Light.. One Eighty-One (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Two (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Three (sfx sound of) click.One Eighty-Four (sfx sound of) click. PAIN...

My skin is pealing away from me slowly, being ripped in currents of endless pain that I can't even get used to. As I think okay this is horrible but I can keep ahold of myself to focus and see through this film of light to look around, but no... this is not something I can hold my breath and grit my teeth through in the hopes of holding out until I grasp a moment of reprieve.

One Eighty-Five (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Six (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Seven (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Eight click.One Eighty-Nine click. One Ninety (sfx sound of) click. Darkness…

Why do I only feel a body while I am in pain?

I am paralyzed when I am not...

If there is a functionality issue with me... I could just wait for the end, but who is to say an end would be a release?

Light.. One Eighty-One (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Two (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Three (sfx sound of) click.One Eighty-Four (sfx sound of) click. PAIN...One Eighty-Five (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Six (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Seven (sfx sound of) click. One Eighty-Eight click.One Eighty-Nine click. One Ninety (sfx sound of) click. Darkness…

I don't think there is a way back to less pain, once I pierced through the wall there doesn't seem to be a way back.. I can't just try to fall back asleep immediately. I just feel the building pain and now nausea from just trying to let it come to minimalize the pain.

*Sigh* I don't enjoy this pain, but I feel that if I stay here or give in the "System" will kill me... "self-destruct"...force me to kill myself? Thats explicatived up!

What a malevolent entity this "System" is... Is it my creator.. Is it a mind controlling squid pushing its tentacles into different circumstances choosing, "You don't fit my ideal parameters, YOU DIE! You can survive to suffer. You get a puppy. You get a cookie. YOU get to be wrung by my metaphyscial tentacles until you burst.

...

What the explicative are those? Squid? Tentacles? Puppy?

Hmm... cookie sounds good... *Shrugs* I don't know what it is but it sounds good though.

Something is clearly wrong with me, but I don't want to die... If this is all life is.. Then "System" explicative you!

I WANT BETTER!