《If only I knew you (UNEDITED)》Chapter 72: Lowering her walls
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"I can't believe this...I wasn't even there for my nephew's birth" I whined upset that I couldn't be with my best friend and my brother if only these traitors never returned in my life. "I know and I'm mad at you" Aditi pouted making me laugh. "By the way, he looks so cute...he looks just like his dad but has your eyes Aditi," I said. Sagar hugged her from the side while the two sat on their bed with their bundle of joy in their arms.
Aditi finally gave birth to a healthy baby boy and I couldn't even describe what I was feeling. I was so happy for them but sad that I couldn't be there with them. "Ha, told you...he looks like me" Sagar smirked teasing Aditi while she rolled her eyes. The two were just so perfect for each other. "Eyshana...when are you coming back? it seems so long...it feels weird being here without you" Aditi asked as she gave me a sad look. I looked at Sagar who gave me a worried look waiting for my answer. Sighing, I smiled and responded. "Soon"
"like really soon?" she asked like a child. "Like really really soon" I smiled making her squeal. "Calm down wifey, our son will wake up" Sagar bumped his head with Aditi's. I shook my head watching their cute banter. "How's my little Chandni doing?" I missed her so much, my baby...I couldn't wait to hold her in my arms again. "She has been so naughty recently, especially after you left and she misses you so much, always asking when you will return" Aditi laughed while I smiled "and she was so excited for her baby brother coming into this world and just before sleeping, she wouldn't let go of his finger" Sagar smiled. Adorable kids. "What have you named him?" I asked. Sagar and Aditi glanced at each other before looking back at the screen. "We haven't given him a name yet," Aditi said. "We wanted you to name him" Sagar added. I was shocked, they wanted me to give their son a name?. " Me? you don't have to-" "No Eyshu...we want our son's name to be chosen by his loving aunty and I won't take in any excuses" Sagar scolded me making me emotional. What would life be like if I didn't have these two with me? "Okay Okay fine" I raised my hands up in surrender lightly laughing. "Eyshana...how is everything going?" Sagar suddenly asked becoming serious. I stayed silent for a few seconds before narrating everything to them.
"WHA-" "Shhh" me and Aditi shushed him. "I can't believe this man" he clenched his jaw running his hand threw his hair. "Eyshana listen, you're just wasting your time there, just do your thing and come back...I'm not going to let you stay there anymore...or else I will come there myself and bring you back" his voice turned cold but I could still hear the care and concern in his voice.
"Stop it" Aditi slapped his arm. "What?" Sagar whined. "Stop scolding her like that," she told him off. "She is my sister, I'm looking out for her" he faked a pout making me chuckle. "You are right...I have already booked my tickets...I'll be there soon and I can't wait to hold my nephew" I squealed.
"Good or else I will come the- ow what was that for?" Sagar rubbed his sore arm where Aditi just pinched him. "Stop bullying my best friend, she said she has booked her tickets" Aditi shook her head.
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Can't believe these two are now parents, right now they are acting like kids.
We talked for another 15 minutes before I ended the call. I sighed smiling to myself, finally, I will be able to go back to my family. Soon after I ended the call my phone started to ring again. I smiled when I saw the ID holder. "How may I help you, officer?" I bit my lip trying to stop myself from laughing. "you may help me by coming downstairs and bless me with those beautiful eyes of yours" he said. My cheeks suddenly felt heated as I took in his words. "Um...yeah I'm coming down" I faked a cough, replying in a quiet tone before ending the call.
What was that?
Was he trying to flirt?
Shaking my head, I stood up from my bed and made my way downstairs. There he was, leaning against his car while texting something on his phone. As soon as he felt my presence, he looked up tucking his phone back into his pocket before giving me a smile, walking towards me. "Hi," he waved. "Hi" I waved back. "Um...so-" "where will-" we both spoke at the same time.
Officer Malin scratched the back of his neck while I looked away feeling awkward. "So I was saying-" "we could-" our voice clashed with each other again. We just stood there silent, our eyes not refusing to move until we both burst out laughing. "I'm sorry-" "I'm sorry-" we burst out laughing again.
I couldn't remember when I last laughed like this, my cheeks were already hurting as well as my stomach. "Ladies first" he chuckled. "Um...would you...like to come in?" I asked nervously. "Only if you want" he stared at me.
