《A Will to Recognize》12. Delusional Afterthoughts
Advertisement
“How’s the food?”
“Edible,” I said in all honesty.
Normally, I would be responding with some mundane answer like “It’s alright,” or “It’s fine,” but such run-of-the-mill answers did not feel right to say toward this person. While I didn’t know who she was or what her objective was, I knew she currently posed no harm to me, and other than that, she was definitely not “normal” in any sense. In fact, I was starting to think this entire world was filled with lunatics—except for my parents who I didn’t even know. Everyone seemed to have a hidden motive. It was unsettling, but at the same time, a little thrilling. I really wish I didn’t think dangerously like this, but I found it hard to do otherwise.
‘Maybe I am a masochist.’
The atmosphere by normal standards was awkward, with me sitting at one side while the red-head at the end of the rectangle table. I didn’t give it any mind, because what reason did I have to care about? I had nothing to lose, literally. I didn’t know anyone in this world. I didn’t have anything in this world, not yet. And I’ve got balls bigger than the norm. That should be enough to justify my chad-like attitude, no?
Of course, if you peeled back a layer, anyone would be able to see the little bit of worry from my beating heart. But I was confident in my poker face. Extremely confident in fact, that I could strip naked right here at the dining table and still maintain the facade. I’m not doing that of course. Don’t be perverted dear reader…
‘Reader?’
I always did wonder why I thought of myself in the third person in such a natural manner. Was it unique that I treated myself as a character in a story? I guess life is a story in a way, so was it wrong? Huh. I guess it would be pretty sick if I was actually a character written by some deranged no-life. That would guarantee I have plot armor, right? Right?
‘Plot armor, baby!’
My heart finally calmed, beating in sync with every chew. I took the time to wiggle my tongue all around my mouth, feeling for all the colors, textures, and “Wows.”
‘It tasted like real food!’
Advertisement
‘...’
I wasn’t too big on food anyway, so I guess that’s all the excitement I can expel.
As I continued to enjoy my food very excitedly, and I meant very excitedly, the redhead declared, “You’re going to be living here from now on.”
“Cool,” I responded immediately, leaving no time for silence.
What I really wanted to say was, “Cool, also fuck you.”
When I sensed the uncanniness of a distant gaze, I raised my attention off of the plate, and looked her in the eye, just as she did to me. Was it an instinctual trait of humans? I didn’t know.
Either way, I’ve practiced doing it a lot, so it wasn’t that difficult to stare straight through a person. I heard it made me look sociopathic—but it empowered me to think I was fucking with people’s heads. Just make them think you were staring straight at their souls, and anyone would freak out.
“You look pretty mature for your age.”
“You look pretty for your age.” I retorted, not hesitating to be rude. Of course, I didn’t mean anything with ill-intent, but I wanted her to interpret it in that way. It was easier to understand people when they were caught off guard, and most people lose their masks momentarily to an unexpected rude comment.
But she didn’t flinch.
Instead, she struck back with another declaration, “You will enroll in my school.”
“Okay.” I nonchalantly said as I resumed eating.
“Good.”
She stood up from the table, despite not having touched the food. After signaling to some servant, she left.
I wasn’t too sure what to think since I wasn’t that great at reading people, and it was a lot harder too since she barely provided much information—body language, that is. While I could masquerade as much as I wanted to, that didn’t make me a genius at reading people. Anyone could do it in fact. Everyone could… And it becomes a useless skill when everyone could do it.
I got up a little bit after the woman had left. While I had questions as to who she was and what her relationship with the kidnapper was, those questions weren’t important enough for me to go out of my way to ask. The same went for what they wanted from me, and where I was. It wasn’t important.
Advertisement
Why?
Because I’m fucking running away.
Even though I knew it was a horrible idea since anybody could restrain me easily, I was going to do it anyway.
Granted, the food could have been poisoned, but I’ll do it anyway.
I just had to wait for the right time.
Everything was timing after all. Whether it be fighting, sleeping, or picking up women, it was all timing. Someone could argue life is about timing because, without time, nothing could exist. Did I agree with such a belief? Well, time was convenient to have so I’d say yes.
