Yahoo Messenger: 9 May 2001 07:06 PM

Subject: when you keep me in dark, I become more worried

romeobanglore: good morning

julietscity: good morning

romeobanglore: Why didn't you go to work today?

julietscity: Do you really want to know the truth, or ...

romeobanglore: yes...the truth

julietscity: I lied to you

romeobanglore: what?

romeobanglore: you don't have a job!!!

julietscity: yes

julietscity: I got your mail

julietscity: I don't plan to work for my friends in K city

romeobanglore: then???

julietscity: I didn't lie to you on purpose ... I hope this is a white lie.

romeobanglore: I don't understand...

julietscity: these days I do look for work

romeobanglore: what lies did you say, you will settle in K city?

julietscity: NO

romeobanglore: or you don't have a job now?

julietscity: This morning ... I thought of working in K city and trying to settle there.

julietscity: I shouldn't have sent you an email this morning because I think you might know that I'm at home

romeobanglore: tell me...you don't have a job now, right?

julietscity: I was sending emails to Sylvia and Thomas for help ... I wanted to join my friend's company and start a trading business in K city.

julietscity: I forgot you will find me ... I'm too busy in the concentrate on writing all the emails ... and then replied to yours ... because I don't want you to be hurt by the email sent last night ... Yes ... I told you a lie.

Yahoo! Messenger: romeobanglore has logged back in. (2001/5/9 at PM 01:31)

julietscity: That day, when you told me ... you discussed us with Ojas and Mahendra ... the only result was ... no reason to stay home without work ... because you all care about my work ... so. .. I don't want to increase your pressure because I don't have a job ... so ... I immediately replied that I got a bank job from my friend.

julietscity: This is the first lie ... this is a white lie ... I don't want you to worry about me ... because I don't work.

romeobanglore: I had a small suspicion...because you never told me about your colleagues or work...you always used to do that

romeobanglore: tell me please...is it difficult for you to get a job?

julietscity: I don't know

julietscity: If I downgrade ... it's easy to get a job

julietscity: but low wages

julietscity: It's a matter of age ... most of them want some secretaries under 32.

julietscity: That's why I thought of doing my own business in K city. Sylvia opened a trading company here before going to Valencia.

romeobanglore: but there was no need to do that...I feel like a boy who was misled by mother

julietscity: sorry

romeobanglore: running your own business is risky, right?

julietscity: no... my friend has a trading company... I just borrow his company's license and pay myself

julietscity: He can help me... if Thomas wants to work with me and engage in trading business... it's simple... but... I still have to wait for Sylvia's advice... Anshu's company is also a trading company.

julietscity: At my current age ... that's the only thing I think I can do right now, right?

romeobanglore: hello...

romeobanglore: will the salary be good?

julietscity: For me, there is no salary ... only profit...

julietscity: How much can I bargain with some local factories? I never asked my friend.

julietscity: hello... Am I interrupting your work now?

julietscity: hello???? I am very sorry

romeobanglore: hello

romeobanglore: it's ok...you are not interrupting me

julietscity: so, don't worry about me, ok?

romeobanglore: you know when you keep me in dark, I become more worried...

romeobanglore: I get the fear that you hide something from me

julietscity: but it's good for you

julietscity: a white lie is not a cheat... I certainly... hope never to give you too much fear...

romeobanglore: of course not...at least when I still think that you as a part of me

julietscity: I won't hide anything to hurt you...

romeobanglore: hiding id hurting

julietscity: NO

julietscity: in some way, it's not

romeobanglore: helllloooooo

julietscity: I didn't do it on purpose

julietscity: I saw your pain and worry, and then it became like this.

julietscity: Forgive me for this... I'm very sorry.

romeobanglore: you know if you had told me the truth that you didn't have a job, I would have supported you throughout your search...I would have asked you regularly and encouraged you...

romeobanglore: honey, I know why you did it

julietscity: Your encouragement will become our argument or more stress... I have seen your mood relax in the last few days ... glad to lie to you.

romeobanglore: so I can control my feelings

julietscity: maybe I shouldn't say that to you

romeobanglore: we might have fought...but that's because of our interest in each other

romeobanglore: but to know what exactly is happening with the other person gives a feeling of closeness

julietscity: do you feel hurt?

romeobanglore: no comments

julietscity: ok

romeobanglore: hmm...now have you decided to settle down in K city?

julietscity: after getting advice from Sylvia ... then I will ask my friends in K city.

julietscity: This is just an idea this morning ... I must move out of my home again if possible

romeobanglore: and what will you do for settling down?

julietscity: Settle down to do my job, settle down to make a profit, and work hard around the clock

romeobanglore: and?

julietscity: I don't understand...and?

romeobanglore: there is more in life than just work

julietscity: My life only works and money

romeobanglore: it's not

julietscity: yes...that's the only thing I have

romeobanglore: I know you more than that

romeobanglore: more than to believe that

julietscity: Do you want me to think of marriage, right? No marriage at my age.

julietscity: If I have money ... I can use my money to travel around the world and start enjoying my life alone.

julietscity: Life is short ... there is no need to plan too much, including marriage.

romeobanglore: I don't know

julietscity: Trading business means I have to work with the world, right? So maybe I have to travel with my business.

romeobanglore: you know if you don't marry anyone, I can't imagine you to touch any other person...

romeobanglore: I am still sure that we will travel around the world...actually I have been looking for the offers from travel agencies

julietscity: Business is business... I don't worry about marriage.

julietscity: If someone asks me about marriage ... I would say I'm divorced by someone.

julietscity: Traveling around the world ... it takes money ... I don't think too much now, making money is my number one priority...

Yahoo! Messenger: romeobanglore has logged back in. (2001/5/9 at PM 02:22)

romeobanglore: you know I have always said... you should be a respected and reputed woman

romeobanglore: yes...I know...it takes money...I am still trying hard to leave India

romeobanglore: and work in some other country where I can get more money

julietscity: I can't dream about traveling now ... because I messed up myself!

julietscity: I brought you bad luck

romeobanglore: NO of course not!

romeobanglore: that is one thing I am sure of

romeobanglore: and I want to see places with you

julietscity: We will see ... but don't fantasize now ... otherwise, you won't succeed

romeobanglore: NO...I told you several times... you are the best thing to happen in my whole life

romeobanglore: it is me who messed up your life

julietscity: No. My life has been messed up over the years ... but you ... I messed up your work plan.

romeobanglore: hey...never...you didn't...I did things for myself...not for you

romeobanglore: honey...can we meet after one hour?

julietscity: but without me ... you wouldn't do those things and hurt yourself

julietscity: yes

julietscity: okay...you have more work to do

julietscity: and it's your lunchtime

julietscity: c u later