I felt like my breath was stolen. Just one look at her and she blew my mind away. I dropped whatever was in my hand, my coat, and ran to her embracing her tightly in my arms. I felt her body tense up but I ignored it, nuzzling my face into her neck, loving the warmth coming out from her body. "Oh my god....oh my god...you are here....you are finally here....I finally found you" I gasped out in happiness, tears rolling down my eyes as I hugged her tightly, caressing her hair but what happened next shocked me.

I was harshly pushed back, nearly losing my balance while my face was snapped to the side, my cheek burning with pain while I stood there shocked. "How dare you Mr Mital, don't you have any manners?....disgusting" she spat the last word making me flinch. I looked at her with pain and tears. Her face was cold while she shot daggers at me with her sharp and beautiful big eyes.

"Don't ever touch me again. You are in my work place have some respect, now please sit down so I can get this over and done with" she said in a firm tone. I watched her in shock as she sat down giving us all a cold look. She was so different and confident. Her hair was shorter from 10 years ago, she looked more mature and more beautiful from 10 years ago. Her skin was smooth and milky, her lips stained with redness, while her eyes were cold and empty. the warmth and love from her eyes had vanished. She has grown into a strong woman and I was so proud of her. My Eyshana was a top female lawyer and I'm so happy for her.

"Well?" she raised her eyebrow at us motioning us to sit down opposite to her. Vicky and Sona sat while I just stood there gazing at her. Is it possible to fall in love all over again with the same person?, because I am definitely falling for her all over again. I felt a sting when she ignored me and faced Vicky and Sona with coldness. I quickly sat down next to them not taking my eyes off her.

I can't believe she is actually here, sitting right in front of me. My heart beat not decreasing at all as it pounded even faster against my chest. "My name is Eyshana Roy as you already know and I will be managing your case. So tell me Miss Butt what exactly happened that night?" she asked in a firm tone while taking out a note pad and a pen, going straight to the point. I glanced at Sona who was shaking a little, tears running down her cheeks while Vicky comforted her.

"what happened is-"

"Is your name Sona Butt Mr Mandal" Eyshana cut him off. He looked at her in shock and cleared his throat. "No" he answered feeling embarrassed. I was shocked at the way she spoke to him but again why wouldn't she speak like that, after all we ruined her.

"When I ask you a question answer me then. Now Miss Butt, please tell me in detail what happened that night, I need to know every single thing to help you win this case" she said. Sona snapped her head up at Eyshana in shock. "You...you will help me?" she asked in surprise. Eyshana didn't respond but only gave her a blank look.

Sona looked down and cried softly. "I....I c-can't" she cried, her hands over her face. Vicky hugged her and kissed her on the head. "Give me your hand" Eyshana demanded. Sona looked at her with confusion but obeyed. She slowly took out her hand while Eyshana held it. She patted the back of her palm in a calming manner but still had that cold look on her face.

"I will help you....I am here, tell me what happened" she spoke in a calm and soft manner making me shocked. Tears welled up in my eyes as I watched her listen to Sona's story. She listened carefully with a lot of attention, writing notes in her book while caressing her hand with her thumb. I couldn't take my eyes of her, she was so kind hearted. She agreed to fight for this case even after what we did. Gosh, why didn't I see this before. Preeti was right, I was gifted an angel yet I threw her away because of false lies and my stupidity.

I fisted my palms and bit my lip not wanting to break down. I vow...I vow to fix everything. Now that I have found her, I am not going to let her go no matter what happens. I need her in my life, I need her so much. I love her so much that I have no purpose in life if she is not here.

"Okay....I will write a report and contact you as soon as possible. I will help you catch those men and get them punished....that's a promise from myself" she said with determination now taking her hand off from Sona's.

We all stood up when Eyshana stood up. "I will book your appointment for Thursday at 2pm" she spoke. "E-eyshana....I...I wanted to say I'm s-so sorry for-". Sona stopped speaking when Eyshana stopped her with her hand. "I don't mix my private life with my professional job. Whatever you want to say, say it after my working times. Have a good day Miss Butt and Mr Mandal, will see you soon" she said and left the cabin.

I heard Sona break down into tears, while Vicky hugged her. Tears ran down his eyes while his face was full of shock. "I can't believe that's her....she has changed so much, she didn't even acknowledge us properly" Vicky said in pain.

I glanced at the door that she just left from and ran after her ignoring Sona and Vicky's calls. I ran like a mad man searching for her. I suddenly stopped when I saw her entering the lift. I ran and stuck my hand in between the doors preventing them to shut. Eyshana jumped seeing me in front of her. "Eyshana" I whispered as I moved closer to her. She moved back until her back hit the wall, her eyes filled with fear. "E-eyshana" my voice trembled as I cupped her cheeks in a loving way, my hands shaking while tears steamed out of my eyes. I hated seeing fear in her eyes, I don't want her to be scared of me. I will never hurt her...never again.

Her body tensed up while she shut her eyes tightly, her body trembling as she turned her face away from me. "E-eyshana...I...I looked f-for you everywhere....everywhere....I...I'm so sorry...I'm so sorry" I cried while laying my forehead onto her's.

