We had our breakfast at the balcony with some really cool morning views of the Eiffel tower this morning. The food was really good, Lana said that she loves it. And I couldn't be more happier to know that she's happy.

Just like what she planned, we're on our way to Disneyland. She loves Disney, she always love Disney. It is so easy to make her happy but everyone said it is so hard to win her heart. While I'm here, it seems so easy for me to win her heart by our parents arrangement but also way too easy for me to break her heart.

I'm the worst person.

The way she smiles when she saw the Disneyland's sign told me how pure and innocent her heart is. She looks so excited i can tell from the way she looks at the amusement park in front of us.

The car stops right in front of the main gate, we walk out of the car and get inside right away. Our hand keep holding to one another, she looks like a little girl who's so excited with the ride in this amusement park.

We stop in one of the ride that she wants to go, the line is pretty long but she really wants to go so i will wait on line with her. Whatever she wants as long as she's happy.

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"Lana you annoyed me so much" i said as i keep covering my face from her camera.

She keeps taking a lot of pictures of me,

"You know I'm obsessed with you face" she said while laughing.

She's going to delete those pictures one she found out,

We're having a lunch in the cafe right now, we took so many rides and there's still so many rides that we haven't took. So i guess we still have so many times to finish all of the ride.

She ran into so many characters today she also took so many pictures with them, it feels like I'm babysitting a little girl in an amusement park. I'm going to enjoy every second of it.

"Hey lets go, lunch is over" she said before getting up from her seat.

"Okay lets go" i said.

I follow her wherever she goes until she looks tired,

"You want a piggy back ride?" I asked her.

"Are you sure?" She asked.

"Yes" i said.

"Of course!" She said.

I give her a piggy back ride until we reach a Disney shop, we're so excited to see what's inside. I know she's a typical girl that like to buy anything that looks unique.

We walk in and there's so many cool stuff, she found so many things that she probably going to buy. We were walking around the store when she suddenly puts a goofy hat on my head, she said that she likes it.

"I'm probably going to buy this one for you Apollo" she said then taking a picture of me wearing this hat.

"No you're not" i said putting back the goofy hat but she picks it up then put it inside of the basket.

I just shake my head then watch her paying all the stuff from the basket, she literally bought all of those things that look more like a toy. We walk out of the store while she's smiling brightly like she just won a lottery.

"Are you happy now?" I asked her.

"Yeah haha" she said.

"Lets get another ride!!" She said holding my hand then began to walk.

We walked around the amusement park until it's finally dark.

Now we're standing in front of the Disney castle waiting for the famous fireworks, she seems very excited.

"You know I've seen this like a thousand times and I've never got bored" she said.

"Me too and I'm bored" i said.

But I'm not bored when i have her around, like she always cheer up the day. And seeing her happy is the best thing ever.

The music began to play and the fireworks started to popping on the sky, she holds my hand while looking up to the sky.

I put my arm around her shoulder while we're looking up to the dark sky that has so many fireworks on it.

"I'm so happy, i love you so much" she said.

She keeps saying that word all the time, and i always feel so guilty every time she said that.

"I love you too" i said.

She leaned closer before kissing me right on the lip,

Tonight I'm not only watching a fireworks but i also feeling it, i always feel a spark every time i kiss her sweet soft lip. I'm always craving for her lips,

"Lets go to a bar after this i want to have some drink!" She said.

"You sure?" I asked.

"I'm always so sure!" She said.

I pull her closer to giver her a hug.

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My favorite moment from today is where we were at the ferris wheel, the view from up there was pretty cool. It was only both of us inside of the ferris wheel, the view was pretty and she looks beautiful as well.

And now we're on our way to the bar just like where she wants to go, she wears a black satin cocktail dress. She never failed to amaze me since that night.

"I want you to stick around me all the time okay" i said to her before we enter the bar.

"I'm the one who should feel worried" she said.

"Why?" I asked.

"I've seen you drunk before" She broke into a smile.

Yeah i know she have seen me drunk for so many times cause we always went to a bar with our friends before,

"I've seen you drunk so many times too" i said teasing her back.

