From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 16 September, 1999 05:06 PM

Subject: I feel pain

Dearest Sabrina,

I will never intentionally delay or cancel my reply. Take my word for that. If you don't get any mail from me for two days and not a phone call too, you can be sure that I am dead or seriously injured. It is ok if you call me. But it is difficult to get my residence line. It will be always busy. Do you want me to call you? OK, this month's end, I will call you again. OK? And in between, I told that you can call me anytime. I will be more than happy if you call me. I wish we could talk every day!

How did I find our address? It seems as it was years back! I was just browsing through the site and then saw your note saying that "perhaps I will feel comfortable in sharing my story with a stranger". I was attracted by those simple words. There were no big requirements or demands. I couldn't help sending you a mail.

After fighting for our love. I know it is going to be tough. But we'll try. And about fighting for my old girlfriend, she was also too scared then. She too didn't want to hurt her parents. I told you her father was almost about to die of that heart attack. We were out of mind from the pressure. I don't know whether you understand the situation.

I am going to my house this month-end. I am thinking of exploding a bombshell by introducing you if I get a chance. A lot of proposals are coming for me from the parents of many girls. My parents are handling it. Fortunately, they are sending all of them back. Still, 3 or 4 years are there for me to marry. I know we can't wait to meet until then. We MUST meet before that and maybe live together.

The nights are more painful than days. During the day time, there are many things to think of. But during nights thinking of you far away from me...I too always imagine that we are on the same bed. You in my arms and your smell in my nose huddled together. I always think of holding you close and kissing your warm mouth until we both fall asleep. How long we have to wait to make everything come true?

Promises are words, I know, but that is the only thing I can do now. Now after our talk through phone, I regretted having blown up the chance for our meeting. That meeting would have made our heat come down a bit. But I have the feeling that we are going to meet soon. Somehow I am sure of that.

You know that I love you. But you don't know how much. It is more than you think...

I love you...love you...

Kamal