《Please Love Me (Shy! Yandere! Male x Reader)》Chapter 31 - Dear Diary...
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Hi guys. Thank you for reading this story since chapter one. It brings so much joy that lots of people enjoy what I write. The past few weeks have been pretty overwhelming, having some ups and lots of downs.
I'm struggling a lot with the language here and even though I can speak it fluently, my general level of everything is too low compared to my peers (and my reading is beyond horrible T-T) so I can't socialize as much and refrain myself from speaking. I'm so frustrated about this barrier but I don't know how to get past it.
On top of all that, I can't help but feel insecure since I can't feel a close connection with anyone. I feel like I'm just tagging along. Anyways, enough ranting from me, let's get to the story :3
F/D = Favourite drink
F/C = Favourite color
B/H = Body height
F/M = Favourite movie
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You were... confused about yourself to say the least. As of now, you were chained up in your boyfriend's room, looking out the locked window and watching cars roll by. Despite your situation, you were somehow at peace with yourself? You really did feel protected from everything. You had already settled down from yesterday and your calmness was disturbing you. In your mind, you knew this was wrong but at the same time, it felt so right. Like you were free from everything. You felt like time just stopped in this house - though judging by the clock, that definitely wasn't the case.
Yesterday was relaxing. You spent your time looking out the window, reading books, sleeping and talking to Leon. It was quite nice. Lunch was takeout from your favourite restaurant and dinner was spaghetti. In the back of your mind, you were wondering where your boyfriend had gotten the money from to buy the food but you didn't let it get to you.
Leon allowed you to watch some TV shows with him on his laptop as long as he was with you. While watching the movie, Leon had cuddled with you and spoiled you with kisses. However, you stayed in the bedroom for the whole day which was the only negative part of yesterday. The day ended when Leon kissed your forehead goodnight and left to sleep in his parent's room.
You had thought that this home provided you with a sanctuary. Somewhere no one could harm you. Is this what it feels like to be a pet? Maybe it was just because it's your second day. You were torn between your heart and mind.
Soon, you heard a knock coming from the door which snapped you out of your reverie. A meek voice uttered, "Y-Y/N? It's me... Leon. M-May I come in?"
"...Sure." You weren't sure why he was asking for permission to enter his own room.
Leon came in like yesterday, with Jim in front of him and a tray in his hands. From your quick glances of the tray, today's breakfast seemed to be toast, butter and F/D. Yum.
"Morning, m-my love." Leon shined brightly at you in pure happiness. He couldn't believe this wasn't a dream. You had stayed in his house over the night - on his bed for that matter!
"Morning..." You gave him a short smile before turning back to the window.
"Y-You just look so beautiful this f-fine morning," He gushed, "You look like you're thinking deep about something. What are you thinking about?"
"It's nothing, I just..." You trailed off, "Never mind."
"You aren't thinking of l-leaving, a-are you?" You could feel the atmosphere darken as Leon's eyes became emotionless for a fraction of a second, before returning to his bright self. "Of course not. You're a good girl. Good girls don't think of b-bad things."
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He came closer to you and pulled your head towards his chest - you were sitting on the bed while he was standing upright. Muttering incoherent things to himself, he messily stroked your head as if he was comforting himself and looked off to the far distance.
"That's right, she's a good girl. She wouldn't do anything bad." Leon whispered quietly.
"Hm?" You had wrapped your arms around Leon's torso as he continued to touch your hair. Maybe that would reassure him that you weren't going to leave any time soon - it was just too risky. For now, you'll just enjoy the love and affection Leon gives you.
"Ah, it's nothing." Your boyfriend stopped his actions and sat on the bed. "A-Anyways, I'm going o-out to buy fluffy socks so your foot will hurt less. Do you have any particular colors you want me to buy?"
"Maybe F/C. I really like that color."
"Okay, I'll be leaving after you finish your breakfast." Leon sat by you. "How's your day so far?"
