Yahoo Messenger: 1st January 2001 06:55 PM

Subject: surprises are surprises

julietscity: I asked you ... I asked you about Christmas and New Year ... You told me that you have no idea for the first time... then before you left... 2-3 days... you confirmed the holiday... then there is still no answer for these 2 special days

romeobanglore: you know there is no answer from me because there was nothing special for me!

julietscity: Why am I talking about all this... can I stop? This is not a good example now.

romeobanglore: Xmas and the new year are just like any other day for me...

julietscity: remember last Christmas? and New Year?

romeobanglore: only you make any difference

julietscity: How can you say nothing special to you?

romeobanglore: yes, I remember

romeobanglore: I told you only you make it special...only new year, no Xmas

julietscity: yes...if only I make any difference...and now you know what I think

romeobanglore: since it was special, I came here yesterday...even if you told me that you had dates

romeobanglore: on new year

romeobanglore: I thought it would be a surprise...but it flopped!

julietscity: So...finally.. the only words for me are "I deserve it"...I feel like that always

romeobanglore: why?

julietscity: yes...

romeobanglore: there was nothing in our chat!

romeobanglore: to make you feel so!

julietscity: It surprised me ... that's why I called you for 5 hours

julietscity: I tried to find you and did the dumbest thing ... I just wanted to say a happy new year to you

romeobanglore: so my little surprise flopped

romeobanglore: yes, I went back and drank and slept because I couldn't do anything to you

romeobanglore: I knew you had a date...I hoped that you will come home for some reasons...so I waited from 9 o'clock in the morning till 2:30

romeobanglore: but I couldn't find you...I knew that you had some dates the whole day till late night, you had told me that...so I went back

romeobanglore: drank and slept

julietscity: How can you say that you tried to surprise me?

julietscity: if you had known that I had a date and backed home late

romeobanglore: I came here and waited for you.......hoping that you will be there

romeobanglore: because if I say to you that I will be here, there is no surprise

romeobanglore: helllllloooo

julietscity: yes

romeobanglore: ok...leave it...

julietscity: yes

romeobanglore: we still have time for surprises...

julietscity: before we live together or after that?

romeobanglore: always

julietscity: but you can't make sure

romeobanglore: surprises are surprises...you can't make sure hahahaha

julietscity: Some things, certain times, certain dates ... only I think of them is important ... you never think that way

romeobanglore: I got your little surprise...your card...

julietscity: life should be like that...you know what I feel now...

romeobanglore: you have a special feeling on some dates, I have on some other, it's difficult to understand that

romeobanglore: well, I never thought that you would like to get an e-card

julietscity: After living together, we will be separated within 6 months. We have different perspectives on life, which will kill us both. Yes ... this will be a joke between us ... the reason for our separation will be different perspectives on the philosophy of surprise.

romeobanglore: maybe...once I had told you this

romeobanglore: what we can do is to understand and adjust and compromise for each other

julietscity: So if we know now ... why should we try?

romeobanglore: ask yourself? why we try? I try because I have hope and belief that we can overcome that

julietscity: yes...it always ME to understand...to compromise...

romeobanglore: never...each other

romeobanglore: you think that I never tried to understand you and compromise?

julietscity: I don't have the confidence to convince you of any different views ... you always have your own way or reason ... that's part of you ... I can't even get involved and never thought about changing it.

romeobanglore: no...I don't want to tell those things, because it should be like that...I don't consider that understanding and compromising for you is a great thing...it is my duty

romeobanglore: and my pleasure

romeobanglore: there is a problem, I am an 'arguer' by instinct! I argue very hard even if feel that I am the wrong

romeobanglore: I want to be very clear of the point

julietscity: So am I !!! And you will win the debate with excellent English and good grammar and vocabulary

romeobanglore: and when I am wrong, I am ready for compromise...it is my nature

julietscity: And my choice is to pack up and leave...

romeobanglore: that is the problem between us...always...

romeobanglore: you know when you argue with me, I never become angry, but when you pack up, I get angry, because I feel that you are neglecting me

julietscity: Yes ... I will always be the loser in front of you

julietscity: NO!! it's not neglecting.. because I know I will not succeed ... why I have to waste my language and make things worse

romeobanglore: I don't like that

romeobanglore: I don't want you to lose, I want you to argue with me and reach a solution

julietscity: what can I do? In front of me... you still want to win or clear the situation... that way...

romeobanglore: that's the problem...you are not wasting words! we are not arguing for winning and losing...there is the difference

romeobanglore: I don't wish to lose, and I don't wish you to lose...so that we can do is to reach a solution...

romeobanglore: if you pack up, we are shutting the chance of our intimacy

julietscity: I am not your enemy nor any competitor ... if there is still victory or defeat, there will not be between us ... Do you think we need to live together?

romeobanglore: I cannot stand your neglect...you can do abuse me or hit me, I won't get mad...but neglect...

romeobanglore: winning and losing is not necessary between us... but you know I don't want to feel that I am wrong...

romeobanglore: I want to feel that I am mistaken, but not wrong

julietscity: Ok...HOLD your RIGHT to live alone

romeobanglore: means what?

julietscity: How do you judge things only RIGHT or WRONG?

romeobanglore: I can't...it is just a feeling

julietscity: You are not the only person with the power to judge RIGHT or WRONG

julietscity: I don't have the right to judge RIGHT or WRONG

romeobanglore: that's correct...that's why we argue, right?

julietscity: Now I tell you, your feeling have killed me...

romeobanglore: everyone thinks that what he does or say is correct...he believes that sincerely, that is why he is doing it

romeobanglore: and I am telling you... correct me when I am mistaken

romeobanglore: I am ready for that...argue with me...but don't neglect

julietscity: it never happened to you!

romeobanglore: what never happened?

julietscity: The only way for me is to remain silent, and I have been arguing with my standard of living for 33 years. I'm tired of it and sick of it

julietscity: you never have a chance to make mistakes

julietscity: Why do you argue with me? Why don't you change yourself to teach me in a different way?

romeobanglore: never give up! you have to stay up always in life

julietscity: no... I hope I give up

romeobanglore: sometimes, the thing is I don't want to teach you or defeat you because I don't want to see you defeated even in my front, so I argue with you...so that I hope we will reach a compromise...but you never wait for that

romeobanglore: never give it up...your life means so much for some others also

romeobanglore: and it means everything for at least one person

romeobanglore: ...that's me

romeobanglore: honey...

romeobanglore: hello

julietscity: You make me cry ... I want to be moved by what you are saying... I never have to be prepared to argue with you ...

julietscity: Once a dispute between us... I will give up and let you win.

julietscity: I will keep all in my mind inside deeply for myself

romeobanglore: I don't want to win! with you, you know...