At a young age i was different. I dont know why but people start to take distances from me farther and farther.. Maybe because Im ugly? Maybe because i just dont really fit in. I always try to make friends with people my age at school but for some reason they just go and distance themselves from me.

I saw a group of girls and tried to approach them and said:

Hi my name is Alex could we be friends?!

They just walked away and glared at me. The people passing by and the group of girls murmured :

"ugly bitch why are you talking to us"

"What's up with that weirdo"

"Poor girl "

" they dont have to be that rude to her"

"disgusting"

"Just leave this school weirdo"

"Trash"

"just disappear"

I Ran away .. I ran and ran and ran as fast as I can to the point i cant take it anymore and broke down this keeps happening everytime..

All i wanted to do was cry ,cry, and cry what did I do?! Why do you guys hate me ?! Why?! Why?! Why?! All i want was to have friends

mmmhhmmmmhhmm.. mhhhhmmmmmm.. ( sounds of sobbing and crying silently ) 

tears streaming down my face and i can't control it.. Stop tears! Stop!

Maybe they would become my friends after a few more tries.. But deep inside i want to give up.. 

I lifted my golden necklace and hugged it tight and said:

Mom where are you now? Why did you leave me I really wanna see you, meet you , hug you so tight and tell you that I love you dispite that fact that you left me alone.

They say that Moms are supposed to love their child, never leave them , and help their child heal the wounds they suffered especially mentally.

Im so jelouse of everyone right now , you know that?!

They have moms to comfort them but Im on my own ever since....

Currently Im working at a fast food chain and Im 18 right now on my own no friends no boyfriend no family i never knew my family nor have any clue who they are.

The orphanage nuns told me that when I was still a baby my Mom left me at the orphanage and left her golden necklace.

My mom told the nun that I should always wear this golden angel necklace. She also told her that It would keep me same from harm.

The nun told me that mom was crying so hard when she gave me to the nun. Even if she left me I still love her very much. 

One day while I was cleaning my room i found a weird blue box on top of my table it has weird patterns on it and on top was a note it says :

Dear Alex,

I have many things to tell you but all I can say is Happy 18th Birthday i love you so much

I hope you like your gift it's very special like you Take care of it.

-M

P.S. It's more than what it meets the eye.

I really dont know what this is all about but when i opened the box..

AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! Shit!

A white colored mouse was inside it climb its way up and looked at me . I nearly got a heart attack because it jumped at me. I fell butt first. This mouse is really weird it has a weird spark of intelligence in it's eyes like it's like it can understand me and its eyes are piercing me like it can look into my very soul and kill me in my sleep and eat me... Just joking Its cute tho. It went near me slowly and rubbed it's head on my neck. It really is a peculiar fellow.

I really dont know it's gender tho maybe i should check it later. Maybe it's a girl

hmmmmm..

Oh fck! It's a boy and it scratched my cheek .. So painful

The rat glared at me hatefully and made funny noises. I only laughed it off atleast Im not alone anymore

Hi! Little one my name is Alex , Alex Christoph Lets be friends!

I felt like crying now memories kept flashing at me, people whom i wanted to be friends with are getting farther away and i can't reach them anymore looking at me as if I disgust them just by looking at me .

The rat just stared at me and rubbed it's head at my cheek

It made me so happy i lifted it up and ran around my room and tried bouncing on my bed but i forgot my bed isn't bouncy so i only ended up hurting my back.

I still dont know what to call him hmmm.. Ah! I know

I'll name you casper.

The rat seemed to like that name and nodded it's head as if it could understand my words.

After 3 years

my relationship with casper is really deep now it can even perform tricks. Casper is not a pet anymore but a friend an important family member.

One day i was walking the street at night , 3 thugs went infront of me looking at me as if I'm some kind of prey to them. 

I paniced and I'm thinking of ways on how to handle the situation but the only option was to run! 

I was startled by the noise produced by casper , he was glaring at them to the point that his eyes is full of bloodlust and the color changes to a deeper shade of red. 

the 1st thug

-"well well what do we have here? " smiles wickedly

2nd thug

- " looks like your out of luck tonight" laughed

3rd

- " pretty lady why don't you play with us a little bit " winks at me

Casper jumps at the 3rd thug and tried to claw him.

AAHHHHHHH!! Son of a b*tch

The 3rd thug was startled by what casper did and got his left eye scratched

the 2nd thug grabbed casper and thew him at the wall hard..