"Yeah...sure...come on up," I said. We both made our way to my room in silence. I could feel his eyes glancing at me from time to time making me gulp. Finally reaching my room, I opened my door allowing him to enter first. "Nice room you have" "well...it's not really mine" I ran my hand through my hair, chuckling before closing the door behind us. "Come...we can sit on the balcony, by the way...tea...coffee...what would you like?" I asked with politeness. "You" he whispered making me slightly shocked. "Excuse me?" I raised my eyebrow. His eyes widened before clearing his throat "Um...nothing...I want nothing" he flashed a wide smile.
I squinted my eyes staring at his nervous face before nodding and opening the doors to my balcony. Scraping the chair, he sat down facing the beautiful view in front of us while I sat next to him.
"Beautiful night right?" he asked softly. "Yes," I responded. "So how have you been?" he turned his head towards me. " fine how about you?"
"Same, just been busy with duties, that's all" he responded. The silence around us was very comfortable as the cool breeze made the atmosphere even more relaxing. "So at the hospital-" "straight to the point huh?" I cut him off with a teasing smile. His eyes again widened like he had done something wrong but before he could say something, I shook my head and laughed. "I was teasing you" "Oh..." he rubbed his nape. I mentally shook my head, how does this big hunky handsome police officer become so shy in front of me.
I am not even intimidating, I mentally face palmed myself.
"I went to donate blood to Sunny" my tone turned cold as I started to explain my presence at the hospital. "What? but why?" he asked me in disbelief. "He was on the edge of nearly dying and-" "Seriously Miss Roy, after everything you-" "Just hear me out Officer" I cut him off with a firm tone. His jaw was clenching and unclenching before he sighed, nodding to me to carry on. "Thank you, so as I was saying I donated my blood to him to save his life, not because I felt bad but because-" I paused turning my head towards him "I can't let him die so easily after ruining my sister's life," I said with pain.
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His expressions softened. I turned away once feeling the wetness in my eyes, I'm not going to cry...I am not going to cry. "It's okay to express your emotions Eyshana...sometimes you need to let them out, only then you will be at peace" he patted my back comforting me. He was right but I didn't want to show my emotions, I once did that and look where it took me. "Why...why are you so kind to me?" I gave him a sad look. He frowned in confusion "what do you mean? why would you say that?"
"I am dirty and-" "stop right there!" he cut me off in a very serious and cold tone making me gulp. "Don't you ever say that about yourself....never....ever call yourself dirty because you are the purest girl I have ever known. There are very few lawyers like you who fight so hard for those who are innocent while there are thousands of lawyers out there who instead of helping the innocent get blinded by money and support the one who did wrong. You, Eyshana Roy, are something else. If someone is dirty, then it's those monsters who did that to you and your sister and believe me Eyshana, I will not let them go...it is my job to deal with criminals like that and I will make sure they suffer for life" Seriousness was shown on his face, his tone was firm and kind of scary but I could hear the care and worry in his voice that touched my heart.
I couldn't stop my trembling lips as I continued to stare at him. His eyes softened as he caressed my cold cheek. His big palm instantly added warmth to my skin and just then I finally dropped all my walls and expressed my emotions. I broke down in tears, crying for Riya, for my unborn niece or nephew, for what happened to me....for my parents who left us on our own... I finally let it all out.
I felt Officer Malin pulling me into his hard chest as he whispered some sweet nothings into my ear while caressing my hair. I clutched onto his shirt bawling my eyes out. "It's okay...let it out" I felt him kiss my head.
I rubbed her back comforting her as she poured out her locked emotions. I kept placing pecks on her head while her fist tightened onto my shirt as she cried. I didn't mind my shirt getting wet by her tears, she needed to let her feelings out...she needed to be herself for once. I caressed her long silky hair as I glared at the wall in front of me. My teeth gritted, just the thought of those fuckers walking this world in freedom for so many years boiled my blood. My mind went back to when I got a call from Eyshana, the pain I saw on her face...the dejection in her voice, it felt like a shooting dagger piercing my heart. It was fucking hurtful just seeing her in that state but the way she covered it all up trying to act strong hurt me even more.
I will never be able to understand how she felt when those horrible things happened to her but the respect, the reverence I had for this beautiful woman was indescribable. I have never seen or met a strong woman like her before, she was a fucking goddess, a role model to all women out there.
"Is everything okay Eyshana? you look...pale" I gave her a worrisome look. She looked so despondent. Her doleful eyes were looking down at her hand before meeting mine. We were at my apartment sitting in the living room with a small sitting distance on the sofa between me and Eyshana. "I'm going to tell you something...something that happened in my life" she looked right into my eyes talking with a very serious tone.
This made me worried, it gave me a bad feeling, a feeling of trepidation. "I normally don't trust anyone this quickly but I trust that you are not like other people, therefore I am willing to share something that happened in my life...something big...something that...that nearly killed me and I am hoping after you heard my side of the story you will be willing to help me for what I will ask" she spoke.
