From: Kamal E Y [email protected]>

To: Sabrina [email protected] >

Sent: 28 August, 1999 02:10 PM

Subject: I am lost

My princess,

One thing in the software industry is that no one can boss you around. There is an atmosphere of mutual respect all around. Everyone knows that the other person is well educated and had been selected for the job because of his capabilities. So respect for them will always be there. Of course, some ego clashes will be there one trying to outsmart the other. But in that case, too I am lucky. I have got the most helpful colleagues in our company.

About Sumit, I didn't say about our affair to Sumit because I know he will scold me for loving a girl so far away. I don't want to hear that. I told you he is rational in love too. He will say something which I can't bear. So I purposefully delayed telling him. But if I say strongly something, he will support me. He is a good friend in all aspects. I am almost sure that he will find out a way for us to meet. But I have to insist.

Being in love makes you young, senseless, and the happiest creature on earth. Love comes to those who love even if they have been hurt before, to those who still hope even though they have been disappointed before. To those who still believe even though they have been betrayed before. In my dreams, you are always there smiling. Yes, I am also waiting for our sexual encounter. I assure you that it will happen. I will take you to my arms and kiss all your body, private parts, your breasts, cunt, buttocks, naval button, everywhere. I will lick and suck your soft pink nipples. I will make you cry with pleasure with my tongue in your cunt. Then we will go into the ultimate act. My penis in your count and thrusting in and out, breaking your hymen and all the rules of the world. We will spend hours in the bed locked in each other's arms. That is the day when I break all the promises. We will make it happen. It will happen because if two persons sincerely and strongly wish for a thing, there is nothing to stop them. There is a concept of cosmic consciousness in Hindu philosophy. Have you heard of it?

Why I didn't talk to my mother for 2 years? Ok, that was not directly because of our love. Both of our family were against our love affair, but my family was willing to concede if I stood strong. The problem with my mother started in a petty thing. Very simple petty thing. That time I was so much in love that I never cared for anything or anyone else in the world. So I thought there is no point in talking to my mother and I cut her off. With my father, I was not so close. A formal relationship. He was in the Army. So I never had any chances to mingle with him freely. He tried to make up our fight, but I refused to listen. My brother and sister were young at that time. I thought just kids. They didn't have any big role in this.

My lover was very beautiful and she was the goddess of many boys in my class. I too liked her beauty. More than that, she was innocent and shy. She was intelligent too. Always amount the top 5 in the class. (I was the topper there.) Her character was very soft. All these made me love her.

Why didn't you say you won't write on Sundays? I want to see your two letters on Monday. Or else I will pinch your ear...

Lots of love

Your Kamal