If anything does happen, and I do get caught, it’s not like I’ll die. The most I get will be some scolding or some sort of reprimand. I was eight years old, wasn’t I? I could basically get away with anything.
Age was literally the closest thing to plot armor that I had.
“Are you done eating?”
I nodded to the person which I presumed to be a servant.
—Melithear—
“So what do you think?”
“He talks like he expected everything.”
“That’s because he’s planning on running away.” I took a sip of my tea.
It wasn’t hard to guess, since everything that kid had done up till now, was exactly what Master would do. And I knew Master best.
“Shouldn’t we keep him here, Master?”
“He can do whatever he wants, just make sure he doesn’t die.”
“How long do I need to take care of him?”
“Ehh, when he’s an adult or something.”
“So once he’s graduated?”
“Yeah, he should have a solid foundation before we do that,” I said.
“But can’t you do it right now?”
'I wish I could.'
But not yet.
“I can’t sense where his soul is.”
“What? He doesn’t have one?”
“No, the aura is just too weak. He’s not strong enough for the operation to go smoothly.”
While I said that, it was mostly speculation. At first, I thought it was because the girl’s soul was too strong, but that wasn’t it.
‘I will restore you, Master.’
I didn’t want to wait, but I had to hold it in if it meant guaranteeing the fusion would work in every instance. All of this was still hypothetical, but I had to try it. Even if I didn’t do it now, it would happen eventually. But it would be preferable with that boy since he was the spitting image of Master.
“Then should I train him personally?”
“Go ahead, just don’t overdo it.”
While I knew it was impossible for some run-of-the-mill village boy to suddenly grow strong enough to oppose me, I couldn’t help but worry for the slim possibility in my mind.
‘Nothing is impossible.’
I didn’t doubt those words one bit. If Master said it was possible, then I must be wary, even if I knew it wasn’t plausible in the slightest.
My disciple looked at me for a moment before changing the topic, “What do we do about the hero?”
“Keep her there, she’s already agreed.” I couldn’t help but let a grin escape from my thoughts. I didn’t think it would be that easy to get her to do as I say.
All I had to promise was to give the boy back if she accomplished it.
But that wouldn’t happen until well over a year. She was still too weak and insignific—
“What!?”
Hearing my disciple’s shout, I looked at what was going on, but she had already descended partway down the stairs with her red hair trailing like a blaze. That elegance followed her everywhere, not that I was jealous.
“Uh, Ms. Melithear…”
“Yes?” one of our faithful devotees had come with sweat pouring down his face.
“Uh… That girl you brought in… Well…”
“Speak.”
“She destroyed the divine golem in an hour…”
“Where is she right now?”
Looks like I had to swallow my words.
I was half expecting it, but I grossly underestimated her based off of my understanding of her predecessors. But indeed, my intuition wasn’t wrong.
‘Her talent is on par with the founding Hero.’
Even though I only gave her a wooden sword…
I could only laugh at myself for giving such an easy task.
But I'm not going to let her free, not ever. The same went for the boy. I already killed both of their parents, after all. And I can't have either of them finding out.
Advertisement
- In Serial9 Chapters
Apex Immortal: a LitRPG system rampage
"Across the multiverse where the contest for power is the only constant, only a handful have succeeded in reaching the ultimate heights of ascendency and gained the title Apex Immortal. Dominus is one of them, unsurpassed in overwhelming violence, feared across universes. Now, memories locked and stranded far away from everything he’d built, Dominus will face enemies that will challenge even his powers and discover that change is more difficult than destruction." I’ve been writing fiction on and off for the last decade and I’ve always wondered how a peak immortal (or an OP superhero) would single handedly conquer a world that mirrors our own in all of its complexity. As a politics nerd, this is my attempt at answering that question using Machiavelli’s “The Prince” as the primary playbook. The “monsters” are entire political systems with entrenched culture. Expect many versions of real world political systems (and cultures) to be on the hit list. The MC has to successfully institute regime and cultural change without engaging in wholesale genocide and causing the state to fail. Expect things to go wrong pretty quickly as escalating and cascading political and economic effects rapidly go out of control. Methods deployed are not for the faint hearted.