My eyebrows creased as I took in her words. I was curious, curious to know her story but I know it wouldn't be a story of flowers and daisy's from hearing the tone of her voice. "You can tell me anything Eyshana, I will always keep it between you and me, you can trust me" she looked down before running her fingers through her hair and releasing a loud sigh. I sat there in silence as she opened her mouth narrating the events that took in her place. My eyes widened with shock as she narrated the most painful part of the story causing my blood to boil in rage. I didn't know why I was feeling so much anger, my fists kept clenching and unclenching as I kept patient listening to her words.
What made me worried more was her tone and her expressions. She was blank and so was her tone. Her hands were balled into fists as she looked away talking but not an ounce of sadness was shown on her face. She was like a robot, sitting in front me with coldness oozing out of her.
"My sister lost her life...she left me killing herself and her unborn baby, she became a murderer of herself and her baby, leaving me alone after knowing what happened to me" she uttered. My heart clenched for her, not only did she lose herself but her only family, her younger sister. They all ganged up on these two girls and broke them beyond repair and that just angered me. How could they be so heartless to the pointing of disgracing a woman's innocence, fucking disgusting.
"I was killed even though my heart was still beating and sometimes I just want to end everything and believe me when I say I tried every fucking thing to end my life to the point of begging to god to just take me away from this world but I always failed and so did my prayers" she glared at the ground.
I didn't know how to explain what I was feeling right now. Shocked wasn't the right word, I was dismayed, dumfounded, upset. The woman in front of me who acted so strong was hurting from the inside and yet know one knew except for those who were close to her heart. She was like ice, a queen of hiding her inner feelings, her expressions and never did I imagine that this same woman would ever try to end her life.
My heart reached out for her, I wanted to just pull her into my arms and tell her 'everything will be okay soon'. I wanted to make her smile, I wanted to erase those horrifying memories and nightmares from her mind but I was scared....scared of her rejection, scared to see hatred for myself in her eyes.
After finishing, we both stayed soundless not uttering a word. My eyes were just frozen on her expressionless face. Wetness filled my eyes as a teardrop rolled down my cheek. I was stunned, shocked, horrified, and outraged. She had gone through so much yet look at her, she was standing on her own feet, strong, fierce and untamed. She worked her way up to becoming one of the best lawyers in the country all by herself. My emotions were going wild, I had so much respect for the woman sitting in front of me, it was unimaginable.
"I know what you must be thinking, that she is a rape victim, she is dirty and used and-" Shh," I placed my finger on her lips, stopping her from talking crap about herself. The warm breath from her lips brushed my skin sending electrical jolts down my spine. "do you really want to know what I am thinking right now?" I asked her. She slowly looked up showing the tiniest bit of emotion. "The first thing I thought was how strong of a woman you are" I whispered. Her eyes slowly widen, like she wasn't expecting to hear what I said. "I may not know you personally Eyshana but one thing I can say is, I am so proud of you, of who you have become, for what you have done for so many other girls...you are not a victim Eyshana, you're a damn fighter and inspiration to all women out there" I moved closer to her."Many girls end up killing themselves but you...you stood up on your feet, you fought...you worked so hard working your way up to success, many girls don't have the courage and fight to do that Eyshana but you did, so no...." I shook my head "that's not what I thought about you, that you're a dirty or used girl, no as those thoughts are reserved for those fuckers who did that to you" I gritted my teeth. She looked at me stunned before giving me a sad smile. What happened next made my heart freeze for a moment as tingles of joy burst throughout my body. Her arms quickly wrapped around me giving me a tight hug making me gulp. "Thank you" her lips brushed against my ear. My heartbeat was going wild, it felt like it was going to jump out of my chest any time soon. I was about to hug her until she pulled back.
"I was scared about what you would think of me but-" she lightly laughed. Her laughter was so angelic...so attractive...like music to my ears. "Thank you" she brushed her hair back feeling relieved. "What?" she asked confused as she noticed how I kept staring at her. "Nothing" I smiled, shaking my head.
"I need you to help me get justice for my sister" "and yourself" I added. She slowly nodded and looked away. "I will help you...I won't let those fuckers have any more freedom anymore...10 years was enough for them...not it's time for some real punishment" I gritted my teeth.
'Live your last few days in peace Ezhil because soon that will all end'...I thought to myself as I tightened my arms around the girl who I have already fallen for.
No more pain for you Eyshana, now you will be free from this pain...I will make sure of it
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