Yahoo Messenger: 17 September 2000 12:46 PM

Subject: how can I live without you?

julietscity: how do you train yourself for not feeling pain

julietscity: helloooooo

romeobanglore: I try to accept it

julietscity: but how? Accepting this is easy to say and not easy to do...

romeobanglore: it isn't easy...

romeobanglore: but there is no other way...you know

julietscity: I can accept it, but I can't control myself without thinking about you, so some doubts bother me

romeobanglore: that is again on thing...I have absolute faith in you

julietscity: no... You just tell yourself that you have faith in me... but if you don't see what I'm doing, would you have no doubt?

romeobanglore: it is not a doubt....it is a feeling of unhappiness

julietscity: I don't understand it

romeobanglore: I train my mind to believe in you

julietscity: how? by accepting it or another way?

romeobanglore: no...I don't know why...but I have faith in you

julietscity: but I don't have faith in myself...you know I am very changeable.

romeobanglore: you change....but the basics remain the same

julietscity: how do you know I will love you forever? I don't believe people will love forever

romeobanglore: you may not love me forever...but you won't change in one day or night

romeobanglore: your mails, your words, and your talking everything has created a sense of faith in me about you

julietscity: that's why you always forgive me

julietscity: for all my bad words or bad temper

romeobanglore: hmmm...

romeobanglore: maybe

julietscity: when I can't stand the pain and can't hug you, you don't know that I train myself not to love you.

romeobanglore: but you can't do that

romeobanglore: I know

julietscity: sorry honey...my stomach doesn't feel well now...I can't breathe...

romeobanglore: honey...I want to hug you

romeobanglore: and caress your stomach gently

julietscity: can't we stop for 10 minutes...I need to find some medicine and...I will stay connected

romeobanglore: no....take rest...sleep well...

julietscity: take the time to read the email I sent you, okay?

julietscity: no, I have been sleeping and waiting for you all morning

romeobanglore: I don't want to read the emails now

julietscity: I don't want to leave you...I need you to talk to me more...about me

romeobanglore: ok.............

julietscity: I don't want to leave you...

romeobanglore: I will go out for a smoke and come...

julietscity: ok...see you after 10 minutes...why you don't want to read my mails

romeobanglore: my head is aching

julietscity: my god...it's painful...

romeobanglore: becoz the mails might make me feel uncomfortable

julietscity: ok, so end off today's conversation?

romeobanglore: no...I will come back

julietscity: ok...see you after 10 minutes

romeobanglore: ok

julietscity: I am back

julietscity: you know, lovers should meet every day because they need to do something... that's why I think this is normal

romeobanglore: I came now

julietscity: I want to see you every day ... and go home after work, I need someone to talk to me ...

julietscity: thanks for coming back to me

romeobanglore: u r right

romeobanglore: it is the same with me...

julietscity: you never say that to me

romeobanglore: yesterday night while coming back. There were a couple in the bus...talking and kissing...

julietscity: I always tell you all my feelings first, you always agree ... it's mine ... I don't know if it's your politeness or shyness ...

romeobanglore: I was thinking of you all night

julietscity: great...you need to kiss

romeobanglore: no...many times...I told you that I need to be with you

julietscity: I can't believe Indians will be on the bus... kissing in public?

romeobanglore: I wanted to come there badly

romeobanglore: that was in the night

julietscity: how badly?

romeobanglore: everyone was sleeping

julietscity: but you heard the..."boo-boo"

romeobanglore: u told me not to waste money...so I suppressed my feeling

romeobanglore: yes...I heard and I saw their lips touching

julietscity: you forgot what I said about not to waste money...

julietscity: because you will be here soon...

romeobanglore: whenever I am alone, I think of being with you....you in my arms

julietscity: is there a need or desire to force you to come here soon?

romeobanglore: of course yes...

romeobanglore: but u didn't agree to it

julietscity: how can you live on your own imagination and thought ... I can't just think of you and be content... it drives me crazy

romeobanglore: just now I have made the decision to come there

julietscity: I used to disagree... and then agree... but you didn't do it right away

romeobanglore: next month or in November

romeobanglore: for a week

julietscity: and Christmas we will be together?

