"Some regrets are acceptable as long as your loved ones aren't hurt."

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"So, packed your bags?" he settled on her bed and she watched him from the crook of her eyes.

"We are coming tomorrow morning so there is no need to take clothes." she gawked at him as he was asking the same question since yesterday. Eun Ae was suppose to assist Mr. Jeon for a meeting in Macau. The client was basically Mr. Jeon's friend and he had invited him in Macau so Mr.Jeon asked Eun Ae to assist him as Jungkook refused to go.

"Appa should have stayed atleast for a day, why to leave so early?"

"Jungkook you know Mr. Jeon have health problem he cannot withstand slightest change in the atmosphere and food habit that's why he has planned this one day tour." she answered him and he smiled, he was impressed to see how well she knows about his family history.

"So ready to go?" he asked and she nodded, smiling.

"Fine, so Jungkook i will be heading towards the airport now." she walked with her small travel bag which was enough to hold some important things, "See i have cooked lunch for you and also i have told Hoseok oppa to deliver dinner for you, so there is no need to eat outside okay?" she turned towards him and he chuckled as she was behaving like an eomma.

"There was no need to trouble Hoseok hyung, i can manage it myself."

"It's fine Jungkook. Okay then bye." she waved and he waved back, smiling.

Jungkook watched her go towards the elevator. She grinned and waved at him before entering the elevator.

Jungkook sighed after closing the door as now the cold and lonely house was waiting for him. He was not use to such feeling of loneliness as she was always there with him.

He wasn't sure what he will be doing the whole day, he lazily walked towards the couch area and landed on it. He tried searching for something to watch.

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The clock in the hall ticked away the seconds and his eyes lingered towards it. It was the time, a leisurely lunch was waiting for him in the kitchen made by her.

Jungkook ate his lunch alone, it reminded him more about his loneliness. He always did lunch and dinner alone many times in the house before marriage but the loneliness never ticked him, maybe because he would just eat outside sometimes but today it was consuming him, he did not even felt like walking out of the house and eating.

After lunch he decided to talk a good nap just to kill time, he made his way towards his room but then his mobile, which was kept on the couch beeped. He walked towards the couch to check the message, a smile was crept on his face when he saw that the message was from Eun Ae.

He never knew that a small message can make him smile. He leaned on the couch gazing at ceiling as he pressed the handset on his chest. For a moment he wished he would have assisted them, assisted her...

Jungkook was woken up by the door bell. He fluttered his eyes and this was the time he realised that he was sleeping on the couch. Sighing, he checked the timing.

"7pm?" his eyes went wide as he realised that he slept too much and that was due to absences of Eun Ae, she use to wake him up on time but today there was no one.

He lazily made his way towards the door.

"Hoseok hyung" he beamed after seeing Hoseok from the door bell camera screen.

Jungkook greeted Hoseok and he entered.

"I have been told to deliver food by Eun Ae so i am here for that." Hoseok said as he sat on the couch.

"Hyung i told Eun Ae that, this was not needed but she never listens." Jungkook got slightly embarrassed because he thought that the elder delivering food for him was too much,"You should have called me i would have came."

Hoseok chuckled,"Eun Ae actually know what you will eat, the oily and unhealthy food! and don't worry, your house is near to my office so i thought it will be good if i came myself." He handed him the lunch box, "Here, take it."

"Thanks hyung...aa.. i hope it is not cooked by my noona, She is really worst at-"

Jungkook was cutoff by his guffawing, "I know" Hoseok covered his mouth, "Sorry to say but she has worst culinary skills" they both shared a moment of laughter.

But then Jungkook realise something, he hesitated at first but then he thought that he should be asking him,"Hyung, can i ask you something?"

"Yes go on."

"You married her despite of knowing that she sucks at cooking."

Hoseok for a moment looked down towards his hands and then at Jungkook,"I was not looking for a maid or any cook who can cook food and clean my house for me. I was looking for someone who can complete me! I know she sucks at cooking and many time she gets on my nerves but then i still love her at her best and at her worst. It's okay if she can't cook, i am always here for her. We have divided the work, she looks after other things in the house while i work in the kitchen but let me tell you she is trying her best to be a good wife. She did tried making a sunny side up day before yesterday and to be frank it was a complete mess but still for me it was the best thing ever because it was made by her."

Jungkook was not able to avert his eyes off the elder, he saw how exquisitely he spoke about Rhea, the way his eyes twinkles and the way he handles her.

"Noona is lucky." he smiled.

"So is my Eun Ae." the sudden words left Jungkook off guard, he smiled with a guilt. He never felt this way, as if he is being choked.