"I'm so sorry...so sorry my love...I hurt you so much...I caused so much pain in your life...I'm s-so sorry" I cried. She then started to shake furiously making me step back in shock. She clutched her chest while sliding down to the ground. "Eyshana....EYSHANA" I hugged her shaking body. "Eyshana...what happened?....baby...please look at me" I cried while cupping her cheeks but she then held her throat.

She was struggling to breath. I started to panic not knowing what to do. "Fuck" I cursed, sitting on the floor and putting her in my lap, rocking her side to side as I whispered sweet nothings in her ear. "P-please...p-please don't touch me....p-please" she cried in my chest. I cried with her, I cried for her condition. What have I done to this girl?....I have broken her beyond repair.

The lift then made a sound, the doors now opening. I was about to pick her up bridal style but she pushed my hands away and ran out of the lift. "EYSHANA" I yelled running after her but she continued running. "EYSHANA PLEASE LISTEN TO ME....PLEASE" I begged as I ran.

I caught her arm, turning her around only for her to push me away. "Don't touch me....just don't touch me with those hands" she looked at my hands with disgust, her face angry while tears rolled down her soft, rosy cheeks.

She turned around and sat in her car driving away while I fell onto my knees crying. "I'm sorry Eyshana....I'm so sorry" my body shook as I cried, ignoring the looks that people gave me. "I'm not going to let you go Eyshana....I can't let you go" I whispered.

***

I sat on the roof-top gazing at the city below me, blowing out the smoke out of my mouth that I inhaled. "When will you stop doing that?" a voice spoke. I looked behind to see Sagar there, leaning against the wall while he pointed at the cigarette in between my two fingers.

I looked away from him and continued staring at the busy roads below me. "It calms me down" I spoke in a calm tone. He then sat next to me, I could feel his eyes on the side of my face but I didn't look at him. "It's bad for your health....it can kill you" he said with concern. "I'll be happy if it did" I chuckled bitterly. "Don't say that Eyshu...please don't say that. You are ruining yourself" he snatched the cigarette from my fingers and threw it on the ground, crushing it with his shoe. I rolled my eyes and sighed.

We sat there in silence just staring into space. "How was it?...the meeting?" he asked breaking the silence. "Difficult but I controlled it" I answered with a quiet tone. "You shouldn't have taken them Eyshu, they don't deserve it" he said in anger. I smiled and turned my face towards him. "I know....I know they don't deserve it but rape is something that no person deserves either. I'm only helping them as I know what it feels like to be raped, to be abused. It's part of my job to help those who have gone through that, other than that I don't give a shit what has happened in their lives" I gritted my teeth.

"But still....you got a panic attack because of them" he hissed in anger. I sighed and looked away. "When I saw her name on the form, I...I don't know what happened, it just triggered those memories. I....I f-felt h-hands all over my body, I...I was losing my breath" my voice shook. I felt his hand on mine, comforting me in a brotherly way.

"Don't take their case Eyshu....let someone handle it...please" he pleaded with his eyes. I looked at him and sighed. "I can't....when I saw her, I felt like I saw myself in her. She looked so broken, so weak. She was crying Sagar just like I was crying. I do this job to help people like that. Once my job is over, I go my way and they go their way" I looked away from him, leaning my head back on my chair.

"Just call me if anything happens, I don't trust those fuckers" he said in a tone full of hatred. I just stayed silent and closed my eyes. "W-when...when are you going to meet her Eyshu?...it's been 10 years" he suddenly spoke.

"Meet who?" I asked pretending to be oblivious. "You know who I am talking about" I felt him move. "Why don't you go Eyshu?...visit her grave, you will feel much better" he spoke in a soft voice. I shook my head, trying to control my tears. "Why?" he asked with a sad tone. "Because I am angry at her, I'm upset and disappointed with her. She was selfish...selfish to leave me alone with all the problems. I would have helped her, we could have both raised the baby together. I was going to be there with her. If any one spoke against her or the baby I would teach them a lesson but she left...she left me Sagar. She went to mum and dad and for that I won't forgive her" I took in a deep breath, a tear rolling down my cheek.

Sagar just sat there looking down with pain, just listening to my words. "You know Sagar, I blame them, I blame all of them for what happened to her, for what happened to me but more than them I blame myself" I looked into his eyes with wetness leaking out from my waterline.

"If only....if only I didn't befriend them, if only I stayed away from them, if only Sunny and Riya didn't become close, if only I didn't come into the city, she would have been with me right now, becoming something she desired to be. It was all my fucking fault" I clenched my fists in anger.

I blame myself for everything. I could have saved her, if only I controlled my damn feeling for that man, if only....if only I knew him better. "No Eyshu, it's not your fault. Don't you dare blame yourself, if you want to blame someone, blame those fuckers" he gritted out. "The only good thing that I got from them is you" I smiled and held his hand while looking at the busy cars. "I feel the same way too Eyshu, god finally gave me a sister" he wrapped his arm around my shoulders, kissing my head. I closed my eyes and laid my head on his shoulder.

'When will this pain ever end?'