A year has passed since I have come to this world.

It was quite a disorienting experience for the first months or so...

Unable to move, Unable to communicate, unable to control my bladder and excrete my waste of my own volition, all in all, this new start that I have been given is nothing but short of a nightmare that I want to wake up from.

But trapped in this small infantile body I have no choice but to grow accustomed and comply at least till I can walk and communicate with others, so until then, I’ll entertain this farce I was being subjected to.

Though still, I do not understand in the slightest my situation prior to my reincarnation, remembering what that god Chronos had told me that it was a favor from someone is rather disturbing, to say the least.

As the question of who could that ‘someone’ possibly be still lingering in the back of my mind, painstakingly waiting for an answer.

‘Just what is there to gain for reincarnating me?’

I’ve never even been acquainted with any god whatsoever before I met that Chronotard, So how did I insinuate such favor in the first place? Did I earn the favor? Or is it given to me out of pity?

Too many questions and such a scarcity of information and answers.

I still need time.

No—time is on my side in this situation, What I need instead is valuable information.

I probably should hit the books or anything for that matter that could provide information about the gods……even if I have to read Holy Books for that matter………dammit.

Frankly, this whole situation I’ve been put into is just plain absurd on many different levels that I can’t really describe in mere simple words.

Retaining memories upon reincarnation, anyone would have entertained such delusions at least once.

But to think that such a delusion could become a reality……

I guess I should think about these things more deeply once I get more knowledge about this world so for now, I should just go and consume every information I can hold of.

And so first and foremost it seems that I’ve been reincarnated as a girl in this new life of mine, which is such a relief as I don’t want to adjust my whole lifestyle just because of a simple difference in gender.

As for where I live it seems that I’ve been born into a fairly renowned family of nobles managed by no one other than my Mother, Sara Crestfallen, a simple peasant married into a family of nobles.

She seems to be managing everything from social problems to agriculture that the domains seem to be facing right now.

Which I found such an oddity as back in my old world women inside noble households especially those that are not even a noble by blood is not even treated fairly as they are more so seen as nothing but tools for the men in the house.

A disgusting rule that has been enforced for such a long time with not even a single person making qualms about it.

Such a rule that I sought to change the moment I took the throne, in order to provide more equal benefits and opportunities for both genders.

Honestly, it still baffles me that such a stupid rule is even laid in the first place, as not only does it cut down potential talented people to come as another helping hand in every field available whether it will be agriculture or politics, but also restricts both genders full potential.

Women will be robbed of everything before they could even think of what they want, while men will be forced to rely solely on themselves as they have no one else to ask for help.

Seriously what a joke.

An egotistical fueled joke of a rule.

—But anyway, that is the main reason why I’m so confused as to why she’s the only one managing everything with no one but a few butlers and maids by her side.

Yes, it was definitely such an oddity until I heard a few of the maids whispering as to why that is the case......my father—No, everyone in my family besides my mother has perished leaving everything for her to oversee on her own.

Based on what I heard from all the gossip from the maids around the house and offhand mention of the ‘tragedy’ it seems that a few years before my birth a large planned witch hunt commenced with my family seemingly being the target of the persecution, unable to have any foresight nor plan to fight off the attack all of the noble bearing the name Crestfallen has been killed.

As for who started such outlandish actions wasn’t found...

Sounds like a cover from the higher-ups from what I can see.

Being the only survivor of that tragedy the eyes and blames fell on my mother’s shoulder.

As most nobles think she herself had ordered the assassination of the whole family of Crestfallen to gain power.

I hate to admit it myself but that’s the first thing that passes through my mind as well, for the only person who would benefit from such a tragedy is her.

But—I didn’t think I would be so wrong in my life.

My mother……doesn't have any connection to the tragedy that has occurred but was merely used as a wall for them to blame.

Blamed and shamed for actions that she didn’t have any relation with, such deplorable acts that I have seen in my past life more than I would want to admit.

Yet she didn’t mind such words and actions, she continued on focusing on improving the reputation and land of Crestfallen back to its former glory, from that moment everyone has revered her around this domain for she managed to do the impossible and maintain it.