8 186 - In Serial9 Chapters
the two mind world
sirius got a lot of secret and even more problem but all those problem are about to be solved, the long road to discover the use of an old artefact come to an end. the actor take position for the final moment of a human starving for freedom and against all rule he despise. the last revolt of a human who turned to be a monster for its own kin followed by a shower of silver light. only to find out that he has freed himself from death rule itself.
8 144 - In Serial6 Chapters
One punch man (My style version)
Saitama being bored, of his life, decides to step things up. So Saitama decides to go on dates with girls who are a different age as him trying to find true love. Going through different cities, killing off monsters that are annoying, and giving monsters chances to live. Note not my picture.
8 105 - In Serial27 Chapters
The Dungeon King
Travelling through the void, escaping Earth's destruction, I carry within me, a hope for humanity. Landing in the wilderness, I have two missions, survive and complete my mission. Will I be King or Pauper? No, I will become the King! Alex is a survivor, that escaped from a ruined earth. He was given a mission by the gods, carrying the hope of his friends and companions to a new world. However when he arrives, he finds himself on the verge of death, in a new land. He is quickly put to the test, he has to learn how to fight, struggle resist with all his might against strong foes and tribulations besetting him from all directions. And he has to keep in the back of his mind, the mission he was entrusted with. Join him on this adventure where he discovers a new world full of wonder and whimsy, danger and oppurtunity. Join him as he drags himself from nothing to fighting against the entire world. Note: The story starts out quite light-heartedly to allow myself to ease readers into the story, allowing me to world-build and put the system in place first. Hopefully after that, I will be able to mix both light-hearted fair with a gritty undertone to tell a good story
8 125 - In Serial26 Chapters
Like Sunshine On Snow | p.jm ✔
❝I had no idea I was starving for this kind of love until I got to have a taste of it.❞...Won Sera- a competent woman in her twenties- if not scared of the concept of love, was at least deeply scarred by it. Unexpectedly crossing paths with Park Jimin- also the beloved idol of many- she eventually came to realize the potential of healing love apparently possessed. Of course, love was not all peaches and cream for her at first, for Jimin was the only one who had made her writhe in agony years back. However, like sunshine on snow, their newly-found love gradually grew on them. Grew enough to suffice for the sufferings that they had to endure all their lives due to their misconceptions. ...1st place in the 2021 SOLAR AWARDS' Vmin Idol category. ◣012921- 032621◥©chimphony
8 199 - In Serial45 Chapters
Heartbreak Town (COMPLETED)
Reagan Renne Walker left the tiny town that she grew up in in Wyoming five years ago to fulfill her dream of opening an equine therapy ranch in Montana & to start a new life. Reagan's parents died when she was just seven years old. Mallory, Reagan's older sister, was still too young to care for both herself and her sister. As a result, Reagan and Mallory were forced to live with their grandparents. Mamaw and Papaw Walker sent both girls through school and college. Reagan never imagined leaving Wyoming. However, after her unexpected relationship with Swayde, her childhood best friend, and love of her life, took a turn for the worst, all Reagan could think about was that she couldn't get out of Wyoming fast enough. Swayde is your typical, rugged cowboy. His smile was enough to melt any girls heart, his eyes made it seem like the sun was always shining, even in the worst storm, his square jaw line accented his dark beard, his body thick with muscles. His physical features and build were intimidating at times, and didn't always match his laid back, easy going, gentlemanly personality. Swayde never thought he would fall for feisty Reagan, and even more so, Reagan never thought that she would fall for him. They end up in this unexpected whirlwind relationship, and everything is hunky dory until Reagan finds out a secret from Swayde's past that would forever change the way she looked at him; a secret he kept from her for over ten years. Confiding in her grandma, Reagan finds out that her grandparents knew the secret all along too. How could the people she thought loved her hurt her so bad and keep this big of a secret from her for so long? When tragedy strikes back in Wyoming, Reagan is forced to move back to the town she swore she would never step boot in again, thus leaving her new life in Montana behind. Through God, can Reagan find a way to forgive the people who hurt her, or will she forever consider Alpine Ridge "Heartbreak Town?"
8 184