"Fine, so i think i will leave now" Hoseok glimpsed at his wrist watch and got up.

Jungkook waved good bye. He never thought the feeling of guilt can be so intense that i might haunt him to death.

Jungkook ate his food alone again. The silence and loneliness consumed him as he walked towards his bed.

He spread his arm towards her side, the side where she use to sleep with him on his bed.

He imagined her sleeping next to him, breathing next to him, crawling into his chest after wrapping her arm around him.

Then there heart beats tuning with each others.

Jungkook noticed that these months with her was the most beautiful and unique, it was like a roller coaster of feelings, she sets him ablaze, ignites his soul and make him realise that he too can be a good person.

When he is with her, he feels as if he found the solution of the equation he was struggling for.

He dug his face inside the valleys of the pillow.

"Aishh... go away.. Eun Ae go away... no thoughts about you." he gripped the pillow harshly, no matter how much he tries to ignore but still memories and the thoughts about her drills his mind. He tried sleeping but it didn't help. Huffing and tired he walked out of his room and made his way towards her room.

Jungkook saw how beautifully it was arranged as if everything was untouched. His legs made its way inside the room and he climbed on the bed.

The moment he inhaled the scent he knew he will be having a good sleep today. He will not deny but it was soothing to his soul, the scent and the aura of the room lighted him inside out.

He hug a pillow and slept soon after that.

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He groaned as the door bell rang, "Yeah go away" he muttered with hoarse voice, he knew it was not her because she knows the password.

The doorbell rang again and he chucked the pillows on the floor. He sat up on the bed, with drowsy eyes he was staring around.

"This room?" he scratched his head lazily and got off the bed.

With heavy lidded eyes he walked towards the door.

Jungkook's P.O.V.

I wanted to sleep but then this person won't stop. I saw the person standing from the screen, "Aish what is she doing here at this hour?" i rubbed my eyes and opened the door and saw her standing all dolled up, wearing the most revealing clothes she can unlike Eun Ae who would prefer simple and comfortable​ style of dressing. She scanned me and then smiled.

"Good morning Jungkook" she cooed.

Aish how irritating, "Good morning Erin. What happened why you are here?" i asked her as it was still 9AM in the morning.

"Actually i am here with this." she showed me some files, "We need these papers signed by you."

"Okay come" i said and stepped backward to give her space to enter. I sat next to her and offered her a glass of water to drink. I was too bored to change my clothes so i let the sweat pants and my tank top be as it is.

I was signing the paper but then i could feel Erin gazing at me. I momentarily shifted my eyes towards her but then she would just smile at me. I think she had any other intentions in her mind just by the way she was looking at me.

"Here you go." i nervously finished it off so that she can move.

"Thanks Jungkook" she smiled, maliciously.

I cleared my throat, "Okay then i need to take a shower. See you in the office" saying i was about to get up but then she grabbed my hand and pulled me back.

"Yah Erin... what are-" she placed her index finger on my lips.

"Jungkook do you think i have came here all dressed up just to take your signs on this shitty papers?" she quickly straddled me, leaving my mouth agape.

"I miss you Jungkook.. i do.." she was about to press her lips on mine but then i stopped her, "Why? let me kiss you..! i miss the morning time with you when we use to sleep in your bed. You remember?" she cocked her head.

"I don't want to remember that, get off me...!!" i snarled at her but she didn't budge instead she shifted close to my 'area'.

"I can make you feel good, they say morning sex is the best." her hand trailed dangerously close to my area and i gasped, "I can suck you so well Jungkook"

That's it! i pushed her aside, i can't handle this anymore. I thought she might be angry or might get aggressive but instead i heard her laughing.

"Yah are you out of your mind?" i scooted away from her. She got up and after adjusting her dress she stood infront of me.

"So you are really a married man now? a typical husband." she guffawed.

"What are you talking Erin i-"

"Shut up Jungkook, have you seen you don't even find me attractive and sexually arousing. I know Mr. Jeon and Eun Ae aren't in the country right now and you had all night with you and you could have did many things but instead you stayed at home"

"So what's a big deal in that?"

"Big deal?" she raised her eyebrows gracefully, "That's the point Jungkook! the man who cannot even control his desire have pushed me off. I bet you aren't the same Jungkook i use to know few months ago, you have changed...!" she stressed the last sentence.

"Yah i have not!! and stop provoking me."