"To be honest," You pouted at him to give off a playful vibe, "I'm feeling really bored without anything to do. I can't go out or watch TV or do anything! I get really sad when I can't leave this room."
"O-Oh! I'm so inconsiderate! S-Sorry. It's just the circumstances. I promise that when it's safe, I'll let you explore the house. I'll buy some more things to entertain you. What would you like?"
"A device would be nice." You twiddled your fingers. "There are otome games waiting to be played. I miss my online boyfriends."
Leon huffed, turning his back to you and crossed his arms. "If that's the c-case, I-I'm not getting you anything!"
You giggled and wrapped your arms around him. "I'm kidding~! You're my only boyfriend."
"Good." He stood up, brushing invisible dust off his pants. "I'm sorry I'm not spending as m-much time with you now. Once things are s-settled, I promise I'll never leave you alone again."
Leon gave you a final peck on the lips before leaving. "For now, do whatever you want. If you ever need anything, ask Jim."
After your boyfriend had gone out, you requested to go downstairs to watch some TV but your 'bodyguard' rejected it. "I am not allowed to bring Miss L/N downstairs unless I have been given permission by either one of my bosses."
Either one? "Is there someone other than Leon?"
"Yes, miss. I have been instructed not to let you know who it is until they show up."
"When are they coming?"
Jim glanced at his watch. "Soon, I believe."
You continued to converse with Jim. Despite his emotionless expressions and lack of feeling in speech, he was actually a decent guy to be around. You learned that there was always going to be three people downstairs, all on the lookout in case you escaped. Your mind quickly flickered back to the man in Leon's backyard. So that must've been another henchman hired by Leon and someone else.
Who could this other person be? Whoever it was, it must've been someone who was pretty well off - which was pretty much your entire school. But then again, who said it was someone from your school?
"Could you tell me about this person then?" You tried getting more information off of Jim.
He sighed and shook his head. "Go try doing something else, miss. I have nothing to tell you."
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You sulked off and started rummaging around Leon's room, wondering what else you could find out about Leon. His bookshelf consisted of mostly non-fictional books but there was a small section of fictional books reserved for you. You had already gone through all of them so there was nothing to see there.
Next, you went through his drawers, starting from the one in his desk. It was pretty normal, it had your average equipment for school; black and blue pens, cheap color pencils, rulers, a stack of sticky notes and some other little things. Then was a set of drawers - a total of five - that held all his clothes.
The top drawer contained all of Leon's shirts. You recognized quite a few that he had worn when going out on a date with you. The second drawer had his pants which wasn't that interesting so you took a quick glance and went on to the next one. When you opened the third one, you realized that it was for your boyfriend's underwear and quickly closed it shut, your face heating up. Oh, the dirty thoughts that had entered your mind at that moment!
The fourth drawer had clothing for special occasions, which you skipped. Though, you wonder what Leon would look like with these swim trunks on.
The final drawer was the most fascinating - you immediately saw a board game for you and Jim to play while Leon was gone and there was a worn out notebook placed next to it. Other than that, there was just bed sheets and pillow sheets.
You examined the notebook. It seemed the be in good condition, despite the little creases on the corners of the pages and small stain at the back. You flipped it open, reading whatever was on it in the middle.
-we went to the animal shelter and had lots of fun. After the date, she kissed me!! She kissed me on the lips! I'm so happy... I want to see her in my dreams again so I can get a taste of those delicious lips... I love Y/N so much~
So this was Leon's diary. You chuckled at his innocence. It was pretty cute. Should you continue reading it?
'I mean, he did say that we could do whatever we want, right?' You convinced yourself. Your desperate self just wanted to fish for more compliments from this diary.
You started to skim through some of them:
Dear diary, I met this really beautiful girl that stood up for me when I was being harassed by my classmates. Her name is Y/N L/N. I hope she continues to stay with me.
