Christian POV:-

I quickly finished the meeting. That Henley, she arranged the meeting for the collaboration for the new campaign of ours with Mr Houston. I told her that I'll handle it but no. I hope Sophie will be alright. I don't want to leave her alone, I want to be at her side, She cannot be away from me; she needs me.

I know it's not easy to remove this feeling. It took me three months to remove my dread from her and when this is evoked by someone else, it's much harder but I have to try hard. For a lasting moment, I sought to live. For the life, I strive for. For her...

I entered and saw Sophie panting, her hand over her chest, she was holding our wedding ring and Henley was rubbing her back.

"Please don't call him." She whispered but it was loud enough to be heard by me. A sudden rage took over me when I heard it. She thinks that she is troubling me, can't she get it? She is far more important than anything else!? That her worth is far greater than anything else. I am willing to leave the world behind for her.

I walked closer and pulled her in my embrace and my anger calmed down when she held my shirt. She was shaking tremulously, I felt so heartbroken looking at her like this. Shattered, with no hopes of being saved. "Sophie.." I called her softly.

"Christian..I... I.." She began to sob. I continued to rub her back, trying to calm her; to a halt to her cries.

"I-I am.. s-sorry...I c-can't remove ...t-this feeling." She said between the sobs, clutching my shirt tighter. I embraced her and in a swift moment, I sat on the sofa as she was sitting on my lap. She was crying and I began to stroke her cheeks and began to shush her because the sound of her cries are intolerable, it crushes me hopelessly,

"You don't have to remove it.." I said tugging a strand of her hair behind her ears. She stopped crying for a second and looked at me in disbelief. I couldn't help it, it's just somehow a habit of mine to say incomplete sentences.

I cupped her cheeks and pulled her face close to mine, "For that, I am here." I said, staring intensely at her. She continued to convulse, I wiped her tears and passed her a smile.

"Sophie, You just have to call my name and I'll be there for you. Never hesitate, doesn't matter where I am, what I am doing, I'll rush to your side." I said earnestly. She sniffled and gave me a nod. I held her hand in mine and kissed it, my one hand rubbed her back while the other moved to her waist as I stared at her mesmerizing features. Wanting to give her consolation that I am here for her and there's nothing to be afraid of.

I kept looking at her and then I realized that Henley is also here. I turned my head and her eyes were shining like always in wonder.

"You're the best!" She chirped.

"Leave," I ordered strictly.

"Oh, Yeah, Right." She said nervously, she stood up to leave but stopped on the door and winked, "Enjoy~" She said and left. I sighed, I am stunned I bear that woman for 7 years, she is a drag. She is my most trusted employee.

After she left, I turned my attention to Sophie again, she was looking down, her face was ruby. She was biting her lips, my heart skipped a beat looking at her like this, so tempting...

"Christian... You can let go.." She said feebly. I realized that I am holding her and she is still sitting on my lap.

I stiffed, my desires burst to look at her like this. A sudden feeling of lust emerge from me, a dark desire to feel her rushed in my every vein. A yearn for her touch. A cravenness for her lips. My breath became harsh, my throat dries as it begged for the gratification of exploring her. "Christian.. please.. let me go.." She whispered looking down. Trying my best to control those impulses that are making me lost my senses, I tried to let her go but I couldn't. You just have to open your hands and let her go, why can't you do that little thing!? I tried to open my hands but they were fixed. One on her back and other on her waist.

My heart began to race, My breath became heavy. I leaned my head back and growled because my animalistic urges are taking over me and I can't hold them back.

"I can't Sophie.." I whispered desperately. I looked at her and spoke huskily,

"I am so sorry... I can't... I can't control myself... I.. don't want to do anything.. that can pull you away from me... please do anything.. and get away from me.."

"H-How?"

"I don't know.. slap me.. Push me.. do anything but please Sophie.." I said desperately. I lowered my head and breathed out, "I am sorry but I want to kiss you." and then bore my eyes on her and continued, "Very badly." She is too tempting, I need her, every inch of her, every touch of her. I want her. I want to worship her body, I can't help it when is sitting on me with a flushed face, I can't help but get turned on by this. I am a man and I have needs. And it's her.

