Padgett Knight

I accepted him. All of his twisted ways. I loved him. With all the demons he carried, with all the bad qualities he was filled with.

There was no denying nor did I want to deny this anymore. It was irresistible and he knew that eventually I would give in. And I did. There was guilt. Guilt and anger that I let that happen but the euphoric feeling of being loved by someone that too so badly, covered the guilt leaving me to see only the good side.

These walls no longer suffocated me, his presence, his touch no longer made me disgusted. All these things were beautiful to me.

All those people who were against us, all those who thought I did wrong didn't matter to me anymore. He did. And the fact that I loved him, made me fear no one. Maybe him. But no that much.

I couldn't help but find the good in him everytime, the burning sensation of when he touched me, I wanted more of it. Even the burning he gave me felt good.

I was currently washing my face getting ready to be in the dining hall downstairs. Sebestian went to his study to resume his work, while I laid on the bed for a good 2-3 hours just thinking how could this happen.

Now that I look at myself in the mirror I feel a glow coming from my face. Maybe it was due to the pregnancy, however, I was having a headache and a slight fever. These were the few symptoms the doctor warned me about.

I walked down the hallways, to the dining hall, just the thought of dinner made my stomach grumble with hunger. I felt a bit hazy but ignored it thinking it's normal during pregnancy. I may have accepted of loving Sebestian but I still wasn't over the fact that he killed Mason, and others which included his own father. I also wasn't over the fact that I hadn't told him about the baby yet.

I sighed when I reached those tall, and huge double-doors which led to the dining hall. I opened them hoping everything will turn out just fine, also because I believe that I had enough drama for today.

I was greeted with silence, Sebestian wasn't there but I was a dissapointed. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't get rid of the dizziness which cane along the headache and fever. I urgently need rest, but I know that dinner is important, because skipping lunch didn't help me and my baby.

I knew I didn't look fine and I tried my best to make myself presentable because I didn't want anyone especially Sebestian to figure out. I started my dinner when Sebestian entered, I tried to steady my breathing which was heavy when I heard his footsteps because it made me nervous.

"Hey." He said and kissed me before sitting on his chair and sarting his dinner.

"Hey..." I replied back, no matter how much I tried to sound fine, my voice came out as whisper. My movements were slow and tired. To add on, the smell of food made me nauseous and I didn't wish to eat it.

"Are you alright?" He said truly concerned, while I smiled a bit and nodded.

His face clearly told me that he didn't accept what I said and knew it was a lie. So before he could say anything further I stood up from my chair,

"Excuse me." I silently said and intended to walk away, avoiding the much predicted questionnaire conducted by my husband.

"Padgett wait! Are you sure you're alright? You're eating less than usual. Do you think we need to consult a doctor?" He said as he held my hand and stood infront of me.

I was pale on hearing 'doctor', I didn't really pay attention to rest of his sentence but I just felt numb and all the colours of my face went away flying the moment he said something about consulting a doctor.

"N-no, I-i'm fine." I said, fighting the newly built panic.

"Lie." He muttered and glared at me while I was further scared. The headache, the dizziness, the fever and the fear. I wanted nothing more than to just run away from him.

"Padgett, tell me what's wrong?" He said as he cupped my face. The moment his hand touched my face I tried to avoid it but I was late. Too late.

"You're having a fever." He said, angry and worried.

I tried to form sentence but my practice went in vain, the headache I felt became more precise as the dizziness started taking control, and I could feel my body giving up.

The last thing I remember was me keeping a hand on my belly, worried for my child while Sebestian called out my name as his hands came around my waist, keeping me from falling down, before I let the darkness engulf me.

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My eyes flutter open, closing back in no time as my hand reached up and grabbed my head in order to reduce the piercing pain. A small whimper left my mouth as I finally opened my eyes taking in my surroundings. The familiar black ceiling, the black sheets, a dark room. Our room.

And all came flooding into my mind. Sebestian knowing that I had a fever, and me fainting. My eyes widened when I glanced at the clock. It read, 12:30 a.m. I've been out for almost 4 hours.

