okay? now ... stop hurting me and hurt yourself

julietscity: If one day I need a doctor ... it must not be to cure my psychological problems...

romeobanglore: yes... you don't believe in my words...

romeobanglore: you are just behaving like an uneducated woman!

julietscity: I really haven't, and never thought of being a burden on you ... and now the burden I put on you seems to have become so heavy...

romeobanglore: doctor is not to cure your mind or treat you for madness!

julietscity: you can't afford it now or bear it ... I can understand ... because a lot of things happened that you can't control... so... it's ok...

romeobanglore: you are not my burden... you are the one I care of

julietscity: Ok... just standing there, continuing to care about me ... just standing there...please

romeobanglore: it's not that I can't afford you! the thing is I can't bear your pain

julietscity: then... do something ... I always want you to do something

romeobanglore: what?

romeobanglore: ?

julietscity: do something to change this situation

romeobanglore: how?

julietscity: not just talk

romeobanglore: do you think I am not trying?

julietscity: yes... I understand what you want to say ... that's a situation out of your control ... not people ... in your case, you did a lot of hard work...

romeobanglore: you also do the same...

julietscity: what can you do...

romeobanglore: try hard... don't resign

julietscity: yes... I am now waiting for the best

romeobanglore: I want you to know that you are close to my heart...24 hours

romeobanglore: just that much

julietscity: where have you been in the last 48 hours??

romeobanglore: yesterday, I came here, read your mail, checked in yahoo and went back

romeobanglore: today, I had a very bad stomach...and I came here now just to see you

julietscity: you even didn't leave me any word?

romeobanglore: in yahoo, I did

romeobanglore: you didn't get it?

julietscity: yesterday, I checked Yahoo all day without you

romeobanglore: not whole day...I was here in the morning...I didn't come in the afternoon...

romeobanglore: too tired... my stomach problem started yesterday afternoon

romeobanglore: it was my fault...I should have sent a reply

romeobanglore: sorry for that

romeobanglore: I have to leave now...or I won't get any dinner...

julietscity: my illness is getting worse... so... you better not talk to me for the time being

julietscity: it's good for you and me...

romeobanglore: always

julietscity: for you... I don't want you to know too much about my illness...

romeobanglore: whatever is happening

julietscity: but this time... I have informed you in advance

julietscity: because I don't want you to worry about me ... That's not good for me, it's also for you...

romeobanglore: it's not good for me...because if I don't know...I will worry more

julietscity: just thinking that I will solve the problem by myself and let me think of it myself, we will see what happens...

julietscity: I also want to alleviate any trouble you get from me...

romeobanglore: nooooooooooo

julietscity: I hate being a burden on people or trouble for anyone

romeobanglore: you are not a burden to me... you are close to my heart all the time...

julietscity: I hate myself becoming this annoying appearance, appearing in front of you...

romeobanglore: noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

julietscity: you really don't understand everything about me

romeobanglore: you should do that...I have only you

julietscity: Think of me as having to be in a hospital... I'm seeing a doctor... and you can't see me for the time being

romeobanglore: nooooooo

romeobanglore: I want to talk everyday

romeobanglore: you have to

julietscity: I have no special effect on you ... what do you want me to do?

romeobanglore: talk with me everyday

romeobanglore: you are useful to me....that's why I want you

julietscity: the longer we get along, the more pain we all experience...

romeobanglore: don't ask me anything else...I told you...you are always close to my heart

romeobanglore: that pain is better than the pain of not talking

julietscity: then now... take me, this is useful for you ... but you can't do anything about this right now, right? So leave for a while until you want me again

romeobanglore: noooo...I want you every minute

romeobanglore: I want to meet you very soon

romeobanglore: no discussion on that now

julietscity: why you never give up on me?

julietscity: even if I become like this, it's not helpful to you different from the people you knew

romeobanglore: because I want you

romeobanglore: nonononono... you are the one I want

romeobanglore: don't ask me such things

julietscity: you did a lot of good things for me... in my life... really enough

romeobanglore: nooooooooooooooo

julietscity: I am not the right person in your heart...

romeobanglore: stop this please

julietscity: even if you said that before ... I'm very grateful to you

romeobanglore: you are the one for me

romeobanglore: no more chat on that

romeobanglore: I am going

julietscity: bye

romeobanglore: please... please think that someone need you always

romeobanglore: bye

romeobanglore: final bye

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