Padgett Eve

I woke up happily. I had my baby and I was wrapped in Sebestian's embrace. I really didn't feel him coming joining me in the bed last night.

"You're staring, again." He said, his eyes were still closed while my eyes widened. His eyes were closed yet he could tell that. Getting no reply from me he opened his eyes and his hand came up to my cheek, caressing it as he leaned in. I closed my eyes expecting a kiss and that's exactly what he did. He kissed me, hard and rough like he always does. After pulling away as we both were breathless.

"Morning." He said pulling away and caressing my cheek.

"Good morning." I replied, snuggling more into his embrace as I didn't have any intentions for the warmth to get away. Suddenly my eyes shot open as I felt that familiar rising through my throat and I knew what it was. I rushed up to the bathroom, not giving Sebestian any chance to catch me.

"Bathroom." I said and rushed to there, no matter in what hurry I was, I didn't forget to lock the door.

After throwing up and loathing my morning sickness, I did my morning routine and wore a black mini-short and white crop top. I was staying indoors today and I don't know when will I get a chance to wear these because I will hopefully have a baby bump in few months.

I exited the bathroom and was enveloped in a bone crushing hug by none other than Sebestian.

"You're fine, right?" He asked while his face was in my neck and my arms circled around his neck.

"Yes." I answered not really understanding the situation.

"I was worried, you rushed to the bathroom all of a sudden. Why did you do that?" He asked while his face was still in my neck. I was pale listening to his question and thankfull that he couldn't see my face right now or he definitely would have caught my lie.

"I... I needed to.. use the washroom urgently." I said the first sane thing that came to my mind, and after spilling these words out I was embarrassed.

On my answer he just took his head out of my neck, his arms were still around my waist. He stared at me while I was nervous as hell and tried to keep my nervousness away. I didn't want to get caught lying early in the morning.

"You do something like that again, Padgett Knight and you will receive a very harsh punishment." He said sternly before pecking my lips and he went to the bathroom.

We were having our breakfast but I was not so happy because there were no blueberries. I had a sudden urge to blueberries and it was very strong. Maybe one of my pregnancy craving. I was looking at the table in hope to find blueberries but there weren't any, I with a sad smile pushed my fork into the egg I was having.

"Do you want something?" Sebestian asked noticing my face. I thought for it about a moment. Should I or should I not?

"Blueberries." I definitely should. He looked at me for a moment before looking at the maid standing at the corner of the dining hall. She slightly bowed and rushed out of the door.

"She'll get you." He said resuming on his breakfast. While I doubted my ears, did this conversation really not happen or was it my ears showing defect for a moment?

Seconds later that maid returned with blueberries, a lot more than I expected. I pushed my plate aside and pulled the one with blueberries closer to me. I started eating them like I hadn't eaten them before. I noticed Sebestian staring at me with a smile. I looked up and offered him some, he just lightly chuckeled and shook his head.

I felt concious at that moment, was he making fun of me? Was he planning to leave me now that he has seen that I sometimes eat like an animal? The thought itself brought tears to my eyes. I despised my hormones. They were making my head spin. I blinked my eyes, swallowing the tears. I stood up wanting to be away and my appetite was long gone.

As I stood up and was ready to leave, I felt a grip on my hand. Sebestian's grip to be more precise.

"Where do you think you're going?" He questioned.

"I'm done with my breakfast."

"You must be kidding me. No you're not. You haven't eaten anything except a few blueberries which definitely isn't enough." He said serious as ever. I was going to protest, but he pulled me on his lap. The temperature of the room suddenly went up and his touch was lighting fire to my body. I felt an unfamiliar heat inside of my whole body, on my core more specifically.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked snapping me out of my heat observation. I couldn't think of anything I stared at his face and it seemed to look more attractive today. I accept that Sebestian was undeniably attractive, but today it's all magnified. His eyes looked more gorgeous than before.

He gently shook me bringing me back to reality. He cupped my face with both of his hands making me remember what all those hands were capable of. Apart from killing, they were capable of many other things which were actually enjoyable, pleasurable, to be more precise.