"Okay I don't really want to get drunk, i just want to have a good time with you tonight" she said.

"But in a wild way" she winks before walking away from me.

This girl, she's the only one who drives me crazy.

I follow her wherever she goes making sure nobody touch her, I'm on a duty tonight to protect her while she's having a lot of fun.

She ordered a fruit punch and i only can laugh because she doesn't really want to get drunk, who ordered a fruit punch in a bar in the middle of the night? Only her, my girl.

They began to play a music by big Sean, there's the time she holds my hand then lead me into the dance floor which full of people who got drunk and dancing together.

She keeps dancing with her hands on mine, tonight is a really fun night. We had some fun together, i see her smiling all day today.

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We went back to the hotel after spending a few hours in the bar, she got tired and told me that she wants to go home. So we went back home and now here we are laying next to one another.

The speaker inside of the room playing an acoustic music, the speaker is connected with her phone which is playing her playlist. Most of her songs are pretty chill and slow. People said we can understand a person just by knowing her music playlist, and they're right.

She really likes a chill and a calm music, and she's a typical person that really likes to be alone with an earphone on. She really enjoys being alone in the middle of nowhere with just her phone and an earphones.

"I kinda feel hungry" i said to her.

"Just order something" she said.

"Do you want something?" I asked her before started to dial the room service.

"I want a red wine" she said to me, what is she thinking?

"I'm sorry?" I asked her.

"A red wine" she repeated.

"Okay" i said.

I called the room service then ordered a slice of cake and a red wine just like what she wants, she stays on the same position since we came back from the bar. She still wearing her black satin dress, she even still has her make up on.

I don't know is it okay for a her to fall asleep with a make up on or not, maybe she's tired. She haven't made any conversation since we got back to the hotel. She's only connected her phone with the speaker then lay on bed, she keeps playing on her phone without any word.

"I'm going to take a quick shower" i said then walk into the bathroom.

Just what i said i only took 10 minutes quick shower, i changed into a shirt and a sweatpants. I was putting my shirt on when I finally realized that the doorbell has been ringing for so may times.

I unlocked the door and walk out of the bathroom, i found Avalana is asleep. She must be so tired because of our full activities today, i ran into the door and open up the door for the service man.

"Sorry i was at the bathroom" i said to him.

"It's okay sir, this is your cake and red wine" he said.

"Thank you" i said as he put the food on the table in the living room.

The service man left, Avalana fell asleep before she got a chance to drink the red wine she ordered.

The bedroom door is opened i still can here the music is playing from the bedroom, i sit on the sofa in the living room while eating a slice of dark chocolate cake that i ordered.

It is a chill night, the windows that show a beautiful night view of paris make it way more perfect.

I had a lot of fun with my girl today, there's so many memories we took today. I hope it is going to last forever. My mind is playing the memories from today, the picture of her smiling through the day is really making my day.

The way she keeps holding on my hand all day long, how she keeps laughing and tell me how much she loves me. The way our lips touch one another, the sparks and all the fireworks that popped today. And my feeling that will always stay the same for her,

I pour the red wine into a cup then drink it, i need a drink. She's making me want her more and more but the fact that i cheated on her and i know that she'll walk away from my life when she found out is stressing me out.

I can't live without her, she's like an Oxygen to me and i need her to make me stay alive. I can't imagine how's life without her, i can not imagine continuing life without her.

I've never been like this before, never have a serious relationship like this before. She's the only girl that successfully caught the whole attention from me, and she's also the one who makes me feel special and because of her i know how love feels like.

She also teaches me how to respect and being consistent with one another, she also the only girl who can comes into my mind in the middle of the class. She's the only person that always has my focus on.

I finished a cup of red wine, i walk into the bedroom. I see her sleeping on the bed with her black dress on, she looks peacefully asleep looking so innocent as hell. How can I tell that i cheated on a person that's so fragile and soft like her.

Man I love her.

But i fucked up, and I'm a jerk.

I don't deserve her