Yahoo Messenger: 23 October 2000 11:22 PM

Subject: 4:00 PM War II

julietscity: NO!!

julietscity: If you don't chat with me...who can chat with me?

romeobanglore: that's better than getting a bad feeling after each time

julietscity: Chat is like talking face to face ...

julietscity: After I read your email, how do you know that I have no intention of fighting?

romeobanglore: good...to talk is face to face...and if we chat like this, we will fight each other when we really are face to face

romeobanglore: by mails, at least I don't have to answer for every fight

julietscity: It's lucky to be face to face as real because we live in two places

romeobanglore: when we are face to face...we will be the same

julietscity: at least I can kiss you, at least I don't have to fight with you about Sunday

romeobanglore: maybe Sunday also we will fight for some other reason

julietscity: at least, if I don't feel well that you will see me through when things happen

romeobanglore: because there is nothing else to do on Sunday

julietscity: at least you will hug me tight when I feel mad. If I am crying...you will kiss my tears away...

romeobanglore: seeing while fighting will make what difference?

julietscity: OK, no more chat again...now I will delete your ID on my friend list and you also have to do that...

romeobanglore: but how can it be so sure all the time?

julietscity: OK?

romeobanglore: ok...you delete

julietscity: it's not fair!

romeobanglore: ok

julietscity: why you have to push me away?

romeobanglore: I never want to push you away...

romeobanglore: you don't want to talk to me on Sunday...

julietscity: because Sunday is always your burden

romeobanglore: that's what u believe

romeobanglore: I came here to talk to you...on Sunday

romeobanglore: I got your mail about the date on Sunday...not on Saturday...

julietscity: I know that!

romeobanglore: can u check it now?

julietscity: that's why I book a time with you

romeobanglore: how can u be sure that I will come here to read that mail before 4oclock?

julietscity: I knew you have a match...I guessed might be your match didn't hold on Sunday... it could be any situation... so I left messages for you

romeobanglore: yes...but why you are angry on me for that...we never had agreed to be there on Sunday, right?

julietscity: maybe after 4:00 pm...Because the game cannot be held after 5:00 pm, if the game lasts for 1.5 hours, the game will be played late at night

romeobanglore: I was in a hurry to fill up the resume you sent...

julietscity: I'm angry with you... because I always can't make sure your schedule, is it difficult for you to tell me that?

romeobanglore: I told you, right? I told you that I had a match on Sunday and that I will be very late, if at all I come

julietscity: I was waiting for you... You just wrote "I am going..." and then ?????? Where are you going or when will you be back?

julietscity: After 4:00 pm, check every half an hour. It's the "late evening" time you told me.

romeobanglore: I didn't come...If I had plans to come, I would have written...I would have asked u to wait

julietscity: I followed your words...and checked the mail all night...

romeobanglore: what I thought was that you had something to do urgently

julietscity: how did I know? "you are going"...means that " you left and won't come tonight"

romeobanglore: because you were not there at your 4 o'clock (that was my misunderstanding)

julietscity: your reply...not at 4:00 pm it's my 5:00 pm

romeobanglore: I thought u will understand that...

julietscity: did I told you to tell me your schedule? every time we fought?

romeobanglore: Yes...I came here at 1:30 my time...that is your time...I thought you might be checking your mails every 30 minutes...so I waited...

julietscity: write an exact message that I will believe that you won't come...

romeobanglore: that was my mistake...I thought you will understand that I won't come again...when I wrote " I am going"

julietscity: what about the other question I asked?

romeobanglore: what was that?

romeobanglore: about the baby?

julietscity: what's the answer?

romeobanglore: about the baby, I don't want to discuss anything now...

romeobanglore: we have a deal about that

julietscity: yeah...you said face to face then we will discuss it

romeobanglore: ok

julietscity: but my point is "will you take away the baby from me?"

julietscity: Yes or No?

romeobanglore: no discussion about that now

julietscity: If I was pregnant with your child ... I will leave you and you will never find me

julietscity: I also know you can't solve the problem in our case...

romeobanglore: no discussion about that

julietscity: even Ashok's romance...

romeobanglore: About Ashok's romance, I told u all I know

julietscity: None of you thought it would be resolved... you know very clearly in your heart... but you still lied to me and gave me hope...

romeobanglore: that is because I hope for it

julietscity: You said time will be resolved... but when you discuss the situation of Ashok, I suddenly understand...

julietscity: you all think it's impossible between us... right? You know... this makes me like a...

romeobanglore: I told u that time might solve ours...

julietscity: MIGHT? what does it mean? tell me...and...explain it to me...please...

romeobanglore: I don't think it is impossible...I hope for it...I pray for it...I live for it and I try for it

julietscity: try?

