Yahoo Messenger: 16 June 2001 02:58 PM

Subject: if anything happens to you, I will follow you

romeobanglore: ok...I'm writing a reply to your mail

romeobanglore: are you there now???????????????????????????

julietscity: hey... why do you always behave so calm...

romeobanglore: I don't understand... what changed between us?

julietscity: your response to all my inquiries

romeobanglore: my response has changed?

julietscity: too calm, sometimes... makes me feel cold-blooded or indifferent

romeobanglore: you want me to be angry!

julietscity: hope you have at least a feeling or enthusiasm for your response

romeobanglore: you don't understand my feelings...that's why

julietscity: yes... maybe because you never carefully elaborate

julietscity: only if I ask, you will have a short answer

julietscity: It feels like... as I said... you don't need me at all

romeobanglore: you said that... I didn't!!!!!

romeobanglore: because I am not of the habit of showing my emotions...I told you that...

julietscity: and you also told me that you will show me more

romeobanglore: you know...show more means... on my face maybe... but I cannot write

julietscity: I said that... because I told you that's how I feel... and you don't object

julietscity: Now how can this situation face to face each other so that I can see you show me more?

romeobanglore: read my mails... I have told that...

romeobanglore: so... it is difficult for me a bit to write my feelings...

romeobanglore: my sun sign is generally secretive about their emotions

julietscity: ok...ok...ok... then what are we doing now?

romeobanglore: I try to be frank with you

julietscity: it's difficult for you to write...and also...it's difficult for me to understand...

romeobanglore: so you assume me to be a person without emotions!

romeobanglore: you know how I behaved when we were together

julietscity: no... I think you hide your true self from me... for some other reasons I don't know... and maybe... as you wish would be good for me

romeobanglore: but you know how I am!

julietscity: how your performance is based on your original personality ... but to understand you and what is happening around you, more than this

romeobanglore: yes, in messenger

romeobanglore: in messenger, you know some

julietscity: sorry

romeobanglore: why?

romeobanglore: at least it was good to chat now...we knew the feelings of each other to some extent

julietscity: no... you are wrong... If I told you I knew this kind of chat was useless... you might be upset

romeobanglore: but at least, I had some relief after chatting

julietscity: now... everything becomes difficult to be uttered

julietscity: you would say ... I already knew it or you already told me...

romeobanglore: I don't have any changes in myself, except that I was very, very, very busy in work

julietscity: ok... what can I say...

julietscity: you still you... that's fine and good to you... you are honest with yourself

romeobanglore: I just wanted to know you are just angry with me...not going away from me

julietscity: I am terrible, always causing panic and unnecessary tension

romeobanglore: I like you being angry with me...because I know why you are angry...

julietscity: I would rather say... disappointed... not angry...

romeobanglore: hmmm...I understand

julietscity: If angry... I will fight for you... but... I don't even want to fight with you... this is useless

romeobanglore: that's what worried me

julietscity: If I auction my life now ... just ask, would you buy it?

romeobanglore: I won't let your life be auctioned...I need it

julietscity: no... I said that... you don't need it

romeobanglore: you said that... I didn't say.

julietscity: I'm afraid you will be late for having my life

julietscity: If there is a chance, I plan to do one thing

romeobanglore: what?

julietscity: I won't commit suicide... but I can save some people by accident... I save them and kill myself by helping others... It will be an honor

julietscity: yes... I go out every day

julietscity: ride my scooter alone to find my chance... except for life, I have nothing to lose... because now everything is zero for me...

romeobanglore: honey... don't do that!

julietscity: you know... It's hard for me to accept that... zero

romeobanglore: why you changed????

julietscity: If I have an accident, I ask Kelvin to take me to the hospital to donate organs ... he promised to take me there to fulfill my last wish

romeobanglore: hey... I need you...

julietscity: from you to me... we also seem to be zero

julietscity: then you might be hurt by me ... and remember one thing...

julietscity: Next life... please come to me earlier... don't let me wait for you too long...

julietscity: I've had enough in this life

julietscity: yes... enough!!!

julietscity: I told you I hate this life, right? Yes ... I really hate it

romeobanglore: I don't have words to express my feelings... you think I am keeping you waiting purposefully?

julietscity: you said you need me ... that's just a simple sentence

julietscity: Like your mother said ... she needs you too ... Do you feel anything special about that need? No, isn't it ... it's all the same

julietscity: NO... you misunderstand me

julietscity: I said... I am older than you ... because I have been looking for you for too long, I have waited for you for too many years ... afterlife ... if we still want to meet ... please do not let me wait for you too long

julietscity: but...yes... you never believe this, no one knows what the next life will be

julietscity: I must go now ... I must go out to find my opportunity

julietscity: you don't know me now...yes...just like we don't know each other... but you persist that you are still the same to me... I don't know... I couldn't read your lips or face in person...

romeobanglore: I don't know what I should say...I have the feeling that you don't believe me...you don't believe me that I need you or that I have made you a part of my life

julietscity: remember what I said ... if I don't have a chance to tell you in person ... I will ask Kelvin to let you know what happened

julietscity: and you are not at fault with me... you are a great person... that is my problem because I do not belong to this world

julietscity: I hate this world

julietscity: that's it

julietscity: I am leaving

julietscity: Thank you for chatting with me ... meeting you is a joy to me ... thank you

julietscity: bye

romeobanglore: and remember, if something happens to you, I won't live in this world anymore

julietscity: Sabrina

romeobanglore: remember my words

romeobanglore: if anything happens to you, I will follow you