I was dwelled in concern when I thought about my baby. I hope my baby is fine.

"You're up." Sebestian's voice came. A bit colder than usual. He came out from the closet, while I tried to get up.

"Don't. The doctor said that you need rest." He said making me panic, a doctor checked me up. My face was in panic while Sebestian just remained angry and came to his side of the bed.

"What's this?" He said as he picked up a way too familiar file from his nightstand and threw it on the bed as it landed right infront of me.

He still stood at the edge of the bed while I gulped in fear. Please it can't be true. I don't want to lose my baby.

"My h-health r-report." I said trying every chance to convince him of the lie I just blurted.

"Stop fucking lying to me." He shouted while I let the tears fall down and prepared for the worst. My hand came to my belly as I looked away. He knows.

"I get to know that my wife is 3 weeks pregnant and she consulted some clinic without talking to me." He said as he came to my side and sat infront of me.

I was going to back away knowing that he couldn't be trusted right now but his next words made me look at him,

"Were you ever going to tell me about it?" His voice came, lower than before.

"Were you going to abort our child?"

He asked in a low voice, it was the first time I saw Sebestian being not sure about something but I answered almost immediately.

"N-no." I said still having a protective hand wrapped around my waist.

"Then why didn't you tell me?"

"I-I was n-not sure if y-you wanted a child." I said as I looked at him not sure of his reaction. Was I right by telling him this?

He just sighed running a hand through his hair before he pulled me to his lap. His movements were more gentle than usual. I smiled knowing that he was careful of the baby.

"You thought I'd force you for abortion?.... You think that low of me?" He said as I faced him and he had on hand caressing my cheek while his other hand rested behind my back. I shook my head bringing him a bit closer by my arms which circled his neck. His face now in the crook of my neck as my hands caressed his hair. I didn't want him to think that.

"I'd never hurt any of you." He said after a moment as he broke the hug and wiped my tears. A small smile formed on my face. A genuine smile, knowing that he wasn't angry but indeed happy about the child.

"I'm going to be a father." He said as he had a bigger smile on his face while I just nodded. He just leaned in and kissed me while I reciprocated showing all my happiness. I now had my fingers curled in his hair as our lips moved in sync, soon our tounges met with each other in a fight for dominance.

We pulled away breathless and rested our forehead against each other. No words can explain my happiness at this moment. Never did I think somebody would be this happy by not only having me as their wife but also having a child with me, but Sebestian proved otherwise. We both had a smile on our faces. We both stared into each other's eye when he kissed my forehead and said,

"Thank you." He was genuinely happy. I nooded as I tried to supress my yawn. No matter how haply I was the fact that I was sleepy couldn't be denied.

"Let's sleep, the doctor says that you need ample of rest." He said as he chuckled seeing my tired state.

We soon laid down on the bed with my back pressed on his chest as his hands were wrapped around my belly while mine reseted on top of them. His thumb caressed my belly which was soothing and soon I fell asleep in his embrace, with our child. I slept carefree and with utter happiness after a long time.

No matter how much I hate to admit it the next morning wasn't good. I was in the bathroom throwing up like crazy and I was thankful that Sebestian was there, holding my hair and patting my back. After a few minutes it was done. I was brushing when Sebestian's voice came,

"You're sure you don't need the doctor. We can call her." He said for the third time while I just shook my head. After I was done I turned around, facing Sebestian.

"I'm fine. It's normal when you're pregnant." I said as his concerned look faded a bit.

He caressed my hair before oulling me in an amazing kiss.

"Morning." He said as he pulled away.

"Good morning." I replied smiling.

After showering, I was in the closet decidinwhat to wear. I had to try most of my outfits because I may not be able to wear them when I had a bigger belly. It was honestly difficult to decide on what to wear out of the many clothes had filled my closet with. I finally came to the conclusion of wearing a black speghetti-straped satin camisole with thigh high denim shorts. It was perfect though it showed a lot of skin.