Sophie kept looking down as if she was protesting something in her heart. She turned her face to me, I thought that she's gonna slap me but she did something unexpected.

She shifted and turned her body to me, she held my collar and looked down, her face was close to mine, increasing my impulses more.

"Maybe.. the sensation of your lips... can remove.. the sensation of their lips.." She said huskily and I lost my senses that time. I took it as an invitation to release the fierce fire inside me. I didn't waste a second, My one hand moved to her neck pulling her close to me, our lips brushed against each other, our breath synchronized and gave us an eerie feeling. She was holding my collar and my hand was holding her neck while my other hand moved to her hairs.

She slowly closed her eyes, I moved closer and pressed my lips upon hers, an electric spark emerged not only from me but from her too. I moved her face to feel her lips more. I lost myself in the feeling of rapture. The delicacy of her lips made me shiver. The yearning of this holy pleasure is increasing my heartbeat by each passing second.

I slowly moved my lips to feel that strong and barely controllable emotion I felt for her. I gripped her hairs and pulled them slightly, earning a moan from her that accelerated those fiery desires running in my veins. Every inch of my body begged to feel her more and more. The intensity of the kiss is so much that it drives me crazy to become one with her; spiritually and physically.

I pushed her on the sofa and deepened the kiss. The blissful feeling of having her lips upon mine is so exhilarated. It's like a longed wish of mine is now fulfilled. I moved my hand from her neck to her shoulder and slowly moved it down to her hand. She also began to move her lips in accordance with mine. I intertwined my fingers with hers and moved her hand upward beside her head. Our lips, our breaths, our heartbeat reacted in such a way as if it is made entirely for each other.

The sensation is filling both of our hearts with content, I can feel the consecration of this little intimacy of ours. The heavenly feeling of touching her lips. An exquisite yet passionate kiss. The overwhelming kiss that is now a source of ecstasy for me.

Her one hand is in mine while the other is still holding my collar. Her lips curved upwards slightly, I slowly opened my eyes and saw her smiling at me. The prepossessing looks of hers cause all those emotions to draw out from me. I noticed Tears pricked in the corner of her eyes, I moved my hand from her hair to her face to wipe her tears. After kissing her and fulfilling those intense urges of mine, I slowly pulled away. My eyes moved from her eyes down to her lips so slowly, scanning her each feature and embedding it into my core. My gaze looked at her lips, so seductive... I saw the cut on the corner of her lips which made my chest tightened, I moved closer and bit her lips gently and lovingly. I nibble on her bottom lip and kiss it slightly as she is watching me innocently, I never did this before, I used to kiss her but not play with her like this and this is arousing her- I can feel it.

Deciding to replace this feeling of repulsion with my love, I moved both of her hands above her head and held them with my one hand. I smirked slightly and began to stroke her cheeks with affection. She kept looking at me, all these feelings were foreign to her, she was always disgusted by intimacy but it seems like she doesn't have any problems now because this time it has what she deeply desires; love. I moved close and smiled, "You're everything I need." I whispered. I kissed her cheek and whispered again,

"My Life.." Then her jawline,

"My heartbeat..." Then her neck,

"My Emotions.." Then her shoulder,

"My Reason to live.." Then back her neck,

"My salvation.." And finally her lips,

"And the list never ends.."

She began to pant, I think it's enough intimacy for her. Before this sweet moment of ours turned into something unbearable for her, I kissed her forehead and pulled away.

We both sat up, her face was crimson, she was breathing heavily. I hesitantly pulled her in my arms.

None of us spoke a word after that. She kept breathing loudly in my arms and I kept rubbing her back. I felt her heart beating so loudly, she was flushed. We remained like that for a while and she slowly pulled away. I held her chin and looked at her lovingly, she lowered her gaze and smiled,

"Thank you, Christian...This is something I can never forget.. even I try to. Something more significant than any other sensation.. treasured.. loved.." She said and smiled widely. My heart filled with content as I grinned. I love how my name rolled off of her lips.