Seeing her as a woman with a nigh impossible will of steel gritting her teeth in hardship and winning against it all in such a short time.

……But she wasn’t really as strong as everyone thinks she is, I know that for a fact as I can always hear her silent sobbing at night while we sleep side by side.

The melancholic eyes she has every time she caresses my face.

The solemn look that is painted on her face every time she went off to visit my father's grave every morning.

She isn't strong, She was merely trying to be strong as she had no one to rely on now other than herself.

But I guess pretending to be strong and managing everything is a strength in itself.

And to that, I can respect.

Laying silently in my empty bedroom with various toys and clothes scattered all around, I turned my glance towards an opened window as a small bird flew right in.

‘The outside.’

Based on the books my mother has read to me it seems that this world I’m born in is named [Pleiades], a world divided into 3 large continents all with their own ruling government.

It seems that I was also born on the largest continent in the land named Kreo, located in the northern part of the globe.

This world also appears to have the same world system as mine while being just a bit different from my old one in some aspects.

Having small similarities such as all kingdoms having ruled by a king and queen under a system of monarchy and nobles holding most of the rules that have been set, the Major difference being its inhabitants and the use of magic in daily life.

I thought I would never be surprised anymore but this world has too much to offer to not be surprised, and first, of it, all was the magic.

I haven't seen one in action just yet but merely heard it from books that my mother has read.

But it seems that every child is born to have a single to a quadruple affinity resonating with the 4 elements of the land being: [The Tempestuous Wind, Searing Flame, Everlasting Earth & Pristine Water].

It also seems that you can’t control the elements that you’re not qualified for nor can you change your given element.

But honestly, the thought of even being able to wield just one element is fairly enough for my mind to be drunken with curiosity and wonder for the fact that I could possibly use magic just like from the books I have read from when I was just a child.

My mind was at an all-time high, intoxicated by the thought of using something so foreign and extraordinary for the first time ever.

I was an Empress before I became such a small fragile child, I managed to control the world after such a long grueling year of my life, had people bow down to me at a mere snap of a finger, and hoarded every treasure in the world, and gave it to my citizens, and won battles with my unnerving tactics.

I managed to have the leader of every land grovel before me, Yet I couldn’t think of a time in my life that could even size up to the feeling of exhilarating I’m feeling right at this moment.

And those expectations bubbling up inside of me came tumbling down as my mother uttered an offhand comment.

“Your magical affinity will most likely show up at the age of 7 or maybe 6th if you’re lucky.”

God Fucking Damnit! I want to use them now!

—–Ehem! Calm down Eris Calm down, it’s your fault for being too giddy over such a childish thing, you’re an empress you best to remember that.

You don't need magic to climb up the social ladder; it's merely a bonus.

But I will still try and learn when the time comes. Not because it’s cool and magical, No not even close.

Now the second major difference is its inhabitant, I didn’t notice it at first when I was born but the maids and butlers working around here is for the lack of a better word, look quite different.

I first saw it when I was being changed into a new set of clothes during my first day, slowly waking up from my initial breakdown the first thing that I was greeted with was a snake in a maid outfit.

[A SNAKE IN A MAID OUTFIT.]

Despite being a ruler I’m still used to confusion and shock, As being surprised is something we humans can't really get rid of.

—–That is why I cried for dear life upon seeing that thing upon my awakening. Worse, it began to talk and panic calling for my mother as it failed to further calm me down.

That’s when my new mother came rushing in from the door-busting it down in the process despite being supposedly still weak from childbirth.

Some of the staff even tried to stop her and to continue to rest yet it seems that their pleas fell on deaf ears as she approached my crying self, quickly lifting me up in her arms to cradle.

And finally looking up once again to her gentle face there I finally saw it.

I didn’t notice it till now but looking more carefully at my mother’s head there sprouted something I know full well shouldn’t be there.

Something that I know what is but still couldn’t understand why it is there in the first place.

As there on my mother's head is what seems to be a pair of jet black horns similar to that of a mountain sheep and her ears the same as one.

‘Oh……’

Oh, I'm the same, aren’t I?

And so after a while I finally accepted that indeed I am similar to them, I’ve become some sort of demi-human in this new life of mine.

