It is getting late at night and now i lay on my own bed next to Kayla one of the chick from school, feeling so tired after doing a few rounds with her.

I've been so stressed these days cause it is so hard for me to get into the University that i want and the feeling of scared of not getting what i want keep haunting me since a few weeks ago. I don't want anyone to know that sometime i can be very depressed just because of some little thing. I don't want anyone to see me on my weakness, I don't want them to see me with a concern on their eyes. I keep drinking all night inside of my own bedroom just to forget everything until i got tired and sleep.

I even forget when is the last time i talk to Lana, the stressful shit of the goals inside of my head making me so tired and depressed. The pressure on my shoulder is too heavy for a teenager like me, the goals to get into Harvard is like one of the requirements to run my family business. So the other employer and the other company won't underestimate me and my family's company.

The only way to run away from this stressful life is to forget and this is how i do to forget all of my problems. Drinking and having a night with a girl name Kayla, we've been doing this friends with benefits since I can't remember especially when I'm going on a hard times. Besides Lana can't really give me my physical needed, i love her.

I do love Lana.

But she haven't and seems won't give me what i needed, well my life is changing since she walks into my life. But sometimes i have to fulfill my needed, besides I don't really care how Kayla really feels. It seems like she's been with so many guys including Justin.

I was so surprised when she shown up from Justin's room when we were in Hawaii, nobody really know about this dirty little secret accept her and myself.

"I have to go" Kayla said broking the silent in the middle of the dark room.

"Yeah, just don't bring any of my shirt" i said and actually not so care if she brought one of my shirt but now it feels annoying when the other girl stealing your shirt.

"I'm just only going to borrow it" she said with a seductive laughs before started to put her arms around me and started to brush my shoulder slowly.

"I'll give it back to you on our next meeting" she whispered on my ears and i feel guilty every time she does this.

The bedroom door suddenly being opened when the lights being turned on and revealed Floyd with a black formal shirt looking so shocked when they found me on the bed with Kayla.

I pushed her away from me before getting up from the bed, my heart beating so fast didn't expect that this thing is going to happen.

Floyd's face turn into an anger before one of his hand reach one of the cup on the wardrobe and throw it to to the wall.

"Bro i can explain" i said with my heart beating so fast.

I've never seen him this mad before until his hard fist met my face right on the nose, his fist feels so hot and it hurts so fucking bad. I think my nose is broken, it hurts like hell.

"You're a total bastard Apollo, a real men don't do this!" He said with an anger on his face while both of is arm pushing my body onto the wall.

I see Kayla is picking her stuff before I suddenly heard Sarah voice came in, shit shit this is going to be the end of my life. I wasn't expecting this thing is going to happen.

"Floyd stop what are you doing?" Sarah walks inside with an innocent eyes until she saw Kayla is standing inside of the room wearing my shirt.

"Kayla what are you doing here?" Sarah's voice breaking the silent.

"Let this bastard explain before i broke his neck" Floyd said with full of anger.

"Kayla leave" i said with a trouble of speaking because of Floyd strong hands are wrapped on my neck.

She picks her stuff before ran out of the room leaving me with Sarah and Floyd, sarah closed the bedroom door while Floyd throw me onto the messy bed.

"Apollo..," sarah said with her face still in shocked.

"You've been avoiding her cause you're stress and need some space but this isn't the way to help you to get out of your problem dude!" Floyd still looks so pissed.

"I thought you loved her Apollo" sarah said.

"I love her, I really do love her" I said.

"Bulshit! Don't ever say that again how could you!" Sarah said and I can't believe the person that i was expecting to be the last person that's going to be mad at me is actually shouting at me right now.

"This is all bullshit! Do you know how's the feeling to be avoided?!" Sarah asked.

"You've been avoiding her for a few weeks now, and you've been doing this with other girl?! Do you know how worried she is, Can you imagine how Lana feels?" Sarah emotionally said.

"I've been so stressed you won't understand!" I'm trying to defending myself.

"But this isn't a right thing to do! You just have to communicate! not doing this thing! I thought you've changed and stopped doing this kind of things but i was wrong" Floyd said

"She's been waiting for you to answer her calls and want to share a good news with you but you're just gone" Sarah said to me with a disappointment on her face.

"What good news?" I asked her and not knowing anything.

I miss Lana, but i feel guilty to meet her after what I've done this with the other girl.

"She's being accepted as a medical student in UCLA and Oxford" Floyd said, she got into it? And I'm the last person to know about it.

"A single kiss from you affected her so much while it seems like a piece of dust for you Apollo" Sarah said.

"I feel so disappointed and so guilty to trust you to take care of her" sarah said.

"You better tell her the truth, we'll give you some times to tell her the truth or we're going to tell her by ourselves" Floyd said to my face.

"Are you crazy?" I asked him.

"You are crazy! So you're going to lie with her the whole time?" Sarah asked and she's right, it'll haunt me my whole life.

"Of course not" i said.

"We'll leave it all to you, i just feel so disappointed. She's way better to be threatened like this, you don't deserve her Apollo" sarah said before leaving me with Floyd.

The pain on my face that has a blood that came out of my nose seems fade away after sarah told me that, she's right.

"Wake up dude this isn't you" Floyd said.

"I know how you really want to get into the university, i know how the pressures on your shoulder besides you're going to taking care of you family's company. But playing with a person's feelings isn't the way to solve the problem even if it helps you to forget" he said.

"You always be there for her when she needs you and I'm sure she's going to be there for you, maybe not in physically needed but i know she's the best person to comfort you. You can just communicate with each other not avoiding her and doing this thing" Floyd continue.

"We'll leave it all to you but I don't want you guys to have a relationship with full of lies" Floyd said.

"Well now excuse me" Floyd said before walking out of my room, he grabs his watch from my desk before closing the door behind him.

I pull my hair with both of my hands feeling so fucked up, this situation makes me so depressed.