Yahoo Messenger: 16 November 2000 11:32 PM

Subject: a memory of love is as painful as love

julietscity: I will be myself, only myself

romeobanglore: but you want to say that you would have left your parents, right?

romeobanglore: you think only of you

julietscity: People will believe in my choice. Because I am tough enough to take good care of myself, have strong perseverance to face my own problems, and achieve a good reputation in my field.

julietscity: no... Parents and children will never break this relationship easily. But parents respect mature children to make their own decisions.

romeobanglore: toughness and all those...it's against your enemies not against your lover and parents

romeobanglore: I am not a kid...

romeobanglore: I am grown up and have responsibilities

romeobanglore: every grown-up person has

julietscity: no...you don't have any responsibilities

romeobanglore: how can it happen?

julietscity: You think of death, you think of living the rest of your life with a soulless machine

romeobanglore: if I let them be teased and unhappy?

romeobanglore: the machine is because I have responsibilities

romeobanglore: I didn't say I will suicide

romeobanglore: I asked you to kill me.

romeobanglore: a machine has no feelings, only responsibilities

julietscity: no... When your parents see your face and find that you live in hell, do you think they will be happy?

romeobanglore: I will act

julietscity: If they know that they hurt you because of your marriage... Do you think they will be happy and enjoy it?

julietscity: How do you know they never care about your love and happiness?

romeobanglore: no, they won't...I have to try to let them not know

romeobanglore: I will not be living with them...

romeobanglore: I will be somewhere else

julietscity: That's the same as I asked before... you never told your parents what you really want, but think like yourself... your mother is an intellectual... she can also accept some openness Views and hope to change...

romeobanglore: they just are not open to accepting a foreigner as the wife of their son

romeobanglore: I say so surely because I have seen things

romeobanglore: and a foreigner is not the only problem for us

julietscity: Why not live with them? You are their eldest son who loves you and arranges your marriage. Why?

romeobanglore: ok...if she can accept then great! Who said it should not happen?

romeobanglore: but the chances are less because the society is like that

romeobanglore: they arrange a marriage for everyone.

julietscity: OK...LEAVE IT!!!!!

romeobanglore: in our family

romeobanglore: they know that I can't get a good job in our state, so they can't tell me to live together

romeobanglore: they know that I am living nicely with a job

romeobanglore: another thing is that they might want to have the marriage in a temple in my place

romeobanglore: all the relatives will have to be invited...

romeobanglore: so many expectations and dreams for them

julietscity: so...it's not my business, right? I would never get invited.

romeobanglore: it is their dream...

romeobanglore: you will always be in my heart, no matter live together or not

romeobanglore: I want to marry you...and I will try for it

julietscity: I told you never do it again...

julietscity: Never give me hope ... not a good thing for you. In the future, we will argue with what you promised to marry me

romeobanglore: in the US, if we don't like our living together...then

romeobanglore: but after 2 years, if we reach a stage where we can't separate, I will marry you

romeobanglore: that's all I can say

julietscity: never promise...

julietscity: NEVER!!!

julietscity: Never say anything about marriage, NEVER

julietscity: Don't even have any hope for this... Never deceive the child, because she is innocent and will believe anything else

julietscity: I will cherish the only life I have with you... anyway... that is the only way I enjoy life... I don't know why I must oppose my enjoyment without marriage

romeobanglore: you think I am cheating you!

julietscity: SO...NEVER mention it

julietscity: No... what I'm saying is... never tell me things you can never do and things that never come true.

romeobanglore: I tell what I have in my heart, forget it

julietscity: Just keep it in your heart... one day you can decide a marriage without parents, and then you tell me

romeobanglore: you don't have to believe me...I will follow my heart

romeobanglore: and my heart can never forget you

julietscity: After you tell me everything about relatives and society, how do you expect me to believe you?

julietscity: Stop it!!!

romeobanglore: that is because you don't know India and my state

romeobanglore: do you think that I don't want to marry you?

julietscity: Can you stop the discussion now?

julietscity: please...I beg you...I don't want to think of it.

romeobanglore: I am stopping...I have nothing else to say

romeobanglore: why we chatted today? Why did you want to chat with me?

julietscity: I need you

julietscity: But I never ask you to marry me

julietscity: Very stressful for you... so I don't want

romeobanglore: for what? To blame me like this? To say that I am cheating you?

julietscity: is that clear

romeobanglore: it is clear

julietscity: I don't want you to give me any promise... I don't want to make us worse every time we talk about marriage

julietscity: so I don't want any marriage

romeobanglore: so what happens to our love? or is there nothing left?

julietscity: If there is no marriage in our relationship ... it's good for us.

julietscity: Enjoy our present life ... don't ask to leave anything

julietscity: Maybe only memories

romeobanglore: a memory of love, but no love?

julietscity: Memories will be left for the rest of our lives ... and taste the sweetness... when you think of it... you will smile for it

romeobanglore: smile with tears

julietscity: Our love for us is so painful ... don't you think? It's painful for me ... I don't even know how to release it

julietscity: What do you want me to do? Just thinking about love and crying every day without you ... Do you want me to do this?

romeobanglore: can we just leave all this love so easily?

julietscity: After my eyes become blind ... and then you come to me ... do you think things will leave good memories?

romeobanglore: the memory of love is as painful as love

julietscity: We have to prepare for this and make it easy and simple

julietscity: hey...we have no choice

julietscity: we have known it

romeobanglore: do you know why I never agreed to such a suggestion? because I want to know that you are living happily somewhere

romeobanglore: it is not easy for me to leave love

romeobanglore: if you can do it, do it

romeobanglore: I wish I were selfish

julietscity: yeah... When you know that I live happily with another man ... do you feel better?

romeobanglore: so that I don't have to think of anyone else

romeobanglore: I will feel better than when I know that you are still living alone

julietscity: for me...you are selfish, for your parents...you are selfish, so...no matter what you do...you are selfish

romeobanglore: I am selfish for you and my parents! I live only for these two

julietscity: Once you leave me ... you will never know my real life.

romeobanglore: I get nothing but pain, whatever I choose...still I am selfish!

romeobanglore: I want you to live "happily" with a family because I know you like family

julietscity: You get the love of your parents, but the love you don't want, after that you won't cherish it

romeobanglore: it is just not making body contacts

romeobanglore: the parents love made me a slave

romeobanglore: your love also

julietscity: how? How do you know I will or must be happy with any family?

romeobanglore: I don't have anything for myself

romeobanglore: all I do is for you people

julietscity: I could act like a happily, of course, my ego won't let you know any man hurt me

romeobanglore: I know you for more than 1-1/2 years

romeobanglore: I know...I want you to be "real" happy...because you are precious to me

julietscity: That was your biggest problem ... you always wanted to be a saint

romeobanglore: I am a simple man...I don't want to hurt the ones I love...it is so simple

julietscity: Believe me ... you never know me and I won't show up in front of you

romeobanglore: I can't take any more today...

romeobanglore: I have to think more...

julietscity: You just want to be a good person in society ... but you hurt each of us

romeobanglore: I have to leave now

julietscity: no

romeobanglore: please...I need to go

julietscity: After you marry another woman ... this is a betrayal of our love

romeobanglore: please

julietscity: Betrayal will continue my life

romeobanglore: we can chat tomorrow again

julietscity: no more chat for it...

julietscity: go and have your dinner

romeobanglore: I need to go...

julietscity: sorry for late

romeobanglore: my friends are waiting for

julietscity: and sorry for my everything

romeobanglore: give me some time please

julietscity: and never said it again

julietscity: bye

romeobanglore: bye

romeobanglore: final bye

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