‘Just what kind of world did I have found myself in.’ I asked myself such a question as my mind calmed down from the sudden outburst of emotion.

This world seems to be a lot more different than I initially thought.

Different not just in one way but on so many different levels.

A world inhabited not just by humans but creatures that have characteristics similar to animals as well.

‘Just how am I going to start my new life in this world.’ Another question passed by my mind as I stared at my room ceiling blankly.

2 years have long passed since my reincarnation into this world.

During the span of such a time, I have gained a bit more knowledge of this world I am in.

Mostly due to reading and eavesdropping at the moment, my body had enough strength to support my weight and walk around the house I quickly gather up the courage to run around the house to find any books or form of literature that I can use as a reference.

Though such a goal proves to be such tall order to accomplish at first, as every time I will sneak away and onto the mansion library, the whole place will erupt in complete pandemonium as they scour the whole place just to find me.

‘What a nuisance.’

While I do understand why they are like that, I still do not and will not stop to find it anything less than annoying.

As this mere fact becomes such a large deterrent for me in the first place in learning this world language.

But after multiple trials and errors, I finally succeeded in nabbing a few books to read for myself.

Just took a few months to succeed though. But still, I succeeded and that’s all that matters.

So with learning as my main priority I began to read the books I have stolen as soon as possible in order to both learn this world more and its language which surprisingly took up the majority of my time.

As even though the verbal language they use is quite similar to English in some aspects their alphabet is still different and vastly as that.

The difference ranges from how many laters to be used to having to write said new letters & words in a new weird way, but alas after a long grueling 2 months, I finally managed to learn it and would even go as far as saying that I have mastered it.

Though granted it did take more effort than I would like to admit and even encountered some roadblocks on the way but nonetheless, my linguistics is finally usable.

And at last after so long found out certain important things surrounding my new body, one of which is my full name being [Lorelain Crestfallen] with my nickname being [Lore], I heard that it was given to me by my father even before I was even born, saying that if he ever had a son it will be named ‘Rain’ while if it’s a girl ‘Lorelain’ shall be given to her.

As for my appearance, I got my mother's snowy white hair while my eyes are inherited from my father, giving me red ruby-colored eyes.

For my facial features, it seems that I mostly take from my father's face or so my mother said.

Though as long as I have a presentable face anything is fine by me.

And now unto my demihuman traits, it appears to be that I got both my mother and father's physical animal traits which I don't know how that happened exactly considering it seems that my parents are 2 different kinds of animals but it’s another world so I shouldn’t really apply my world logic here.

But basically, my mother is something akin to a ram back in my world though for what kind is beyond me since I didn’t really study any subjects that delve deep into animals.

My father's family on the other hand is made up of jet black crows known for their immense efforts in wars the kingdoms have waged back in the past.

A noble family that was raised through bloodshed, well that is certainly an intriguing background to come from.

Looking up more things about this ‘demi-human’ topic it seems that there are currently 4 different demi-human types that exist; Beast Race, Reptilians, Seafolks, and Humanoids.

Beast Race just as the name suggests consists of those that possessed animalistic features similar to wolves, bears, lions, and even birds.

Reptilians and Seafolks on the other are consist of mainly cold-blooded animals ranging from reptiles to fish.

Lastly, Humanoids are a special demi-human type that seems to lack any animal features or anything you would normally connect to the word ‘demi-human’.

Some of them can be easily mistaken as humans as well due to their features and frame being mostly similar to humans at first glance thus their title being Humanoids, but still, they are from humans.

Humanoids consist of Elves, Draves, Goblins, Ogre, Orcs, Trolls, Ents & More.

This world definitely houses quite a number of races and is vastly different from one another at that.

I myself seem to have fallen in the beast race category due to both my avian and ram features.

Another thing I have learned about demi-humans is that there is a different blood type among them, as it seems that after lingering with humans for a long time some decided to get hitched with them instead of their own kind.

Leading to some being just Half-blood & Quarter-blood and some rare cases being barely demi-human.

Half-bloods have the least human traits, Quarters possess just a few random demi-human traits, and lastly half-quarters without even a shred of visibly demi-human traits present on them.