AHHHH!!!! Casper!! NO!!NO!!NO!!NO!!

I ran quickly to casper and held his tiny body crying..

This can't be happening.. Casper.. No.. I can't control my tears anymore i held caspers tiny dead body and hugged it tight. Memories kept flashing back from the day i met casper, the good times we had. The times when im down casper was always there to cheer me up.

My heart was broken into a million pieces and all i felt was cold and everything went blank

Then those thugs pulled my hair hard and slapped me , I went back to reality

Those thugs are going to rape me, abuse me , harass me , i pleaded hard.. But all i heard was

1st thug - " This is pay back you b*tch"

I tried to move away from then i struggled to the point that some of my hair even got ripped away and the second thug grabbed by throat and pushed me to the wall.

2nd thug - " your a feisty one aren't ya?"

He brutally ripped my clothes off and slapped me and harshly rubbed my breasts. It was so painfull all i could do was scream . Scream and scream for help and scream so hard that I can't even scream anymore and i hoped and hoped that someone would save me!

Please! If there is really someone that's there please help me I beg you..

God! , Buddha , Allah , anyone?! Please help me! 

Tears streaming down my face..

amd I lost all hope , wishing eveything would just end.

3rd thug -" Im so going to enjoy this " the thug licks his lips

The thug was ready to put it in and even punched my mouth hard for me to stop screaming and put his shirt in my mouth.

When he was about to put his junk everything seemed to slow down all i could think of is the necklace my mom gave me.

She said it could protect me from harm. I held my necklace and prayed to God that someone would save me. Help me and rescue me from this situation.

BANG!!! A loud sound came not pain but a very loud sound it was a middle aged man wearing rags and he's holding a rock on his hand he slammed that rock on the 3rd thugs head

BANG!! He slammed the rock to the 2nd thugs head. The thug tried to dodge but he failed .

The 1st thug quickly ran to the man and punched him hard. 

As the man kneeled down the thug kicked his stomach hard.

the man flew 3 meters away. Then quickly went back on his feet grabed the rock and when he was about to threw the rock with all his might..

BANG!! BANG!! BANG!! 3 continuous gun shots were heard and the guy fell down. I screamed

AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

Noo!! Nooo!! Please dont die!! Don't im sorry!! Im sorryy!! Im sorry!!

The middle aged man died because of me ... Im sorry.

im sorry..

im sorry ..

I cried and cried and i felt like my tears wont come out no matter how hard i cry then something painful fell out of my eyes it was blood red hot blood.. 

All I feel right now is rage and I screamed! 

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

The 3rd thug runs and he leaves he's "friends" on the floor with the stranger who helped me.

It started raining.. 

Im starting to hear sirens coming our direction and...

i tried my best to crawl until i reached the stranger , I haven't even said thank you to him and now he's dead..

He was shot in the head , heart and his right shoulder.

All i can see was blood, blood on the floor on his head the 2 thugs skull was broken and blood flowed.

I dont know what to do i just stared at them lifelessly couldn't do anything to help. I felt so many emotions. Anger , sadness, fear, and whole other emotions mixed and I couldn't understand it anymore.

Then the man handed me a blooded note shaking and stared at me with love as if he found his long lost daughter then the life on it's eyes died.

I stared at him and cried more and more until I had the strength to open the note and it says :

" You are my daughter , Your True name is Lyn. Then everything is blurry now with blood mixed rain and i felt lost..

grief filled my heart , who would have known that I would lose everything in just 1 night. 

I dont know what to do with my life anymore. I dont know who I am and now a man came to rescue me claiming to be my father is now dead.

I felt like laughing so I laughed and laughed. I laughed at the pain , those 2 thugs who died , at my life at everything.

Then a weird old man walked to our direction in a very slow pace wearing a big wicked smile on his face he looked at the dead bodies and laughed.

He looked at me then a weird glint sparked on his eye as if he saw the most very precious gem in the world.

"Do you want to save this guy? " pointing at the stranger who saved me

I just stared at him lifelessly and nooded

At All cost? No matter what? You want to save him? He asked

I just blanked for a while many things were running on my mind but i just nooded i want to save this man who saved me , the man who didn't even deserve to die, and the man who claimed to be my father.

The old man laughed so hard and moved his cane and suddenly out of thin air a contract appeared 

Sign your name with your finger , drip your blood on the contract then the man will live. He said and smiled wickedly

I did everything he said then..

Everything went blurry and everything starts to get dark and i saw that man wicked smile got wider then everything went black.