Yahoo Messenger: 3rd June 2001 04:29 PM

Subject: things must have changed somewhere in our minds or somehow in its way

romeobanglore: how was your menses this time?

julietscity: hmmm... It's like menses! Is it easier for you to guess that my mood is different during menses? so it reminds you to come just ask temporarily!

romeobanglore: little pain, but not too much, right?

julietscity: because I'm still mad at you, so ... I forget where it pains the most

romeobanglore: no, of course not!!...why you were angry?

julietscity: get angry as usual ... you know I love to get angry with you

romeobanglore: because I told you that I am going to the movies???

julietscity: I was angry for you for a few days, did you feel it?... Not only yesterday

romeobanglore: because I was busy???

julietscity: Actually ... I am more angry with myself, and I am stuck with what I can and cannot do with my life and future! I am very annoyed and angry!

romeobanglore: I understood that... because you told me that you miss me these days

julietscity: even if you understood, you didn't even tell me comfort words

julietscity: leave it...I also don't want to discuss it...

julietscity: It's over, being fussy will make you hate me even more.

romeobanglore: I told you that I am sorry this time... because I had too much pressure here...the Germans were very angry and threatened to cancel the relationship with our company

romeobanglore: ok

romeobanglore: ok...still working?

julietscity: no... I finished all my studies yesterday

romeobanglore: ok... honey...I am really sorry for the past 2-3 days

julietscity: you know what I am doing and I know what you are doing these days

romeobanglore: yes... but when I went home these days, I really missed you

julietscity: Not like that... when things happen, it's scheduled to happen. It must have changed our minds... sometimes we just pretend that we don't care or it doesn't matter... but actually... things must have changed somewhere in our minds or somehow in its way

romeobanglore: hmmm...maybe...

julietscity: yes, I am sure. I also know that you might think that I must get angry many days...that's why you missed me

romeobanglore: I had a slight feeling... but I also was not able to pay needed attention... I then understood your state of mind... because it was almost same as mine

julietscity: why discuss all these things that make me cry ... you know my heart always starts preparing for this, always with bad omen

romeobanglore: ok...honey...leave it

romeobanglore: mmma, (((((((S)))))))

julietscity: I still don't know what to do... making any possible decision will change our future relationship

romeobanglore: hmmmm

julietscity: Here every night... I just try to rehearse early... how to do or what to do...

romeobanglore: I understand, honey

julietscity: you will always be someone who can only passively accept my decision...

julietscity: and I have always been the one who must bear the consequences and make decisions

romeobanglore: there are reasons... but I don't want to say all those again

julietscity: yes... all the reasons on my side ... I already know...

romeobanglore: no... let us not discuss it now

julietscity: Yes ... how I wish time could turn fast... now it is 2003... everything has changed... we don't have to experience all these pains now

romeobanglore: hmm

romeobanglore: pain is the same for me also

julietscity: we are all powerless ... you see ... then why do we talk about all this?

romeobanglore: I told that...don't discuss it now...especially, we both have some bad days these time

julietscity: so... I cancel the date of my interview tomorrow...

romeobanglore: hmmm...your wish

julietscity: talk to my uncle about learning export business with him

romeobanglore: make sure you are paid enough... don't ruin your career

julietscity: what's my career?

romeobanglore: whatever you choose...

julietscity: I don't want any status career...

julietscity: yeah...you always support my decision, right?

romeobanglore: yes...I do

romeobanglore: you are not willing to listen to my suggestion in this case

julietscity: I can't live a happy life anymore ... that's why I can't have other elegant dreams, I have never lived a life of waiting, I need to find a way for myself without wasting time

romeobanglore: so I have no choice

romeobanglore: that's ok...I want to tell you that at a later time, you should be able to go for a better job, not restrict yourself to your uncle's business

julietscity: my uncle will pay me a reasonable salary ... I will try my best to communicate with him.

romeobanglore: ok...but you might get better salary somewhere else

romeobanglore: ok

julietscity: yes.. working in a club and becoming a well-paid public relations girl

romeobanglore: hey...don't be sarcastic

romeobanglore: ok...

julietscity: If you want to leave ... you can ... lunchtime has passed

julietscity: sorry for that

romeobanglore: ok...there is nothing to chat now

romeobanglore: don't worry about lunch... I am not that hungry

romeobanglore: you have something to tell?

julietscity: the words I was about to say made me stuck in my throat

romeobanglore: tell me

julietscity: no..." there is nothing to chat now"

romeobanglore: I know you have pain... just remember that I share it

romeobanglore: ok...then bye for now

romeobanglore: ok????????

julietscity: you don't need my opinion ... do what you want

romeobanglore: I am leaving now... no more chat today... the bad mood for you also

romeobanglore: bye

romeobanglore: it's not a good day to chat

romeobanglore: final bye

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