We went into so many places that she wanted to go today, just like what she said we took a lot of pictures and she seems very happy. She told me that she loves me so much, and i always feel guilty every time she said that. I know she's going to regret it when she knows the truth.

I'm going to take her for a dinner tonight, well i booked a table for a dinner at the hotel's rooftop. Now I'm in the living room with a formal black tuxedo waiting for her to walk out of the bedroom.

I'm watching one of the tv show crime series, it is my favorite tv show. Lana knows that, and she told me that she also watch the same tv series.

Avalana, she's different from the other. Nobody couldn't get into her heart until i walked into her life that night. And i know if her dad was here he would be so angry at me for not taking a good care of his precious daughter.

But i also feel so lucky to have her as my girlfriend, she's not just a girlfriend she's also my best friend. She understands, she's a good listener and she always gives me a good advice.

I wonder what if Floyd and sarah hadn't walked into my room that night, maybe I would have still done the wrong thing. I kinda feel grateful that they made me realize how precious Lana is. Like everyone always said regrets always come when the person is gone. I always regret for what I've done to her every time i see her.

I stole her first kiss and I'm her first boyfriend, i am her first and I really want to be her last. But i think that thing isn't going to happen, knowing that she's going to walk out of my life is breaking me.

I heard the sound of the door that being opened, she walks out of the bedroom with a maroon dress. She always looks beautiful but this time, she looks way more.

She's mine.

My eyes can't even blink automatically, can't take my eyes off her. she's the girl that i love so much. I'm crazy for her, I cannot believe she's mine.

Her hair is being curled and her blue eyes are killing me straight to my chest, her lip. Her red lips making me crazy,

I'm insane.

"You look" i said.

She blinks as i stop my sentences.

"You look beautiful" i said.

She smiles while looking away,

"Thank you" she said.

"I mean you're always look beautiful" i said.

She walks closer and i know my hearts is beating faster every time her steps is getting closer.

I'm the luckiest man alive.

She moves closer before started to help me with my shirt,

I lean closer and reach her red lip, her lips always taste so sweet. She froze for a moment, i put my hand on her cheek while the other on her back. It feels special every time our lips touch one another, her soft lip always brings joy.

We broke the kiss, she still closing her eyes while our faces are only an inch away from one another.

"Beautiful" i said under my breath.

She finally opens her eyes, looking up at me. Her hand reach my cheek and her soft thumb gives me a brush.

"I love you" she said.

"I love you too" i said.

"I feel so lucky to have you as my partner" she said with her low voice.

"Lets go to the rooftop" she said to me.

Her hand is always on my arm as we walked out of the room, we entered the rooftop. Glad the table is ready for us, it has a really beautiful view of the Eiffel tower.

I take my phone out from my pocket and started to taking a picture of her, she was looking through the menu when i took a picture of her. She's sitting in front of me with a really good views behind her, i feel so lucky.

"Can you stop?" She suddenly looks up from the menu.

"No, my beautiful girlfriend looks like an angel complete with a good views behind her" i said while keep taking a picture of her.

She keeps smiling then cover her face with her hands, i think she gets annoyed.

"Okay i'll stop" i said smiling.

"Woah it really has a beautiful view" she said.

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We finished the dinner and now i started to feel cold, she must be too. Plus she's wearing a sleeveless dress.

"Hey are you cold?" I asked her.

"Yes" she broke into a smile.

She looks cute every time she broke into a smile.

"Actually i already feels cold since the food got here" she said.

"Oh my god, lets go back to our room" i said getting up from my seat, i help her to get up from her seat then put my arm around her shoulder. Her skin feels cold, I didn't realize it. I feel bad for her.

"I'm so sorry, I thought it was going to be the best dinner ever" i said and she just laugh.

"It's okay the view was great though" She said as we're walking into the elevator.

We walk straight to our room then i let her to use the bathroom first,

I take off my shoes then lay on the bed, i turn on the tv and found a cool family movie to watch.

It took a pretty long time for her to finally walks out with a fresh clothes and fresh face, she removed her make up and she still looks so beautiful.

"You do know that you always can use the other bathroom don't you?" She asked.

"I know" i said.

There are two bathrooms here in the penthouse but I'm too lazy to bring my stuff into the other bathroom.

"My stuff are here I'm too lazy to carry my things up" i said to her.

"Okay.." she said.

"Now you can use the bathroom" She said.

"Cool" i said getting up from the bed.

I walk into the bathroom then decided to take a quick shower, the bathroom is pretty big. It has a marble floor all over the place and a square bathtub in the middle of it, i knew Lana must be enjoyed every second being here. She always takes her time here.

After a few minutes I finally walk out of the bathroom, I found Lana is laying on the bed while watching a Tv. Her face looking so serious towards the screen, she looks cute.

I crawled up onto the bed before laying next to her, she seems doesn't care about my appearance and she keeps focusing on the screen.

"Where do you want to go tomorrow?" I asked her.

"Hmmm" she smiles then throw a glance at me.

"Disneyland?" She asked.

"Okay wherever you wanna go" i said.

I lay my head on the pillow when suddenly she rolls over and face me,

"Thanks for everything" she said with a sweet low voice.

"Any time" i said.

"Thanks for being here too" i said.

She leans closer then lay next to me, she slowly put her head on my shoulder while covering her body with a white blanket. Her hair smells like a fresh melon, she always smells so good.

"I wonder what will happen in the future especially as a college student" she said before intertwined our hands.

"Are you going to be so busy and forget about me?" She asked.

Oh no she started bringing up about our future topic, i don't know if she's going to stay or not and it makes me sad.

"Of course not, you're the one who's going to be so busy when you jump into a medical school" i said while brushing her shoulder.

"I'm afraid" she said.

Why? I don't want her to be afraid while I'm going to be so far from her, i want her to be okay even though I'm not going to be next to her in the future.

Oh god this is sad, she doesn't know that i always feel so sad when she's talking about our future plan.

Cause i know she's going to leave me once she found out.

"Babe"

"Yes?" I said.

"I'm afraid, what if I cannot passed?" She said.

"You're the smartest and the most confident woman i know, trust yourself" i said to her like everything is going to be okay in the future.

"What if.." she said.

"What if I'm going to forget you?" She asked and those words seems stabbed me right on the chest.

There's a silent between us.

"I don't want you to forget me" i said to her.

"I'll wait for you" i said.

I really want to cry right now, but I'm a guy and she'll think that I'm weird to cry just because of the conversation.

"I'll stay forever i can promise that" i said to her.

She suddenly sit on the bed facing me with both of her hands holding my right hand,

"Can you promise me that?" She asked me with both of her beautiful blue eyes looking straight at me.

"I promise that you're going to be my last" I said to her.

This moment making me sad.

"I love you, you know that right" she said with her eyes still on mine.

"I know it" i said.

I know you love me that much Lana, i love you too but i know I'm going to break your heart at the end and you always make me feel guilty every time you said that you love me.

"I love you more" i said.

She leans closer then hug me, she hugs me. Her head is on my chest, i hold her in my arm. I don't know what will i do if i don't have her in my life.

"Your heart is beating fast" she said.

I stay in a silent, it feels like i just want to stay in this moment and hold her in my arm forever.

We stay like this until she fell asleep on my arm, she's such an angel.

I love her so much.