romeobanglore: Xmas is in December

julietscity: a week is not enough, you backed home for more than 10 days

julietscity: ah... Xmas we won't be together

romeobanglore: ok...10 days

julietscity: no...2 weeks

romeobanglore: or more than that...I will take all my leaves

julietscity: we have to go to other cities

romeobanglore: for you

julietscity: OKKKKKKK...more than 2 weeks...

romeobanglore: I will come to anywhere with you

julietscity: I don't know how to reply...when you wrote you will come to anywhere with me...because I can't take it seriously...and you know the reason I can't

julietscity: someday you didn't do that... you know I will fight with you and hurt you again.

romeobanglore: I know what u mean...and u know my situation

julietscity: I am very careful

romeobanglore: anyway...we will meet in next month or November...ok?

julietscity: ok...next month...

romeobanglore: there are some more people who expect me to do what they like...just like you...only thing is that my heart is with you

romeobanglore: October is too near...I have to arrange for Visa...leaves, tickets

romeobanglore: we should not decide the exact date

julietscity: ok...

romeobanglore: becoz like last time...we may face problems

romeobanglore: and that may hurt both of us

julietscity: I will prepare documents for your visa here again...then it's easy for you to get a new visa because you have your name there

romeobanglore: I don't know the formalities of applying for Visa

romeobanglore: you have to help me

julietscity: ok... you tell me the time and full name, then I will apply to invite you to visit here, and our Indian embassy will receive my invitation and give you a new visa quickly

romeobanglore: ok...GREAT!!!!!!!!!

julietscity: of course, you have to apply in India

romeobanglore: I can smell you now

romeobanglore: how the 2 applications will meet?

julietscity: If your company assigns you to Germany... I think this is a good way for us to go to Germany again

romeobanglore: yes...but I don't know when they will send me there again

julietscity: I will tell you or you will tell me the number of the documents, then our embassy will check out the papers

romeobanglore: ok......grrrrrrreat

julietscity: oh...your new projects don't need you to be in Germany again?

romeobanglore: I feel your smell all around

julietscity: how?

julietscity: I didn't send you any smell from my side?

romeobanglore: new projects which need me to go to Germany comes in November

romeobanglore: but...yes...I can smell you...

romeobanglore: the smell of your body...

julietscity: Oh...November, I can't leave my country at that time

romeobanglore: and yes....the sweet smell of your pussy

romeobanglore: then I may have to come there

romeobanglore: ok...we have time to sort it out

julietscity: I think this is one of the most painful things when I need you or you need me

romeobanglore: yes

julietscity: We both need and miss our desires every night... and some lovers, if they live in the same city, they can easily meet and sleep together

romeobanglore: yes, that why when we meet. We always do hugging, kissing, and caressing

julietscity: because we only have a short time to show our love... we want to eat each other to love each other

romeobanglore: hahaha...exactly....you said the exact words

romeobanglore: next time I will eat you

julietscity: when I knew that there would be a companion sleeping with me every night and sweetly smiling together... Life turned into an excellent experience... but if we can't be together, it becomes very scary again... that caused my daily harm

romeobanglore: you know what does "eating a woman" means

julietscity: it means the man hates the woman? Haha...

romeobanglore: am I a good companion?

romeobanglore: no...eating a woman means...licking and sucking her pussy

julietscity: Yes... you are the best and most missed person in the world... sometimes... I think if I lose you... how should I live...

romeobanglore: you are the best woman in my life...I have told you 100000 times!

julietscity: how can I live without you?

julietscity: every time pain comes, I have to go through it again ...

romeobanglore: maybe some months after we live together, the love may come down

julietscity: Then... arguing with you... scolding you... driving you crazy... again and again...

romeobanglore: I want to hug you tightly to my chest now

julietscity: yes... when love comes down... another love will reappear... I hope this love won't hurt us both

julietscity: no one in my house...can I call you and kiss you now...

romeobanglore: I think our body needs are the main thing which keeps us always energetic

romeobanglore: yes...no one here too

julietscity: one minute

romeobanglore: ok

romeobanglore: bye........