Dear diary, I'm starting to really like her. I hope she doesn't notice, but at the same time I really want her to notice. I see her glancing at me sometimes, does that mean she likes me too??? Ahhhh, my heart jumps whenever she talks to me.
Dear diary, I have decided that this notebook will be dedicated all to Y/N~ Anyways, today when I was teaching her how to solve some kind of quadratic equation, she scrunched up her face cutely in concentration. I just want to hug her so badly!
Dear diary, we touched fingers!!! I was tutoring her and she accidentally dropped her pen. I picked it up from the ground and gave it to her. While doing so, our fingers brushed against each other. I don't ever want to wash my hands again.
Dear diary, we went to the amusement park and the flower garden. I won a teddy bear for her!! I hope she sees me as someone she can depends on. Imagining Y/N depending on me... it makes me really happy.
Dear diary, I dreamed of Y/N yesterday night. It was pleasant. She said-
You were interrupted by the sound of a door opening. It must be Leon! You quickly closed the diary and put it back to its original place. Best not to mention the board game either, or else Leon would be reminded of the notebook next to it. You sat on the bed, patiently waiting for your boyfriend to come visit you.
"Darling~" You freeze, your whole body unable to move. This wasn't Leon. It was...
"Alec?!" You exclaimed when he opened the bedroom door. You gaped at him while he smiled cheekily at you, holding up a plastic bag.
"I bought some goodies."
"S...So you're the other boss of Jim?"
"Yep! I wasn't trying to keep it a secret. I just wanted to surprise you!" He fell on top of you, clinging around you like a vine. "It's been so long since I've seen your beautiful face. Last time I was here, you were still asleep and I didn't want to wake you up."
You tried to reason with your best friend. "Alec, don't you think that keeping me here is a little too far?"
"Absolutely not, darling. Like Leon said, it's for your own safety. The murderer is still out there, I don't think you should go out until he's caught."
"Alec," You say to him, mustering up the most seriousness you had and stared at him. "Keeping me here, not allowing me to go outside, all of this, is wrong. I'm begging you to please let me go. I won't tell anyone, okay?"
Your best friend frowned at you. "I'm sorry. We'll let you leave when the murderer is caught."
Tears of frustration escaped your eyes. It didn't look bright for you. 'I don't think I'll be leaving any time soon...'
To be quite honest, you were pissed off. Really pissed off. Two of the closest people in your life have just decided what was best for you and locked you up in their house. Right now, Alec was sitting beside you on the bed, stroke your H/C tresses and whispering sweet nothings into your ear.
'Take deep breaths, Y/N. Getting angry won't help you leave.' You slowly calmed yourself down. Leaning your head on Alec's shoulder, you imagined yourself succumbing to this situation for now. You would behave until you saw a way out. As of now, there were you knew that there was always going to be four men on the lookout for you when you leave. You didn't remember well, but you were pretty sure there were two exits - the front and back door.
So far, the windows were a small possibility of escape. You could also jump out of the window, but you shouldn't risk it until you can see how far Leon's second floor was to the ground. Additionally, Leon made sure to lock all windows from the outside as well. Because of that, even if you broke the glass, your body was too big to get past the window frames.
"What are you thinking of?" Alec tucked some strands of hair behind your ear lovingly.
"Nothing, just a bit touched but weirded out that you treasure me so much to keep me here."
"Of course, if someone were to ever harm a hair on your head, I'll make sure they're dealt with." Alec chuckled darkly. The look on your friend's face immediately turned bright. "Anything you want to do? We can head downstairs and watch something on Netflix."
"Okay!"
Alec pulled out a key from his pocket and unlocked your chain. 'So he has a key as well...'
"What do you want to watch?" You head downstairs with Alec, Jim trailing behind you. When you went down, you immediately spotted another man watching out for things on the first floor. The man stood beside a wall, looking around the room and walking every few minutes. He nodded at Alec and continued to make his way around the house.
"Would you like some F/D?" Alec offered, "Leon stocked up on a lot of things for you after taking you in."
