From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 30 November, 1999 02:20 PM

Subject: come on!!!

My lonely girl,

I perfectly understand what you had written and I can feel what you felt that night after that nightmare. But what I want you to realize is that you are not the only person in this world who have gone through such experience. Even amid all my friends, I am lonely. Your experience is so strong because you think you don't have enough time to wait. You think of your age and so believe that there is not enough time to waste. It is natural that you become restless.

What I want you is not to think of quitting the job, because you need to be busy with something. That will keep away all the other thoughts for a while. About my job, I told you I will find a job abroad next year. You told me that it is difficult to find a software job in S city. That is why I didn't try there. What I thought was after coming there we can discuss the possibility of finding a job there. If not, I will find out a job somewhere, maybe in the US. Of course, my first preference will be S city. I want to find a good job, with enough money for both of us and to send it to my parents. You know, I have to take care of the studies of my brother and sister. Since I have only a 1-year experience now, my salary will be not so high. That is another reason for my waiting.

I have also thought about how it will be after coming back here from your place in January. It will be hard for me to live here alone without you after our meeting. We might have given all of ours to each other by that time. That is the only thing that worries me. For the other questions, I have an idea. Our future is uncertain, I know, but we two are there to face it.

You must know that I don't want you to live alone. Waiting is hard for you. But try to imagine this way. We are two teenage lovers. We have to pass many hurdles to unite. The time which is lost is not for waiting, but for loving more and more. See, how many teenagers are waiting for their lover.

After our first meeting, I think we can arrange for meetings at regular intervals until we start living together. Please never think of quitting your job, till I find a new one, ok? Anyway, you have to finish your job, it is till the end of next year, right? Before that, I will find a place and a job for us.

You told, "not working is every women's dream". You think so because you have been working all through your life and want a break. But I know many women who are always searching for some work because they feel lonely after their husband goes to work. So taking a break is ok, but don't decide to quit a job forever. I will help you to find out a job which doesn't require much tension. You have the ability and talent. Don't let it go waste. A job will always make you feel secure. You can take a break when we start to live together. After that, if you want we can find an easier job for you.

Yesterday, I went to a travel agency. They said they will arrange the flight. The flight will be via S'pore. It will take 14 hours. I have to apply for a visa today. They say they will do it for me. But I am worried that I don't know your country has an embassy here in India. If yes, then it is ok, otherwise, I don't know how they will make it.

Being lonely at night and having nightmares are unbearable, I know. But come on!!! We will make our 9 nights so memorable that we will never have any bad dreams for a long time to come. And if you once again say about disappearing or something like that, hmmm...

And again, don't think about being perfect. You need not act with me. I love every bit of you, perfect or imperfect. Even your little white strand of hair, l love them too.

So come on!!! We will face the lonely nights...always think that when you feel lonely, I too am lonely. Love you so much...

Love

Kamal