I was exiting the closet when Sebestian came in. He shamelessly checked me out while I just blushed like crazy. He pulled me by my waist and I collided to his perfect built body.

"You look so.... hot." He said as he kept ogling me.

"Thank you." I said shyly not able to meet his gaze however I could feel it on me. He started kissing me gently but it ended up as a rough and a demanding kiss as I was now pressed to the wall with my legs wrapped around Sebestian's waist as we kept kissing. However, we pulled away when the grubling of stomach interrupted. He jad a smirk on while I was just embarresed.

"I believe my baby is hungry." He said referring to our child while I nodded and left the closet so he could quickly change and come out.

We were walking down the hallways when Sebestian said, "Do you think we should shift on the ground floor till the baby is born?" He asked while I couldn't help but notice the care he has for the child I once thought he'd be angry about. Now that Sebestian was aware of the child I was scared of what will happen if the others came to know about it. No matter how much I believe Sebestian to protect both of us I couldn't help but worry.

"Hmm?" Sebestian asked givingy hand a light squeeze while I was just puzzled.

Soon we reached the dining hall and everybody oresent there had a bright smile on. Olga was there too as she came forwards and ebgulfed me in a hug. I returned the hug but was still confused on the sudden gesture.

"Congratulations, Mrs. Knight." She said and everything made sense as a smile formed on my face. Everybody seems to be aware of the fact that I am pregnant.

"Thank you." I said and she moved for me to sit down. The breakfast table was filled in with foods that I usually prefer and it all made me happy. I felt grateful for everyone putting efforts for mine and my baby's comfort.

No matter how much I planned on eating I couldn't eat more than I usually do. I just had some fruits and a glass of fresh orange juice. I knew that if I ate more I would be crouching down infront of the toilet seat throwing up. I got up from my seat ready to leave, but I gasped when I was pulled to Sebestian's lap.

My right side was pressed against his chest as he held onto me firmly.

"You're not leaving until you have your breakfast." He said as he placed a toast in my mouth when I wanted to protest.

"I seriously had enough." I said as I took a bite from the toast.

"Not enough for my baby." He said as he pecked my cheeks encouraging me to eat. I was suprised to see Sebestian equally attached to the baby. I was happy to know that he cared for us and was sure that he would make a great father.

Our breakfast was interrupted with Alan coming into the hall. "Mr. Knight." He greeted Sebestian as usual he was dressed in his formal attire and had the gentleman aura around him but I knew better. I was still shocked of how these men can cover up their dark personality.

Sebestian nodded while I tried to get up from his lap as it was really embarrassing to be on his lap while Alan was there. However, my struggle resulted in complete failure as Sebestian had no intention to let me go. I sighed and gave up trying.

"Congratulations, Mrs. Knight." Alan said and this time I wasn't confused as I just returned his smile and olaced my hand on Sebestian's hand which rested on my belly. It was clear that, congratulating us wasn't the sole reason for his visit and it was way more important and Alan was hesitant to speak infront of me.

"Mr. Knight..." Alan trailed breaking the silence trying to get Sebestian's attention who was still busy feeding me. Sebestian glanced at Alan raising his eyebrow in question. Alan sighed before saying,

"Will you be in Italy tomorrow? It's March 4-" Alan was cut off and I flinched when Sebestian dropped the fork he held, making it create a loud crashing sound as it collided with the plate.

"No." Sebestian simply said while Alan nodded and excised himself. Sebestian sighed while running his hands through his hair, he clearly was tensed and didn't like the date. I couldn't help but let the questions built in my head, but I decided to ask him later.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, making my body close to his. I needed him to calm down. Whatever it was it was clearly a very sensitive subject for him and I guess it was about his mother. My fingers caressed the back of his neck while I rested my forehead on his. I didn't want him to be worried because I know that he wouldn't like the same for me.

"It's fine, we are here for you." I said continuing my actions as he did calm down. I didn't know what the matter was but I couldn't let him be.

"Thank you." He said making me smile as he hugged me tighter and burried his face in my neck.