My mother is one of such cases as she was not a full demi-human but a quarter instead, the same as my father.

I guess that could be the reason why my father married my mother despite the major difference in their social standing present between them.

As they had found solace in each other's presence due to non-purebreds here being regarded as filthy and ostracized on a daily basis.

Not much of a difference in my old one, just the intensity of it.

Deep in thought, my eyes thread each word presented in the book with care and focus, though my hand would tell otherwise as it caressed a present small bump on my head.

A bump that would certainly become similar to that present in my mother's head, a horn.

Though still feeling a bit uncanny for the sensation it presents, it doesn’t really deter me from overall refraining from any sort of physical connection with it.

Well as long as the one touching it is just me that is.

As for my wings, it seems to be just a disgusting small flesh bone at the moment with an occasional uncontrollable itch that I can’t get rid of.

This is probably due to the growing feathers in the bone since I’m supposed to be a bird person after all.

Wait……now that I think about it I would have to maintain both my horns and my wings when I grew up since it’s now a part of my body…

‘Ahhh…What a drag....’

Another year has come to pass in this new world of mine.

During such time nothing really of note has happened except for a few things being: first my studies about this world going extremely well and second my room now moved inside the mansion's library.

Having said that, the first one of the noteworthy things I have as an achievement is understandable while the second one unexpectedly came out of nowhere.

Well, you see……let’s just say that my mother seems to have finally had enough of my sneaking and running outside of my room towards the library and decided that moving my room to the library would probably lessen my bothersome nature.

Which it did…

I mean…after all the only reason I always sneak out of my room is to go to the library so replacing my room with the library should stop it.

But I didn’t expect my mother to actually entertain my pestilent nature, I mean I’m already quite aware that she is a bit more caring than normal but for her to move my room to the library because I like the library is a bit you could say……much.

Though having said that, I’m not really complaining, after all, sneaking towards the library is a chore, to say the least.

Having to outrun and outmaneuver everyone with this fragile infantile body of mind is definitely not something I enjoy doing every time that I want to read something.

Especially with all these servants seemingly able to somehow track me down in a moment of notice.

My mother's personal maid, in particular being the most annoying out of the bunch, which is also the snake person that I first saw in this world as well.

I guess you could call it fate telling me at that moment that I’m going to get well acquainted with her in one way or another.

‘Dammit.’

It seems that her name is Rita and as for her position in this house, she is tasked as my mother’s personal assistant.

As she is always by her side just about everywhere and anywhere, her tasks range from just simple paperwork to even taking care of me once in a while.

And as much as I hate her for the annoyance that she is, I can’t really ignore the professionalism she has for her job and how skilled she is as well when doing so.

I guess you can’t really judge someone in this world as weird looking as she is, with her whole body covered in scale and a tongue that of a snake while still having somewhat of a human face.

But I guess that could really be applied to every inhabitant of this world since everyone technically looks like terrifying creatures that came out of some kid's fantasy book.

This could probably take a while to get used to, after all for all my life before I came here human beings are the norm in my eyes, not some human-monster hybrids.

Still……no matter how weird everyone seems to look like I should really start getting used to it after all this is the new normal for me.

God, I just hope my mother doesn’t give up on me till then and disown me entirely.

…………

She wouldn’t do that right?

Right?

……Just to be safe, I should tone down my rowdiness for the time being.

I don’t want to be disowned in this life as well.

Lore has become my new source of strength ever since she came to this world.

Her silky pristine white hair accompanies her deep ruby eyes that are all evenly placed on her cute face which is reminiscent of her father in his younger days.

I love everything about her.

From the simple things such as her voice and touch to her sometimes quiet attentiveness and rowdiness for the most part.

When Arthur left I have promised myself that I would be a strong mother so I could raise this child of ours alone, planning to be a strict and just mother that will discipline our child to be a great adult——yet looking at her in mere seconds mellows that resolve I have built up for so long.

I thought I could be strict and such but one look from her proves me otherwise, as it’s enough to reduce all my attempts to nothing but unending pampering.

I don’t know why but I can’t help but just love everything about her.

When she eats and tries her hardest to hold the spoon on her own.