"Just that smile is enough to make my day," I said. I stood up and offered her my hand, she didn't say anything and took it.

"Let's show you around." I smiled and she nodded.

I showed her my workplace. None of the males tried to lift his gaze to look at her because when I 'said' not to look at her that time. She kept looking around in awe and I love watching her like that. As we were looking around, I asked,

"You hungry?" She nodded.

"What do you want to eat?" I asked. She put her index finger on her chin and began to think. A smile crept upon my lips when I looked at her like that.

"Pizza." She smiled with her big round hazel eyes that never fails to fascinate me.

"Here or outside?" Her smile faded and she shook her head 'no'. I gave her a side hug and said, 'Okay." Her smile came back. She is scared to go out, It affected her mind a lot. I can understand it.

"You go and wait in my cabin. I'll be there soon." I said. She nodded and left.

"Take the lift. It'll be empty by now." I said with a smirk.

"Okay!" She said and left.

After she left, I ordered a Pizza for her. I stood there leaning on the wall and closed my eyes then I heard someone talking,

"Have you seen? Sir smiled after such a long time." Because of her.

"He can smile too?" She made me.

"Oh, you don't know him. He is the best. I'm glad to see him happy."

"Maybe because of his wife. I never thought he could love anyone after Ma'am Merlin but he did." Neither did I.

"She must be special." It's an understatement; She is more than that.

"I thought he's like all grumpy." oh yeah?

"He is anything but grumpy. We have worked for him for years, we know who much of a great guy he is." Well, thank you.

"I never said he is not. I also admire him." Oh, my.

They kept on talking and a slight chuckle left my mouth. I turned and saw them, one of their faces turned pale while the other one smiled. It's obvious who has worked for me for a long time.

"W-we're sorry sir." The scared one, Henry, stuttered.

"Sir, I hope that you didn't stumble on Henley when you're with your wife being the most loving husband." John, my other worker said, he is an old guy. I have respect for him for his devotion and he is a funny old man.

"Unfortunately, I did." I joked.

"Poor you. She must have exploded looking at you guys." He said laughing.

"She is not done yet," I said. And then I realized that I let Sophie alone with Henley, she must have bored her with her non-stop talks, I wish she didn't speak more than she should.

I quickly went to Henley to know that she hasn't anything she shouldn't,

"Do you need anything, Sir?" She asked.

"Tell me what you told her?" I asked.

"Oh, that, She said she wants to know about you and I told her what I can. I didn't tell her about Ma'am Eleanor's suicide, Ma'am Merlin's betrayal, Ma'am Eleanor name and your previous occupation." I sighed in relief. In that, she just only knows that about Merlin's betrayal, I haven't told her anything else.

"Good," I said as I left.

Then her Pizza came, I entered my cabin and saw her leaning on my desk and looking at my chair. I put the Pizza aside and walked behind her,

"Wanna sit there?" I offered.

"Can I?" She asked with her eyes glimmering in hope. How can I say no to her?

"Of course you can." I smiled. A grin formed on her lips as she was about to sit but stopped,

"You sure?" She asked again. I gave her a nod and she hesitantly sat there.

"It feels.. weird.." she mumbled. I leaned on the table and crossed my arms at my chest,

"you know you're the first one to sit here, beside me," I said, Her eyes widened,

"Really?" She asked. I nodded, she was about to get up but I put my hands on her sides and leaned in,

"My throne is yours, my queen," I said brushing my nose against hers. She blushed as I pulled away,

"Come, let's eat."

***

After spending the day, we went home. I took a shower and had dinner. After dinner, I searched for Sophie but she was nowhere to be found. The only place she could be would be rooftop, I went to the rooftop and saw her sitting on the ground, her back leaning against the wall. She looked at me and passed me a faint smile.

"Wait here. I'll be back." I said and left. I took a blanket and a sheet and a pillow and came again.

She seemed perplexed, I laid the sheet on the floor and sat and motioned her to come too, She came and sat beside me as I put the blanket over us and put the pillow behind us.