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It was evening and after having lunch I sat at my newly found favorite place in the house which was the indoor pool. There was no denying of the fact that it looked insanely beautiful in night time more than it did during the day time. I sat with my legs dipped in the pool while I read a book. No matter how much I tried to focus on the book I couldn't get my mind off this morning. Something clearly wasn't right. Especially when it's 4 March and Sebestian needs to go to Italy.

I sighed, irritated becaise I was reading the same sentence for the fifth time but still couldn't get it all becaise if the kack of concentration.

"Missed me?" A voice came and I turned to see Bradley entering the pool area.

"So much." I said chuckling and so did Bradley.

"I wish I could say the same." He said sitting besides me. I just laughed because Bradley was really one of the person who was all sarcastic with me.

"Your visit states otherwise." I said smiling.

"Oh don't flatter yourself, Padgett Knight. I came here to greet my future nephew or niece." He said happy as the others. This made me happy to know that there were some people who were looking forward for the birth of my child.

"Sebestian tells me you're carrying the mini devil."

"Don't call my child that." I said keeping a hand on my belly. Who prefers to call their niece or nephew a little devil?

"Why? Like father like child." He said serious. While I chuckled and suddenly something struck my mind.

"Bradley?" I called him.

"Yes darling." He said looking up from his phone while I rolled my eyes on his choice of nicknames.

"You've known Sebestian since you were young, right?" I asked confirming.

"Where is this going?" He asked with suspicion evident in his voice.

"Why does Sebestian visit Italy on March 4?" I asked with high hopes of him answering. His face was all serious all fun and jokes he carried flew away.

"How do you know that?" He asked.

"Alan came by this morning." I replied eager for an answer.

"I don't know what to tell you Padgett, it's Sebestian's part to tell you." He said unsure of whether to tell or not.

"Please." I said looking at him with my puppy dog eyes.

"Ahh.. fuck it. Sebestian will probably kill me for it but the world should remember me as the saviour of your marriage. And keep it in your mind Padgett Knight, if that devil for a husband of yours slaughters me then my soul shall haunt you forever." He said ruffling his hair in annoyance. And it was the dramatic Bradley I knew.

"I was born in Italy. My father started a business which was going decent and my mother..." He said looking away.

"My mother was a slut. She would fuck anyone for one penny. My father loved her but she didn't, she didn't even love me. I was brought up by my father alone because that slut wasn't ready to stop getting laid." He said sadly while I was feeling sad for him and his father.

"Sebestian and I were six when he moved to Sicily with his mother," That's when my interest reached its peak.

"He moved in the neighbouring house and suprisingly his mother and my dad were friends from their high school days. His mother had left his father and moved to her family home in Sicily." He took a deep breath before continuing, looking unsure if he should tell or not.

"After his mother told my father about the reasons she moved away with Sebestian, my father decided to help her out. He provided her with a job at his growing company, while Sebestian and I... we became the best of friends. Sebestian wasn't anything like he is now, he was just an innocent, caring boy who was always there for others."

"Sebestian's mother, was great. She was a beautiful, soft hearted woman who wanted the best for her child. She even treated me as one, I used to call her 'mom' because she filled up that space in my life. She used to cook amazing food for me and Sebestian, she used to buy my clothes along with Sebestian's. She never let me feel the need for my biological mother to be there." Bradley smiled remembering her though I could see that he was sad at the same time doing so. While I also had a soft smile on my face imagining how a young and caring Sebestian would be like and listening about his mother.

"Me and Sebestian enjoyed ourselves for two years unknown to the problems our parents hid from us. Everything was perfect for us in those two years, however, it was started to become a bit problematic when Sebestian's father came to know about his whereabouts, he used to come to Sicily and try to persuade his mother to come back with him. Despite her constant refusal he came. Everytime with the same request."

"After two years of persuasion his father stopped coming. His visit stopped for around 3-4 months, and after that time she died, and so did my father. They were both killed." He said looking down. I gasped at the sudden information and felt abd for him and Sebestian.