When I take her for a bath which she always tries to escape away from.

The way she tries to reach her still bald wings from behind with her small tiny arms.

The sleeping face she makes every time I cradle her to sleep in my arms.

I guess that’s when my goal in mind changed entirely as instead of being a strict mother I would be the greatest mother for her instead.

Basically spoiling her rotten!

But……things seem to be going downhill instead as every attempt I do ends in a complete failure.

This first happened when I heard from Rita that Lore seems to have a genuine interest in books so I quickly bought every book catered to children just for her, but she merely passed them a glance and didn’t touch them even for a second.

I thought she likes books?

The next attempt was realizing that she always runs around the house for some reason so I thought that maybe she would like a playground to play around with.

So I bought small slides along with a miniature playhouse for her to play around in but instead of liking it she hated it as well, looking at it scornfully on top of that.

At this point I am lost beyond reason as every attempt I do ends in a complete failure, Rita & Suru recommended for myself to stop but such nonsense is unacceptable.

I can’t just stop now, after every failure that pushed me to this point it would be a near travesty for me to stop now without even doing something that will negate all those failures.

This is my last shot, as I noticed that she seems to be always trying to sneak into her father’s library, I don’t really know why she likes it there but she seems to enjoy herself inside there.

I even caught her one-time sleeping using one of the books as a pillow and hugging another one.

Maybe she just loves books just like her father or does she just finds comfort in there despite not knowing it's his father's favorite place to stay?

No matter, this is my last attempt so I should make it count.

Seeing the potential that this might go well I hurriedly ordered the contents of her room to be moved inside the library entirely.

At first, I’m half certain that I would fail in this attempt as well but surprisingly she liked it there.

Not even the simple like but probably close to love as she never even tried to run around the house ever since nor did she cause any more disturbance in the house.

Huh, I guess she just likes the library that much.

Quite odd for her age but it’s probably fine, interests and hobbies vary from person to person after all.

But still……at the age of 4……could she be…?

…No—I’m probably just thinking about this too much.

Probably just fatigue finally catching up to me……I should probably take a break for now.

Sitting comfortably at the foot of my bed I carefully flip through the pages of my book, meticulously consuming as much information I could get hold of.

This is what I’ve been doing for the past years since I’ve been here just reading books day after day.

From simple history to how the law works around here, it’s definitely tedious for the most part but what else could I really do other than learning.

But still, I couldn’t help but slowly harbor bits of hatred for reading due to how boring and tedious it is starting to be.

And no matter how much I love reading just like everything else in life it also has limits and reading for the past 4 years is surely enough to break that said limit!

Another thing that has nearly driven me to the edge for the past years in this house is some of the books at this library are either too outdated or just plain missing.

Just who is the damn sleazy that is not returning the books back in their damn places!?

I understand the problem with the outdated ones but missing books?!

Is returning the books you’ve finished reading really that hard?!

I swear I’m going to skin-alive the person that isn’t returning these damn books if I find them…

Another thing as well that I noticed about this library is for something that is called a library it appears to be oddly untouched for quite a long time with a few corners and places slowly gathering dust.

Why even make a library if you’re not going to use it, God the people in this house are driving me mad……

Dust corners, missing books, unorganized shelves, and occasional torn & unreadable pages……

As someone who likes reading in general the state of this place both hurts and annoys my soul on such a deep level.

Ahhh—! I’m just going to leave that topic alone for now.

Merely thinking more about it would only worsen the feeling within me.

This place's main purpose is probably just being an aesthetic for the mansion and nothing else.

Pinching the bridge of my nose I let out a deep breath as my mind returned to a clearing of thoughts.

Stay calm Eris……Stay calm……

Retracting my small fingers back and away from my face, I let down the book in my hand as I lean back to the footboard of my bed.

Staring back at the ceiling I closed my eyes as my mind continued my thoughts of everything I have learned about this world.

Reading through all these books despite some of the information being missing still helped a bit in expanding my knowledge of this world.

Mainly from reading numerous geographical and topographical books with a little bit of history from here and there.

And base on what I’ve read it seems to be just like what my mother has read to me when I was still an infant.

