From: Kamal E Y [email protected] >

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 22 January, 2000 04:58 PM

Subject: Talkative

Dear,

There is one thing which I can assure you. I am a talkative person when I feel comfortable. In fact, I am toooo talkative. Everyone in my department regards me as an outgoing character. That was the same in my school and college too. Many times I had got a warning from teachers for talking in the class while teaching. Even in the house, I talk very much and jovially. The only thing is, it is my character not to show my feelings. Even to friends, even to my family. I always hide my feelings and try not to hurt others. This is not because I am a great person! This is because of my ego, I think. I don't want anyone to see me as vulnerable or weak. You are the only person to whom I openly confessed that I cried.

I too am of our opinion that when there is no love, there should not be sex. When we met, I hugged you because I had the hope that we will soon overcome the problems. I thought that we were prepared to bear the first disappointments. I had many dreams of our stay together. I didn't want to spoil them. If we didn't hug each other or have sex, I think we would have never become so close to talk or discuss anything. If we didn't do anything we would have remained formal throughout the 8 days. We would have lived in the same house as strangers.

But after having sex and hugging, we became a bit closer so that we were able to discuss our feelings. I still don't have any regret of kissing or hugging you when we met for the first time because that helped us to become close and overcome the initial strangeness. Don't you think so? If we had remained formal on the first day, what would have happened? We would have discussed formally our fantasies and slept in a separate bed. And after the 8 days, we would have become more strangers. What do you think?

You started to make stories about our future, right? Let me know about those. In that way, we can always know the feelings and needs of the other person. I can try to make those things happen to us, if possible. Still, I don't know what your ideas about our family life are.

I got 16/20 in the German class presentation (seminar) and 12/15 in the written paper. One lady (she is around 50) got 14/15! Cricket match rules have changed. Now they are not conducting finals. They will decide from the points each team got in the preliminary rounds. We will finish second, most probably, or with some luck, we may even finish first. The other team competing with us has one more match left. If they lose it, we will win. If they win, then we have to look into a run rate. Oh, you don't know that.

Have a nice time at your "university daddy's wedding". I know that you don't like wedding banquets. Don't run away from there! Sunday night is not boring this rime, right?

I thought that I will not get your mail today. When did you come back?

Did I clear the doubt you asked? Have you sent a "delete" message to your memory?

Ok, that is it for now. I will try to follow your "commands" to bring my fever down.

Yours

Kamal