"I don't mind spending the night here," I said. She smiled and looked down, She rested her head on my shoulder as we both began to stargaze in silence, the silence was so comforting. We're leaning on the wall, my arm around her shoulder while the other is holding her hand, her head on my shoulder giving me solace. I closed my eyes as we remained like that for a while.

After a while, she shifted and rest her head on the wall and pulled her hands from mine and held them out toward the Moon and began to say,

"You know.. I was so close to the light that I could grasp it but.. my hands were tied and I watched that light fade away with my very eyes... The light of hope that can shine in my world blows out right in front of me...

Everything was about to be replaced with the feeling of fondness, with the feeling of being connected, of being saved, away from pain, away from any abomination but before it can start, it was crushed miserably.

..You know..They kept passing vulgar comments, kept beating me, violating me but I kept struggling because I knew you're looking for me. I know that you will come to save me. You did come but it was too late; they broke me...

They even talked bad of you and even accused that you are the one that did this, just how absurd they can be? Like, I can believe their words. They don't know that I trust you with my life. No matter what they talk about you... I kept calling your name... I kept calling and calling but you didn't come...

You know what? That time, I realized what it feels like to be truly defiled. Because you can never feel safe in those arms, you can never like their touch, that moment I realized you never defiled me...

Each time we used to go in intercourse I thought it was disgusting but it wasn't, it's just I denied to feel that sacred feeling...

We were so much more than I let us be. You never did anything bad to me. I was so wrong.. you never force yourself upon me, you stopped when I asked you to stop; they didn't, You were gentle when I cried; they weren't, you always console me after it, wrapping your arms protectively around me; they.. left me in the cold.

That's the day I realized what it feels like to be genuinely broken, impure and used..." She said as tears fell on her cheeks, her voice croaked. My lips began to quiver as tears brimmed in my eyes,

"When you kissed me... I was astonished that you can still agree to touch a contaminated thing like me. That someone as polluted as me can arouse you too. I was taken aback when you promised to remove this feeling. Surprised that you can still gather those broken pieces and fix it.

You still look at me with affection, never giving me a look of hate, caring for me as if I am a treasure. Pulling me close trying to save me from this world.

When I hate my very being then why can't you hate it? When I can't bear my existence, then how can you?... How can you still find me worthy enough to be with you?

I'm nothing but a broken toy now, Christian, how you're supposed to liberate me when you're broken too? My very being is.. is touched by another man...r.. r...raped... How can you still find my body pleasurable? Why can't you hate me? Why?... Why? Why are you still here for me when even I am not.." She finished, tears streamed down, she hugged her knees and hid her face and began to cry out loud.

Tears began to flow down from me too as I was left speechless. I didn't know that she is that broken, her suffering is too much. Feeling utterly broken by looking at her like this, I muster some courage because I can't leave her in this crying mess form. My heart was torn into pieces looking at her like this. I want to hold her hand and take her out from the darkness, I am at the doors of her heart, she just needs to accept me and I will be at her side, protecting her from every harm. I will take all her misery upon myself but never let it reach her. I will bear it but please, don't hurt her. I want to stop it. Gulping hard, I did what I consider the best to give her solace,

I pushed her down forcefully and pinned her hands with mine and hovered over her, I leaned in and kissed her, the kiss wasn't warm and loving like before, it was possessive and rough to make her understand that I can never think of her this low, To muffle those cries that are killing me from inside. She tried to push me away but I didn't even flinch. I kissed her roughly. When her cries ended, I pulled away and stare at her intently, both of our faces were glistened with tears under the moon, After kissing her, I burst out my emotions,

"Why don't you get it, Sophie!? You are my salvation, you are those emotions of mine that I treasure deeply, You are my world, I couldn't even imagine spending a second without you. You are my redemption, the meaning of my existence, the solace of my soul, the light of my world, my darkest desire of my heart.

They can contaminate your body but not your soul because it is protected by me. I'll evoke just my feelings to your very soul. My soul is connected to you and no one but me can indulge in it. Your soul belongs to me just like mine belongs to you.