Pleiades, the name of this world seems to be broken into 3 large continents namely [Kreos, Ero, and Solis].

All of which seem to be further broken into large nations as well.

Firstly is Kreos being the largest continent among the three, broken into Three Nations all having their own ruler managing them:

[Mostro] is a kingdom located in the northern part of Kreos and the place I was born in, it’s a land filled with demi-human that is undoubtedly the largest in variety in the land with almost zero human inhabitants living inside of it, due to such a large populace of demi-human it was given the name [Beast Kingdom].

Down southeast is the land of [Oron] consisting of a deep jungle and large rigorous and dangerous mountains surrounding the whole kingdom safeguarding it against any fool of an intruder that dares to cross the border.

This place is mainly managed by the Humanoids which are the elves, dwarves, spirits, Treefolks, and probably many more just kept a secret by the luscious deep forest.

Now the last nation at Kreos, The [Draxon Empire], is an Imperial Monarchy ruled by an Emperor situated just west of Oron and southwest of Mostro, it is quite a dangerous land only known to few as the place is close to uninhabitable to other races due its constant volcanic eruption and multiple raging beasts just laying about.

Draxon seems to be only inhabited by the Reptilians who worship the Dragon God.

Dragon God is said to be the first-ever dragon to ever exist and their one and only ancestor where all the reptilians come from.

As for the validity of that came claim is really up in the air as some claim that the Dragon God is one of the 7 heroes that saved the world from utter destruction.

A bit bollocks and unrealistic but no one could really say otherwise nor prove such a thing to be true.

As for the 2nd continent just in the southern hemisphere, comprising of 3 large Kingdoms as well with two of them being only habitable at the as of this time namely [Torde & Destroven].

[Torde] is a large trading nation situated at the center between the continent of Kreos and the Kingdom of Destroven.

Torde has mainly comprised of a general consensus of 60% demi-human and 40% humans, it was also dubbed as the [The Land Of Opportunity] due to its business prowess resulting in it being the most peaceful and comfortable in terms of living, especially if you desire to find a decent job.

[Destroven] on the other hand is a Kingdom situated at the deep sea by a bunch of Merfolks, nothing really is known to them other than they are the kindest species of demihumans that isn't really biased to other races.

As they can be mostly seen helping boats and stranded sailors that have been washed away by the waves and storms on a daily basis.

Being situated at sea they have been trusted and tasked to help trading boats to cross continents as they are more versed in the sea map than any other race.

And now unto the 3rd nation of Eros or what used to be the 3rd nation of Eros.

It is a lone island situated in the far eastern part of the globe.

A land devoid of life with not even the slightest of life seen in any part of the island for over 2 decades which will be 3 soon after I turn 11 years old.

It definitely brought cold sweat in the back of my neck upon stumbling on this fact.

As an entire country being massacred by other nations is understandable but for one to turn to a land of nothingness completely devoided by any life is completely unfathomable.

So curious as to how did such a scenario come to be I spent numerous tireless nights researching as to what happened to this place.

And after a week of reading through numerous books, I have grasped a little bit as to what had happened to this nation.

I didn’t expect for it to take this long and not even see the whole picture despite the efforts I have put into finding out the mystery behind this nation's sudden annihilation.

But I guess I didn’t really consider that some of the books around here being missing and outdated would hinder me that much.

So the blame does fall on me in this scenario.

Nevertheless, I still managed to find the general rundown as to what had happened to this nation.

[Plecat] seems to be the name of this Kingdom or what used to be a kingdom.

It is both inhabited by humans and demi-humans just like Torde, managing to find a fair balance between the two and providing both sides with things they want and need.

As a matter of fact, the system Torde operates under right now is just a derived and revised version of what Plecat used to be.

I guess they saw the success of Plecat and decided that they could do better than that.

And I could understand why, after all, Plecat seems to be praised from here in there as one of the new golden nations that have ever existed.

A nation built not by eons of war and bloodshed but by diplomacy and meticulous peace talks with nearby nations.

It is definitely a place of wonders and joy, a place of happiness for not just one race but for everyone.

—–And such a nation was all destroyed in a single night.

