(Oct 21)

My blood pumped through my veins like electricity running through wires as my body was overflowing with energy.

The spice pills made my emotions go crazy, it amplified all my emotions to the extreme and as I established earlier, for some reason dragonification doesn’t occur when I’m under the influence of spice pills so my emotions didn’t have a limit.

Normally I’m not a battle junkie, but the spice pills made my excitement for battle and urge to fight much stronger.

The spice pills basically drastically enhanced all my emotions.

And since I was thinking of my wife earlier, I became extremely horny.

However, this horniness gave me a rush of power and filled me with so much energy that made me feel as if I could take on the entire world and win.

I’d never felt so full of life and vitality before.

The Grinch on the other hand, seemed to be tired. Its regeneration must have taken quite a toll on it.

‘Well, this fight has dragged on for long enough, lets wrap this up now, shall we?’

I swung my entire arm and smashed the palm of my fist into The Grinch face. Its face was distorted from the impact as the air was blown away.

It tried to swing its claw at me, however I predicted it, ducked under and kicked at The Grinch’s ankles and shattered its knees.

With no stable footing, its body collapsed onto the ground.

I immediately jumped onto it and rained punches down onto The Grinch.

Each one of my strikes pierced holes straight through The Grinch’s body and tore massive craters into the ground.

The Grinch would be smashed into the ground, bounced back up from the recoil, just to be punched back into the ground again.

Honestly, if someone were to walk past the cemetery and see this, they wouldn’t even know who the real monster here is; The green thing on the ground being pummeled, or the half dragon who was punching the living shit out of it.

I just kept on pounding onto The Grinch, demolishing its body as chunks of its meat would be blasted off, only to be regenerated again.

Surprisingly, its regenerative ability was able to keep up to the speed of my attacks.

By now, The Grinch gave up on defending. It tried to cover its face, but I simply punched straight through its body. So, it focused all its energy on regenerating and staying alive.

That was when it happened…

The Grinch used the strength it could muster to raise its claw and swung it at me.

Compared to its previous attacks, this was almost pitifully weak and slow.

Still, I was cautious and twisted my body to avoid its claw from touching me.

However, The Grinch’s target wasn’t me… it was my pocket.

Its claws slashed at my pocket, tearing apart my leg armor and ripping off my pocket.

‘Wha-?’

Then I realized…

That was the same pocket that the spice pills was inside!

As my pocket was ripped off, the pouch with my spice pills fell out and spilled all over.

The Grinch… was trying to steal my spice pills!!!

I had thought that The Grinch was like a beast, having good instincts but not very smart…. This proved me wrong. The Grinch was clearly smart enough to deduct that these spice pills are what gave me my boost in power and attempted to steal it for itself!

The Grinch healed its arms, and slammed both of its elbows into the ground, propelling it back up into the air.

It opened its mouth wide, jumping at one of the spice pills that flew out of my pouch.

“Shit!”

I swung my leg in a full 180 arc, smashing my foot directly into The Grinch’s side.

Although I could feel its ribs cracking from my attack, The Grinch didn’t stop its advances.

Time slowed down even further as we both desperately grabbed at the spice pills that was falling from the air in slow-mo.

CHOMPPPPP!!!

The Grinch teeth slammed shut as one of the spice pills entered its mouth.

“FUCK!”

Who knows what would happen if The Grinch consumed a spice pill…? Would it gain strength like I had?

But what can I do? It already had a pill inside of its mouth…

I watched in horror as The Grinch slowly swallowed.

No! I can’t just give up just yet!!

In one final desperate act, I jumped at The Grinch mouth wide opening, sunk my teeth into The Grinch’s neck, and tore off its entire throat along with the spice pill that was still in it.

The Grinch stagger back from suddenly having its neck bitten off and slowly started to heal.

Just in the nick of time, I stopped it from ingesting the spice pill.

However, as a result of doing this, I accidentally swallowed and consumed the spice pill myself.

I could feel The Grinch’s flesh sliding down my throat along with the spice pill…

This… was the fourth spice pill I consumed.

I braced for the pain… but surprisingly no pain came.

After every single time I ate a spice pill, the pain would increase exponentially, and yet for some reason, the fourth pill didn’t give me any pain.

In fact, it made me stop feeling pain completely. All my pain disappeared.

Not just the pain either, it made me stop feeling anything.

I couldn’t feel anything anymore.

I couldn’t see.

I couldn’t hear.

I couldn’t feel.

All my physical senses were cut off, as I stand in a world of darkness.

That wasn’t even the worse part though…

It wasn’t just physical… I… stopped feeling emotions as well.

My mind went blank, I could still think, but I couldn’t feel anything. No anger, no excitement, no happiness, no sadness, no regret, not fear… nothing.

This was a temporary dragonification caused by the spice that completely wiped out all of my emotions while its effects are active.

In exchange, I gained power beyond belief.

Scales grew all over my body, encasing me in a thick layer of pure white and crimson red scales.

It covered everything, no skin or anything was revealed.

It covered my eyes, my ears, my nose, my mouth… I couldn’t breathe, but I didn’t need to.

The world was literally frozen to me now, as a new godlike strength ran through my body.

Spice pills aren’t supposed this effective, the only reason why it boosted my strength this much is because of the fact it gave me temporary dragonification.

Power beyond belief, that was what I held in my hands at this moment.

Yet I didn’t care.

Because I didn’t feel emotions.

I felt… empty. So empty.

Even though I’ve already lost my fear to dragonification… it still terrifies me to think about this.

A state of mind where I feel absolutely nothing.

Nothing at all.

During this time, I didn’t feel happiness or joy… so there was no reason to live.

I tried thinking of my wife, and child, yet nothing happened. No sense of attachment. No feeling of love. I had never felt so distant.

It was just all so sudden.

One moment I was battle crazy, the next I was devoid of everything.

Is this what I will become when if dragonification takes all of my emotions?

Is this what all dragons feel? All dragons go through dragonification, yet they can live like this?

This made me realize that everything I’ve experience, all the dragonification that has happened thus far, was merely a fraction of what was to come.

I considered killing myself, anyone would in this situation. If you felt nothing, no joy in staying alive, no fear of death, just nothingness, then why bother staying alive?

I thought I had achieved enlightenment a few days ago, but that was false. This was true enlightenment… the truth.

It’s not something that you know or learn… its something you experience… and its horrifying. Once you experience it, it changes you.

I… don’t want to ever experience this again.

It hurts… no… that’s a lie… it doesn’t hurt, but that’s exactly why its hurts even more.

I just can’t. I don’t want to.

To have everything I love and care about disappear, not because of some evil being taking them away, but because I no longer care about them…

I’m tired. So fucking tired.

I just wanna sleep.

Why do I have to keep dealing with this shit?

I, now, as of writing this, have regained the emotions that I lost to the spice pill’s temporary dragonification (not including the ones I have already lost previously).

But while the effects of the temporary dragonification were still active, none of this mattered. I didn’t care that I lost my emotions. I can hate and stressed about it all I want, but in the end, if I do lose my emotions, it won’t matter.

It feels futile. Does anything I do even matter anymore?

I… just stood there.

The Grinch saw me standing, not moving at all and saw this as an opportunity to strike.

As The Grinch got closer, I just glanced over and with a single swish of my hand, its entire lower body was disintegrated.

Despite being unable to see, hear or feel, I was still somehow able to sense the entire world around me perfectly.

In fact, I could sense every single breathing cell in my body.

And that was when I noticed it…

The Grinch’s magic… contains dragon essence mixed in with it. The Grinch possesses dragon essence within its body.