Snap out of it, Padgett. Oh God, I feel like a prostitute. I shook my head, snapping out of those dirty thoughts.

"You're fine? You're sweating." He said really concerned about me and I couldn't help the smile and the fireworks which developed inside just by the mere thought of him caring about me. I nooded and pointed towards the Bacon. I couldn't think of anything else.

He took some out on his plate and paired it up with some eggs, bringing the fork up to my mouth. I opened my mouth, regretting the time I decided to walk away from this delicious breakfast. I chewed looking everywhere except Sebestian. After I was really full I stopped Sebestian saying that I was done, after a bit of me insisting he let me go.

I had nothing to do in the mansion, as usual and Sebestian went to his company so I was alone, until lunch, Sebestian came to home after lunch when I was watching T.V. in the bedroom. He came up to me with his iPad, somewhat excited. He sat on the bed, besides me and pulled me to his lap, all the while he had his smirk on.

"You remember, I told you that whoever will ever come between us, try to take you away from me or harm you in any way, I will make him face hell on earth." He asked while cupping my cheeks and I nodded clearly confused of why this topic was being brought up now all of a sudden.

"Good... See I may not be able to make him face hell personally, because you told me to spare him but I can him suffer by others." He told me and changed my position so that now, my back was pressed against his chest as his arms came from each of my side holding me firmly in place as he rested his chin on my shoulder. He opened his iPad and faceTimed Bradley. He did all of this with his smug smirk while I watched him in horror thinking what could possibly happen. Seconds later Bradley picked up the call and set the camera in such a position so that his background was visible.

On seeing his background I wanted nothing more than to just throw up. His background was of dark cell. It consisted of him, Alan and two other men I didn't recognise. My eyes widened as I realised that the two men, which seemed like Sebestian's security held a man to the chair. A badly injured man to be more orecise and it took me no longer to identify the man.

Mason Gray.

He sat there on the chair, drenched in what seemed like his own blood and his face was so brutally beaten up that he was barely recognisable. I gasped in horror and turned my head to see Sebestian's, he just smirked, clearly happy to see Mason in such a state.

"Why is.. he... there?" I asked not able to believe my own eyes.

"You have the whole view, right?" Bradley's voice came instead.

"Yeah, you can start." Sebestian replied to him, ignoring my question.

On hearing his words I became more tensed than I already was while Bradley reflected Sebestian's smirk.

As soon as Sebestian said that Bradley and Alan wore their black leather gloves, Alan motioned a guard towards Mason's mouth and the guard nodded, roughly taking out a piece of what seemed like cloth out of his mouth.

"Thought you'd fancy some music." Alan said making me shock while Bradley and Sebestian chuckled.

Out of all three, Sebestian, Bradley and Alan, I thought Alan was the one who was most civil. Bradley and Sebestian didn't stand a chance but I thought Alan won't be like that but again who is he working for.

Bradley and Alan started cutting his skin, the fact that they were doing it slowly, for sure made it more painful. I closed my eyes shut, and turned my head to bury it in Sebestian's neck as Mason's screams came through the speakers.

"St...stop." I cried out in his neck, and the fact that I still believed he would be kind enough to stop it made it even more worse.

"Stop." He said filling my body with tiniest glimpse of hope.

"I don't want my men to be tired, pin him up." He ordered and smirked while I shed more tears, why do I even try to keep my hopes high when he just doesn't care.

I lowered my head and closed my eyes, I didn't want to watch somebody suffer because of me. But maybe my dear husband didn't deem that idea fit. He held up my chin and whispered in my ears.

"I went easy on you, babygirl. If you don't obey me, you know I can drag you to the basement. A live programme would be much better."

"Open your eyes, Padgett." He commanded and I couldn't help but submit. I opened my eyes, tears blurred my vision as my eyes stung.

I saw the wide screen to see Mason's hand nailed on the wall, while he was getting lashes. I couldn't bear the scene infront of me and turned my head to Sebestian. His icy blue orbs met mine and they held nothing but pure hatred and anger however when they connected with mine there was the sudden change in them. All softness, there wasn't even an ounce left of the emotions he held before.