It all happened one evening night, a sudden blinding flash of light emerged from the lone island, and with it came an explosion that shook the sea beds and brought havoc upon land nearby.

All nations were instantaneously alerted upon such a magnitude of an event, all of them high alert with worries & fear brewing in the air.

As no one knows if this is a start of a new war or just one of the deadliest natural disasters the world has ever seen.

Nevertheless, none of it matters at the moment as the only thing forefront in the people's minds was to check up on the beautiful kingdom

Torde and Destroven being the first responders to the sudden event, as they are nearest among the bunch.

So rallying up a large group of troops the 2 nations set forth towards the kingdom of the Plecat.

And upon reaching said kingdom what greeted them was nothing like the amazing kingdom they all know and loved but instead it was something akin to hell present in the land of the living, a nightmare in the flesh.

As the whole kingdom of Plecat is reduced to nothing but a patch of dark land with nothing but hundreds of grotesque monsters scattered across.

Nightmare—Is the only thing that could really be said upon the scenery laid before them.

So left with not a single choice the Kingdom of Destroven and Nation of Torde with a heavy heart sent multiple groups of armed warriors to rid of the monster plaguing the once beautiful land, reducing it to being just a land where life simply cannot flourish anymore.

Not lived by monsters, Not lived by demi-human, Nor by any humans. It just became a barren empty land of nothingness.

Many speculations are made for what had happened that specific night, some speculate that it’s an experiment gone rogue after trying to tap in the mythical prowess of the world while some say that the story was just a cover-up by the nation leaders across the world in order to get rid of Plecat.

In my eyes, the latter is most likely the soundest explanation but with still nothing but bits of the data about the magic and this world’s laws and way of living in general the former seems to be also a possible explanation.

‘Still…a whole nation with not a single survivor’

Just how did such a thing really happen.

Now finally, the last continent of Pleiades that is also a kingdom in its own, [Solis].

Solis is one of the last places for purebred humans to congregate, as when they lost the world war a century ago, the other remaining races seem to have pushed them back towards the edges of the world, leaving them with nothing but a small island.

Their once large bastion of power seems to reduce to nothing, leaving them to concede defeat and accept a formal treaty of peace with other nations, led by the King of Mostro kingdom during that time.

I’m honestly genuinely surprised these humans didn't get wiped out from that war.

I guess I should applaud their efforts of managing to defend and survive by the skin of their teeth.

Though the applauds that I will offer is nothing but more so pity for their loss.

It is really quite a pity what happened to them, reduced to being the most inferior race in this world but them being the cause of the war in the first place just makes them less pitiable.

They shouldn’t have started a war they can’t finish in the first place, they brought this destiny upon themselves and have no one to blame other than themselves.

Letting out an exasperated sigh I opened my eyes once again, though still, my thought continue just as usual.

Pondering everything I have learned, Accepting everything I have realized, and forming my own opinion at my own discretion.

From what I could deduce this world is more advanced than mine and more complicated in terms of technology and social norms.

Which complicates certain things but still something in the back of my mind flickers and burns.

It is a thought that has been protruding my thoughts in every living moment I have to myself.

What is the point of my existence in this new world?

A genuine question I have to myself that has been on the forefront of my mind since I have come here.

What should I do?

Should I start over?

What about everything back in my old world?

What about my promise to her?

These questions plague my mind like a locust on the wind

The failure of my ugly past dugs its claws on the back of my neck with every memory I recalled.

After all, that blunder from my past life, do I really deserve a second life?

After committing sins after sins, defeat to catastrophe, and my imminent failure to protect the dream I have sacrificed everything for.

Can I really start over as if nothing had happened?

Do I really deserve this?

I don’t know…

I still don’t understand anything…

My existence…

My dream…

My failures…

No matter what I do and how hard I try, I still couldn’t lie to myself and forget that ugly past peering its head at the corner of my eye.

Covering my eyes with all these new things didn’t make these scars that I bear disappear, they just pile up instead.

I didn’t want to be saved that time…

I’m fine dying with my failures and dreams instead of having to live every day remembering all of them.

I didn’t want this…

I just want to rest……

I didn’t want a new start.