I understand why the world became more open to sex and all the negative things it carries, but why is it bad? Now I see things differently, but I cannot see what we should do as a society.

“Then should we stop having sex?”

“The type of sex where people only care about the pleasure in their sexual organs, yes. Sex to bring another human to this world and for love, no, that’s completely fine.”

“So it’s okay to have orgies to get pregnant?”

“Those wicked people also decreased our fertility; it affected mostly men. And it’s part of their plan to force us to accept this negative sex in our lives. They have done many things to change our perceptions and make us proliferate negative energy or that fake power as you know it, as much as we can. Sex gave them the best results, and it affected you the most; that’s why I’m using it as an example.”

“How do you know all this?”

I think I should have asked this first. I’m believing everything she’s telling me without thinking much. What if everything is a trap or a lie?

“I have the power to see the soul. That’s my ability. This world also has a soul, and the soul is our experiences from life to life. It stores everything and changes all the time when we learn. Your soul is sick with depression; that’s why you want to commit suicide so much. Our world’s soul is sick too, and the biggest illness is negative sexual energy. Because the soul has all the experiences, I can see the past. I can assure you our society and way of life were different two hundred years ago. It was easy to have children, and people had sex around their eighteen years old. Back then, they created a rumor everyone believed, and what we have today it’s the result.”

“What rumor?”

“All rumors need some truth to work. This is what they said. ‘If your children have nightmares, then be careful; it could be a monster trying to control their minds. To avoid a disaster where your children murder people and become monsters, the Gods gave special powers to sex. Take your children to the temple so they can receive treatment from our divine messengers.’ The men and women working in the temples accepted it as undeniable truth and raped boys and girls to ‘save’ them. They saw it as something sacred and necessary to protect our world. With such conviction, they removed their previous beliefs and values to do the ‘correct’ thing. As it’s expected, this wasn’t free. Poor people couldn’t pay for it, so the father or mother raped their children, believing the power of sex and the Gods would help them. Most children became traumatized by it, and the nightmares increased, but no one thought they were doing something worse. They explained it as the monsters resisting and having more sex would solve it. Many children were ‘beyond’ salvation and murdered to prevent them from becoming puppets for the monsters; others were clever enough to survive. They lied about their nightmares and seemed sane. The pain and confusion caused panic among the population, and this is what they wanted. Now that people were vulnerable, and some raped all their children for precaution, they told people that having sex once a year was the minimum to be safe from the influence of monsters. Those monsters controlled the fear and sent it to many towns to proliferate as nightmares, making crazy people crazier. They had sex every day, the mothers and daughters became pregnant. The cycle continued, with the pain, confusion, fear, perversion, ignorance, and more increasing. This created more monsters that attacked towns, giving nightmares to people, and repeat.”

“That can’t be true…”

“Believe it or not, we’re that stupid. Everyone has had nightmares at some point, and instead of thinking that they are alive and didn’t become monsters, they got scared and had sex to save themselves. The monsters in human form created many rumors and situations, most fake, to plant the seed of fear. Once fear took control of us, we become the most stupid creatures on the planet. That wasn’t the first time they did something like that, and it won’t be the last. But that negative energy destroys. Just like how they lost their creative power and became weaker, anything that generates such energy will receive the negative effects of it. Do we have temples now?”

“No.”

This goes beyond anything I have learned. There’s so much to think about. What have I created? How many negative things happened to me ‘cause I helped create more negative sexual energy? I don’t need her to tell me why only happy sex for love is clean of the negative energy. They left me with pain all over my body and cum, and I just wished someone would hug me and tell me I’m special and they love me.

“I need time to think.”

“But we still need to talk about your daughter.”

“Please, leave me alone.”

Anne stands up and grabs Lara. Lara sighs but stands too.

“We’ll talk tomorrow. Call us if you need anything.”

With that, Anne and Lara leave the room, though Anne smiled at me before closing the door.

I’m mad, so mad I want to punch something. My life is a joke. If what she said is true, then my life was never mine. From the moment the monsters killed my parents to this moment, the monsters and the human monsters kept me alive while suffering the unspeakable. They could have killed me at any moment, but they knew they had to keep me alive to become the mother of monsters. Is this what I am, a puppet? A doll to please them?

I for sure pleased them a lot… Why me?! WHY?!!!

Does this mean that no matter what I chose, they’d have killed Cara? What I did was pointless?! I k-killed her f-for nothing…?