"I can't." I said as tears rolled down my cheeks, my voice was a mere whisper but he heard it. He was close enough for me to hear his breathing, damn sure he heard my helpless voice.

"You have to. And you can, I know you're strong." He said as his hand came up to my face, in a gentle motion wiping my teary eyes.

If being able to stand this was strong, then I don't want to be strong and I am not strong. I don't have the capacity to watch a man die infront of my eyes. Especially in such a ruthless and brutal way. Even though I hate this and he tried to force himself on me, twice, I believe he shouldn't receive such a painful and slow death.

"Please... stop it." I begged Sebestian hoping he would do that. My eyes now shed uncontrollable tears while I still couldn't get a hold of the fact of why I was being shown this. My head was turned to Sebestian's side as I was facing his satisfied yet angry face.

He sighed and nodded saying, "Just for you." He now looked irritated while I was relieved.

"It's time for the corkscrew." He said to Alan and I was confused didn't he decide to let him go.

"See, I'm letting him go." He said and motioned towards the screen, while I did the the insanely huge mistake to follow his gaze to the screen. I muffled my sobs and scream as I clamped a hand over my mouth.

Alan was holding Mason's head with his hair, and Bradley was pushing a corkscrew in Mason's temple. My eyes widened as I saw them killing Mason, brutally.

I couldn't handle the sight infront of me as I pushed his iPad, it landed somwhere on the huge bed.

I was shaking uncontrollably as I couldn't shake the horrific scenes I just saw. Sebestian turned me so now I was facing him. I was still shaking and now moving around in his grip with so much force yet I was careful of my baby.

"Padgett." He called my name numerous times just so he could have me look him in the eyes and he would do the same thing he always does. He will calm me down just with a soft look and his presence and I will once again be a fool for believing that he will change. I tried my best to avoid that situation.

Sebestian overpowered my strength after a lot of resistance from me. Finally he pinned me down to the bed as he hovered above me. He held me in a completely lock position, I couldn't do anything but breath. Yet all the time he was gentle and didn't even need to use his full force to control me, and all of this made me more angry. Why was he only gentle to me? He seriously needed to choose a side. Good or bad. I didn't want to stay confused my whole life on deciding wheather this man was good or bad.

"Padgett Knight." He said with a authority filled voice and damn his voice especially when he called my full name. His voice made some tinglings in my whole body, and my hormones magnified it more.

My chest was going up and down due to my desperate attempt to catch my breath and Sebestian's closeness made feel like there was something wet on my throbbing core.

God! I feel like a whore.

All the thoughts brought tears to my eyes but Sebestian was quick to wipe them.

"Don't cry." Listening to this, I cried more. His voice was soft and his touch was gentle, he didn't had that sadistic smile on.

Bipolar.

"Yo.. you killed him." I said closing my eyes trying to erase all those horrific screams and that torture.

"He deserved it." He simply said his eyes were again filled with hatred just at the thought of Mason.

"Nobody does." I said looking into his eyes. It was true, nobody deserved to die, especially I believe that we shouldn't take someone's life.

A sudden emotion of confusion crossed his eyes but it was for such a small time that I couldn't accept if it was true or my imagination. He just sighed and released my hands which were till now caught and pinned above my head by his.

"Why do you need to be so good?" He asked me as his hands caressed my cheeks. As gentle as he always has been.

We stared at each other because I definitely didn't have an answer for a question like that.

"You... kille-" I was going to say something but stopped as his lips came crashing down at mine.

And history was repeating itself. His kiss was rough and demanding as always, and I resisted at first but gave in soon. My hands travelled down to his neck and pushed him more to me. I tried my best to reciprocate his passion but couldn't do it to his extent. We kissed like that and just one thought came to my mind,

Toxic.

The relationship I shared with Sebestian, the feelings he had for me were somewhere toxic.

It harmed both of us, badly. But none of us wanted an out from this now. I believed all the promises and words he spoke. I believed he loved me. More than anyone had ever done and possibly could ever do. And I somewhere did the same.

I loved him.

There was no denying that, but I did. No matter how much it hurts me to do so, I still did. And I knew no one could put me or my child in trouble because he loved me. And I believe that he will protect me. He will protect us.