One moment we were kissing and the next moment we were already in his room and our clothes were gone to who knows where. He was too busy kissing but I just can't enjoy it. I don't even know what is wrong with me but I just don't feel like giving myself fully to him yet.

As if sensing my uncomfortable state, he stopped and looked at me. " what's wrong baby?" Oh lord ,what should I answer? " I..I'm hungry. Can we eat? I mean I cooked dinner with so much of love and you don't wanna taste it? I mean the groceries are not cheap nowadays. I mean, it will be a waste.I mean..." before I could even blabber more, he kissed me. " I get it sweets. You don't fully trust me yet. I'll shower first. Then we can have our dinner. I don't mind you eating first though if you are hungry". He sounds so sad? You always ruin the moment Emily! Damn! I feel so bad!

We ate in silence. No normal conversation, jokes or compliments. I looked at him and he was just staring at his food. I really need to do something!

After dinner, i followed him everywhere he goes. But he still didn't say a single word. I was thinking what to say when he started to walk again. I followed behind without realizing that he stopped walking and facing me with arms crossed. I looked at him and then realization hit me. Location: Toilet. Oh my I didn't know he was going there.

I am pretty sure I am blushing at this point. " What are you trying to do? " AWWW he still has his "golden" voice. " I..I was t..trying to.. you know.." " Are we playing some sort of train game? put..put.. chik..chik..chik.." He made some hand gestures and I couldn't help it anymore. I burst out laughing. That was so cute. Imagine a super hot guy acting like a kid with all the hand gestures.

Ok done with all the laughing girl! Now back to your mission! My inner self reminded me. " about what happened earlier, I am sorry" i said. He pulled me closer to him and said something that made me feel even more terrible. " You have nothing to be sorry about baby. You gave me your love but I acted like a typical jerk by trying to get into your pants. I am so sorry. Please don't leave me. I promise I won't do that anymore unless you are ready for it. I am so sorry"

He thinks this is his fault? Oh no! "No. Its not your fault. I should have stopped you earlier.Its my fault. I will never ever leave you. Never! I love you so much." " That is the best thing that I have ever heard today. You made this day special sweets. Thank you and I love you so much baby".

We hugged for a while. Me as usual crying like a baby and he as usual comforting me till I was okey.