From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 27 September, 1999 01:44 PM

Subject: no regrets, no sorries.

My sweetheart,

It is not even three months since we met! Can you believe this? On Oct 10th, we will complete it for 3 months. What will we do to commemorate the day? Any idea?

You told me even if I know you from head to toe, you don't know me that much. I am exasperated. What should I do to make you understand and know me? I told you to ask any number of questions. You asked some and answered. Now the only way seems to meet. And that is on the way. I won't say I am perfect or Mr. Right. Anyway, I don't think I will hurt you in any way, knowingly.

And again, you told me to tell you smoothly if you sound unreasonable about our meeting. NO! You are echoing my sentiments, which I don't say or write that often. You know, I want to meet you today, now. You can say it directly because you are independent and free. I hold myself back only because I have been into this real world, only one year back. I passed out of college last year. So still I have a lot of uncertainties and that is delaying my decision making. If you ask me, I will say, I want you here NOW. I want to wat with you, sleep with you, walk with you and make love with you.

I got the company list you sent me. Most of them suit my field. But I don't know how they recruit foreign nationals there. How the interview will be conducted and all that. I am still going through the site.

I will be back here most probably on 11th, not 8th. For once we avoided 8! Hope we can avoid all the eights of our life.

That day when we talked you said something and I couldn't hear it because some dog was barking in the background. I asked it again and you said you are shy. OK, now this is mail, tell me what was it?

I will give you my house number. You can call anytime and ask my mom to leave a message. While talking to her, speak clearly and slowly, OK? She may not understand your accent. About the proposals and all, I will give the details after coming back. Don't worry my girl, they won't be accepted because my parents too think that I am too young to marry now. No tension, OK? Your stomach is feeling well now? This is your week before menses, so don't get worried unnecessarily. Last time it came late, don't let it happen this time. I will be thinking of you all day on the 30th.

OK, the deal is taken. You can ask me anything if I break any promise. I don't know what a welfare card is. I don't have any. I will give you something to mark the deal. What should it be?

You want to keep an elephant as a pet. That will look so strange! You can ride on it through the streets, children will gather around you and it will look like a procession. Now, how about a blue whale? It is bigger than elephants. We can use it in water too.

After Ojas has gone to Germany, I will go to my lodge alone. I won't go to dinner with any girl unless that becomes absolutely necessary. Sure. And I have some girlfriends, whom I knew earlier or who studied with me. Other than that I don't have many contacts with girls. Now smile!

This is the week before menses when you get heated up. I wish to be with you, to take care and make love all day and all night. But...for the time being, here, take my kisses and plant it in all your secret parts.

Love you

Kamal