From: Kamal E Y [email protected] >

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 19 December, 1999 09:47 PM

Subject: pray for me

My dear,

Don't say there is no Christmas this year. Even if I have canceled the ticket on 24th, I may come there on the 25th night. We still shave time left for our Xmas. And even if that also doesn't happen, please don't worry. We will make up for it during the days we are together. I know 6 days or even 7 days is too short. But it is the only way now.

Coming there and settling in S city is not totally impossible. If I get a good job in a good company. The company will take care of all the formalities of that. But I know that after I come back from there, our lives will be very much different. I don't want our relationship to suffering because we miss each other very much. Waiting is bothering me too. I try to be calm, but you know in our case, the heart gets better of the brain.

Life is not against you. Never think like that. See, this is not your problem, only, it is my problem also. I want you to realize that I will be with you through your ups and downs. I am getting worried about you nowadays. Because you are always saying something about your life in case we could not meet. You hate waiting. I too. But I am waiting for you, that makes me overcome my frenzy.

You told me to run away from each other after I return to India. Can you do it? Our sex days will be always burning in our minds. To run away from you, I don't know...

And I have to give you a little slap on your back!!!! (Your ears are already red because of me pinching!) You wrote that you don't want my life to be influenced by your unfortunate life. You know, to get your love was my fortune. If your life is unfortunate, my life is also so, because my life is not separate from yours. You must never tell anything like this. I am not doing any favour by loving you! I love you because I like you.

Tomorrow, I will fax the bank statement to our embassy. Pray for me. Buddha can't refuse your prayers.

Always yours

Kamal