You were still reluctant due to previous experiences. "Er, it's tempting but..."
"Aw, my poor darling. Don't worry, I'd never do that to you~" Alec kissed you on the cheek. "Go pick some movies and I'll go get some of F/D. Jim will watch you as I do."
He came back with two medium sized cups of F/D as well as a bowl of popcorn. "Did you pick a movie?"
"Yeah, what do you think abou-"
"Wait! We need blankets."
Alex dashed up the stairs and retrieved the blankets from 'your' room. "Now we're ready."
You opened F/M on Netflix and laid back comfortably. Alec grasped onto one of your arms and snuggled into it whilst the two of you watched the movie. While watching the movie, you wondered if there was something more to Alec than a best friend. Your intimacy with him felt closer than a regular friend. You dismissed the thought. Little did Alec know, you smiled at him. He was still him no matter what after all.
You and Alec were three quarters in the movie when Leon finally showed up, placing the all types of bags - clothing, groceries down onto the floor while he took off his shoes. The shy boy was alarmed when he heard someone watching the television since the people were not permitted to watch something while on duty. He peered over to see you and Alec waiting for him to come back.
"Welcome back~" You chirped, munching on your popcorn.
"Y/N...!" Leon says happily. "I-I'm sorry I've been away for so long... I miss you~~ And Alec... Er, I didn't know you'd come over today."
"I'll be coming over almost everyday if I can make it." Alec responded. "I want to see our little princess as much as possible~!"
"Okay... then please tell me next time before you come over."
"Sure." Alec soon got distracted when he fed you some popcorn.z
"Hey, Leon. Do you wanna join us? The movies almost done but Alec's gonna choose another one later. We can also watch a third movie if you want.
Leon's precious angel was inviting him to sit with her and watch movies? Who would not accept?
You stood up. "Here, let me help put the groceries away and then we can finish the movie. Alec, you can pick the next movie that we'll watch later now."
Your boyfriend passed you the bag of groceries that you took and carried to the kitchen, starting to sort things out.
'Wow... Y/N is sorting groceries with me! This is getting closer to my fantasy of having a married life with her!" Leon giggled under is breath. He stared at your oblivious self as you sorted the different foods into the refrigerator and on the counter, biting his lip in awe at your beauty.
"Leon, I'm not sure where this goes..." You trailed off, holding a bunch of bananas for Leon to see. You then noticed that he hadn't done anything other than stand around. You pouted at him, "Leon, you haven't done anything!"
He snapped out of his little reverie and focused on the task at hand. "O-Oh, huh? W-Well technically, I bought the groceries. The bananas are still slightly green so just leave it on the c-counter. I'll sort it out."
After finishing up, you were curious on what was in the other bags. You asked Leon what was inside and turns out he had bought your clothes for you. If you didn't like it, he would return it. "Can I see them?"
"A-Ah, not y-yet!" Leon squeaked. "I want to keep it a s-surprise."
"Okay then..." You started tugging Leon onto the sofa. Soon, the three of you were positioned comfortably with Leon on your left and Alec to your right. Just like that, time passed by quickly as you binge watched a few movies. In a matter of what felt like moments to you, it was already night time.
You were almost finished with the third movie when you felt like you were going to fall asleep. Your head tilted to your left when your boyfriend closed his eyes in anticipation, waiting for your head to fall gently onto his shoulders. Unfortunately, that moment never came. Somebody tilted her head the other way. Leon looked to the right to see Alec sticking his tongue out at him. Leon glared.
When the movie finally ended, Leon and Alec started moving. Leon started to tell Alec what to do with you. "Go carry her upstairs and tuck her into bed. Also prepare the necessities she's going to need tomorrow."
Alec nodded and set off to work. He carried you upstairs bridal style and went downstairs again to take your clothes for the next day and more. Finally, he made sure that he locked the door again. While all of this was happening, Leon started cleaning up and handed the blankets over to Alec to tuck you in.
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