From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 24 November, 1999 01:54 PM

Subject: save your tears

My crying girl,

Well, for the past few days, we were so preoccupied with the flight timings and schedule that we didn't discuss many personal things. And yesterday, when it was a bad day for you, I didn't know that. Did you cry again? Please, please don't cry now. It is ok if you cry when I am with you because I can kiss your tears away and soothe you. Your bitterness will disappear under my caressing, but now, you cannot cry. You must not cry. Save your tears till we meet.

You can cry on my shoulders. It is ok if my shoulders are wet with your tears. You can give vent to your feelings to me. Be it anger or disappointment. But not now, pleeeease. I know it is close to your menses date. I feel tensed and bad to let you worrying especially this week. Here is no need for you to suffer from anyone in the office. When I get an established job somewhere outside India, I will never allow you to work in such an environment. Our head should always be held high. That is what I want.

Today or tomorrow is our menses, right? How are you feeling? Does it pain? What you said is correct. Now we can't reach each other when we want. Your tears are burning my mind. I think I have almost made up my mind to come there in December. I can't let you go on crying like this. If everything goes smooth, I will be by your side on your next menses date. Are you feeling better? Hmmm...give me a kiss now!!! Hmmmmm...

In the last mail, you mentioned about a flight from India to S city. Is there a direct flight? This is what I want to ask you. How can I come there? The dates of leave are no problem because if they allow me to take leave, I can take it on any date. The Y2K problem I know. But it is ok. Dying in a plane crash after meeting you is worth my entire life. I am not afraid to take the risk. But the dates are up to you because you have to finish your work. So tell me the date. (This decision, I leave to you!! Because of your work.)

Tell me in detail, how I can come there. You once told me there is no direct flight. Last mail, you wrote about the duration of the flight. So tell me clearly, is there any direct flight? If there is no direct flight, what is the easiest way to come there?

I know you are so busy these days with your work. And now, I too am giving your work!! It is ok if you can't answer my questions soon. I can understand the tension of your job. If you can't answer, I can find out from here, somehow. (But there is no one better than my girl to ask for a suggestion that is why I asked you.) I don't want to overburden you.

And why did you write "Today was not a great day in office, but I have no one to tell." Who said there is no one for you to tell? Who am I? Why didn't you call me when you felt bad? You are not sharing your sorrows with me fearing that I may get worried, right? No, if you are sad, why should I be happy. You must tell me. I like worrying about you. It is my pleasure and duty. You must tell me when you are sad. You must call me. You must not cry alone at night. You can call your office time to my office, whenever you want. I am here to share not only your happiness but your sorrows too.

You have to promise me now, that you will tell me whenever you feel sad, ok? When you feel very sad, you have to call me. I want you to promise me. You must never back away from telling me these fearing that I might get worried. This is very important. You should be very clear about this.

I am waiting for flight timings...

With you in your joys and sorrows

Kamal