"I am not interested in provoking you Jungkook. I have seen you inside out but these days i see you more involved with yourself. You seem to spent more time with her, admiring her. Have you ever looked at any woman in these months? have you seen anyone? have you even tried thinking of anyone apart from Eun Ae? i already know the answer Jungkook. I don't know why you married her so suddenly, i mean everyone in the company was shocked due to the news. They thought you must have changed but only i was knowing that there was something going on between you two. Look, i am not interested to know what is going on but i can say that now you love her, you do" i heard her saying and even i knew half of the things which she said was correct.

"As i said earlier i like her as a-"

"Oh shut up Jungkook, whom are you fooling? you can fool yourself but your body language and your eyes say otherwise. If you like her then you would have been eager to get her laid but you love her Jungkook and that's why you are afraid to touch her, you always think about cherishing her and making her comfortable. I did hated her initially because she snatched away you from me, but day by day i realise that she isn't that bad either. Her dreams and intentions are too pure to be ignored and somewhere i have started thinking about dumping my short time desires to get into long time relationship." she completed and this was the most genuine thing i have heard from Erin.

My chest became heavy as i started analysing the things, "But what if i love here?" with hesitation i asked and saw a smug appearing on her face.

"What if? do you still have doubts even after so much explanation?"

"Okay i admit that i-" i sucked my lower lip inside and then gulped, the words are too hard to be pronounced. "i love her" i almost whispered talked and she smiled.

"You do Jungkook, you always did..! from the time you started thinking about her mind, from the time you started thinking about what she will think, from the time when you showed your naked soul to her....you loved her."

She was right, i do care about her, i did got jealous when she would look at my hyung, i did felt myself falling apart when i saw her with Jin hyung. I was afraid to tell her that we are officially done because i thought she might walk away.

I admit that i do love her.

"You are right Erin. Thanks for telling me." i grinned from ear to ear.

She smirked,"I didn't told you anything Jungkook i just made you realise and i am happy for you, so now just tell her."

"I can't Erin, i can't." i let out.

"Why Jungkook just why?" her face dropped and her forehead tensed up.

"I know she is the one for me but i am not the one for her and i can't be the one. Never ever."

"Jungkook now you are being stupid after realising. Just tell her what is stopping you?"

"My insecurities, my past, my old self" i grimaced, my heart pounded mercilessly as a thought of letting her go came in my mind.

"Insecurities?"

I nodded, "Though i might look like i have changed and all but i am still afraid to love her and to cherish her. I am afraid that i won't be able to be the one for her. What if i am not able to keep myself for her? what if i went to other woman? what if i cheated on her with someone? Erin i know she is fragile, she looks strong but internally she is just like a small child. If in future i changed and my old self returned then what? i know she will be scattered into pieces and i might end up giving her a scare which will take years to heal and i don't want that."

"But Jungkook people change and you don't have to think about the things which might happen in future. Stop thinking that you might do this, you might do that because it doesn't make any sense!" Erin tried her best to explain but i can't be selfish just because i love her, "Jungkook but what if some day she came and confessed that she loves you? what will you do then?"

I looked at her blankly and got zoned out. I don't know how to answer her and i don't even know what to say.

"I will.." my lower lips quivered, "Let her go..!" i felt a pang in my heart. Today i might feel sad and broken but that will be nothing compared to her pain in future if we got together.

"Let her go? where? to whom? to some other man?"

I just nodded, my head down as i cannot look at her. I heard her sighing.

"You are pathetic Jungkook!! seriously nobody can be as stupid as you. You will regret it Jungkook, you will...!"

I was not able to answer her, maybe she was right, maybe she was wrong.

"Some regrets are acceptable as long as your loved ones aren't hurt." i told her, i hope my answer will satisfy her.

"Whatever Jungkook. If i were you, i would have never let her go but it's okay i cannot force you. It's your life after all"

She sighed and took the files she had brought with her, "I will take a leave now and yes, i am asking for transfer to our Incheon office for some person reasons."

"Incheon office? but you are my secretary Erin."

"Mr. Jeon might appoint a new one for you because he said he needs an experience secretary for Mr. Kang in our Incheon office and he had asked me for that. I think it's a high time to start a new life and i will do that, because it is better to make a move now instead of regretting because for me regrets aren't acceptable. Thanks for giving me this opportunity to serve you and sorry for everything i did. Bye" she bowed and started walking.

Erin completely left me off guard. These women will surely be death of me one day! only god knows why they are created this way. I have been with many but still i am clueless.

End of P.O.V.

"Bye appa thanks a lot. Meet you in the office." she thanked Mr. Jeon after getting down from the car.

"No need Eun Ae you can take rest. I know you must be tired."

"No appa it's-"