From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 25 October, 1999 07:51 PM

Subject: new house

Dear Sabrina,

There was no one at the time to share my ecstasy when I got your gifts. Sumit is in our hometown, Ojas is in Germany and Hari is not my friend, to whom I can tell everything. He is much older than me. Saturday, the whole day I waited in the office to see whether you had changed your mind. So we shifted to the house only yesterday. I got your photo just before shifting to the new house. So it means, both of us have entered the hose at the same time.

I will check to see whether your Valentine's Day mail is still with me. I don't want to see it again. That is why I am postponing it. Anyway, I will check and send it soon.

Your mind is quick to take decisions even if out of emotion. You wrote yesterday that you want to delete your profile form getfriends. But just two days back you told me you are so excited and love to get more friends from the net. So quickly you make decisions! This is why I always say your heart is soft. You get hurt easily, get angry easily and cry quickly.

You cried all the ten days and thought that I will never contact you again? If your tears fall on the ground, it will be too hot for me to walk again on this earth. The 13 kisses might have been hot with your tears! Some of those kisses were bright and some faded. So I thought, you applied lipstick once or twice in between kissing. That made me think you were happy. Now I know the sadness behind those. To kiss those tears away from your eyes, you know how I feel.

Ok, I will tell you in detail, why I couldn't call you those days. Saturday afternoon I reached home and slept all day and night. Sunday was a marriage of Sumit's elder brother. All our schoolmates went for that. The whole day we spent together, recollecting the old times when we were together. I couldn't leave them and come home. Monday, I couldn't even get out of my house, because all my relatives came there to see me. I am the eldest of the young generation in our family. And they all treat me like a little boy of 5 years. ON Tuesday I went and read your mail. The connection was so slow, that whenever I hit reply, the connection will time out after some time. Then the urge to call you became strong and I decided to call you. The next day, I tried to call you from a booth but didn't get the line to S city.

I chose not to go to all the booths and try because everyone will come to know the number and they will start gossiping. Again I tried to call you the next day, with the same result. And Friday I was in my relative's house. On Saturday too I had to spend there. It would have been suicidal for us to create a fuss over the telephone call. So I chose to suffer the pain for a short time to eliminate it is a permanent one. I think the dates I have given here are all correct. I remember the events, but not the days. This is the truth, open heart. I know it was painful for you. It was so for me too. But since I always had the company of the relatives and others of my age, I might not have felt the real heat of it. I know you are alone there. That makes your tears flow. I won't let this happen again. Believe me. If your eyes are wet, I don't think I can live somewhere in peace.

About my character, there is one thing I like and dislike at the same time. I can never say "No" to the people close to me. I try my best not to disappoint any. I don't know why some girls got attracted to me, maybe I gave them a feeling that like them, or maybe they liked my jovial behavior.

The story about my classmates, that was all sex, right? Since we came a lot away from there, I thought it might not be relevant for us now. Nowadays I don't think of it much too. Do you want me to write those again?

About my job, hmmm...first, try to get into our website and look for telecom. There won't be much about telecom but try. I will tell you in detail the complexities of a cell phone or private exchanges later, OK?

I haven't replied to the Aussie girl after her last mail. That was before 2 weeks. That also I will tell, not now, because this mail is already too long!

So my love, remind me all these, I will tell you all...

Yours only

Kamal