romeobanglore: yes...I will do all my best................

julietscity: do you try to tell your parents about me or any other friends who live in your state...

romeobanglore: I had told u this before

romeobanglore: Many of my friends in my state know about you...but not my parents

julietscity: when you told me "not to come to Bangalore...people would see you and me together and it will hurt my family's reputation" ????!

romeobanglore: I told u I can't tell my parents now

romeobanglore: people doesn't mean my friends...others who are here from my place

julietscity: I even can't go to Bangalore to see you

romeobanglore: and it is not harming of reputation... my parents will come to know about me and they will pressurize me

julietscity: Do you think sometimes you are selfish?

romeobanglore: I told you, one day I will take u to India

romeobanglore: If I was selfish, I would have lived with you without any problem

julietscity: then what's the problem when we lived together?

julietscity: get pregnant? I pray for that so it's not a problem.

romeobanglore: that's what said, my parents...I have to take care of them too

romeobanglore: please...about getting pregnant also...if I was selfish, I would have agreed

romeobanglore: because I have nothing to loose

romeobanglore: remember...once I asked you to think of your future...I told that with my heart burning...

romeobanglore: I told you that because I am not selfish

julietscity: My future is OK, but to dream together or maybe not... dreams should be different...

romeobanglore: I told you...I have only myself to offer

romeobanglore: 'to you and to them...

romeobanglore: no...if we couldn't be together...I have to think about your future also...

julietscity: You have to tell yourself a fact... if you really live with me... you have to realize what I want... do I want a baby...

romeobanglore: that's why I said that...before living together for at least 1 year

romeobanglore: this thing we have discussed a lot

julietscity: I will try my best to get pregnant... and all you might do is protect yourself from losing anything.

julietscity: otherwise...we don't have sex when we live together...

romeobanglore: I don't lose anything if u get pregnant...you know...

romeobanglore: but I believe you that you won't get pregnant without my agreement

julietscity: I will... I am a bad woman and I want to be the worst woman... because of the baby... I will do anything to change myself

romeobanglore: u will cheat me?

julietscity: it just happens

romeobanglore: it won't just happen...without your knowing

julietscity: In the end, I will lose you... to have a child for me, it doesn't matter to you

romeobanglore: don't think I am that selfish...to leave you with a baby

julietscity: selfish means...you finally have to leave me...but you don't even give me any worthy between us

romeobanglore: I also don't have anything

julietscity: I don't want that memory... it kills me... I want a baby who can talk to me

julietscity: You will get a fresh life from your parents and time will heal you

romeobanglore: I also don't have anything

romeobanglore: you very well know why I am opposed to this...I have told you many many times

julietscity: no...for any man, life could very easy to go on with any woman. The best one always in their mind and far away from them...because lost the best...they felt cherish in the only mind

romeobanglore: that is wrong...man is also a human being...

julietscity: but for any woman... there should be a goal for them to survive

romeobanglore: We cannot discuss it now...

julietscity: my goal is to have a baby with my lover

romeobanglore: about babies...we have an agreement...

julietscity: I remember my agreement...I don't know what's yours

romeobanglore: the agreement is not to talk about this till we live together

julietscity: I just let you know earlier about my decision

julietscity: If you feel scared about my attitude...then...you should think of it...

romeobanglore: I am ready to be a bad person for you...rejecting my lover's wishes...but I want you to have no troubles...

romeobanglore: Yes, this is the first time you said that you might cheat me...

julietscity: yeah...no troubles...for me...means suicide

romeobanglore: shut up

julietscity: don't you believe it?

julietscity: if you take away the baby from me...I will kill the baby and myself...I have nothing to lose, right?

romeobanglore: I don't want to believe it

romeobanglore: kill me too

julietscity: Now I know we have to separate ... so my only goal of survival is to have a child for myself

julietscity: I take care of the baby... just like any divorced woman raising her own children...

romeobanglore: but now we can't talk about baby

julietscity: 8:30 pm your time...go and have your dinner...

romeobanglore: scold me or do whatever u want.......

julietscity: I just let you know my heart

romeobanglore: yes I have to go for dinner...

julietscity: I am tough, right? so don't worry about me if the baby with me

romeobanglore: u aren't tough

julietscity: I am, or I will become very tough

romeobanglore: your heart is to cheat me for having a baby?

julietscity: At first, it wasn't... but in the end, I realized the facts and knew what would happen... and then... it seems I have to do that ...

romeobanglore: and if u have a baby without my consent, I might suicide...

romeobanglore: let's not discuss it now...

romeobanglore: I have to go

julietscity: bye, good night

romeobanglore: good night