《If only I knew you (UNEDITED)》Chapter 40: Vanished
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I sat there with Eyshana's hand in mine, staring at her with pain and shock. Riya...Riya was dead and this was all my fault. I felt so much regret and guilt knowing that I could have saved her yet because of me that innocent girl has left this world, the only family of my Eyshana has left this world, leaving her alone because of me. I sobbed as I laid my head on her hand crying my heart out. She won't be alone anymore...I will be there with her in every path she takes, I will be her family.
"I should have listened to you that day....I should have helped you instead of throwing you out. I'm so sorry Eyshana....I..I'm so sorry" I cried, my hands shaking as my tears dropped onto her hand. I was alone in the room with Sagar while the others were with Sunny who had passed out. My heart churned in pain for Sunny, he has lost the one he loves including his unborn baby because of me, because of my sins. This was all my fault....all my fault.
"You need to leave now, visiting time is ending soon" Sagar got off from the wall he was leaning on, his hand in his pockets as he stared down at me with a blank expression. My heart beat pounded heavily against my chest. I furiously shook my head feeling infuriated, I didn't want to leave her, no...I'm not going to leave her. I have found her after 3 months, I'm not taking the risk of losing her again.
He sighed and grabbed my arm trying to pull me away from her but I pushed him and clung onto Eyshana's body. "P-please Sagar...p-please don't do this t-to me, let me stay...p-please" I begged him with tears.
"I didn't do anything, you did this to yourself now leave" he said in a cold tone and started to pull me away. "GET OFF ME SAGAR...I'M NOT LEAVING HER" I yelled, my breathing now heavy and fast.
He let go off me and gave me an empty stare. "Very well" he muttered and walked out of the room. I just sat there hugging Eyshana as I looked at the door in shock. I couldn't believe he just left like that, maybe....maybe he will forgive me. I caressed Eyshana's face, pecking her all of her face. All of a sudden the doors slammed opened with 4 huge men standing at the door. They looked like security men, glaring at me with anger.
They grabbed me making me shocked and pulled me away from Eyshana. "Let go of me... what are you doing?....LET GO OF ME YOU PEICE OF SHITS......SHE NEEDS ME.....JUST GET LOST.....LEAVE ME!" I yelled as they dragged me outside. I glared at Sagar who watched me from a far before he walked back into the room.
"LET GO OF ME...PLEASE...I NEED TO BE WITH HER.....I NEED HER....PLEASE....PLEASE....EYSHANA....EYSHANA!!!!" I yelled and yelled but these men just dragged me out harshly, throwing me out of the hospital. I fell to the ground and quickly stood up nearly losing my balance as I tried to fight my way inside the hospital but I only got punched on the face. "If you do not leave then we will call the police" one of the men said.
I just sat there on the floor, crying my eyes out, crying for my Eyshana, crying for Riya....for the sins I have committed. If I get arrested then I won't be able to see Eyshana again, so with this thought I went back home, even though I wanted to fight my way back inside.
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"How is she?" Preeti asked once I entered the house. "Alive" I muttered as I took of my jacket and threw it on the sofa. I sat on the sofa with my face hidden in my hands, tears rolling down my cheeks. I felt incomplete without her, why...just why didn't I believe her?...I ruined my happiness with my own hands, I ruined our happiness with my own hands.
"P-preeti" I called out, slowly raising my head up to see her. She was just sat on the sofa opposite to me with a blank expression. "W-what....w-what can I do to m-make her stay?" my voice trembled when I asked her that question. Preeti sighed, "Nothing.....there is nothing you can do now Ezhil. You ruined her life....you ruined everything. I feel so disgusted knowing that you are my brother, knowing what had happened to me that night, you...." she turned away in disgust, her words stinging my heart.
I weakly got up from my seat and sat on the floor next to her feet. "I-I'm sorry" I cried as I held her leg. "You shouldn't be saying sorry to me Ezhil, it's her you should be saying sorry to you. You had a gift right in front of you, a blessing, a gem and you threw that away. Shame on you Ezhil, I never expected something like this from you. Mum and Dad would be so disappointed" she hissed making me look down in shame, tears running down my cheeks non-stop.
"Now please leave me alone" she said in a cold tone. "P-preeti-", "NOW" she raised her voice. I wiped my tears and stood up, walking towards my room but I stopped when my eyes froze on a room, a room that has been locked for years, a room that has never been opened. I walked inside my room and opened my draw taking out a key. I walked out of my room and stopped in front of my parents room. I opened the lock and walked inside, closing the door behind me as I slid down, leaning my head on the door.
"I'm so sorry mum and dad....you must be hating me from up there" I whispered as I wiped a tear of my cheek. I then stood up and opened my parents closet. I smiled when I saw their clothes hanging there. I touched them wanting to feel their presence. "I miss you mum and dad" I said in a quiet tone. My eyes then froze on a small wooden box making me frown in confusion. I picked the box up and placed it on the bed.
It was a bit dusty so I blew on it causing me to cough as I waved my hand through the air, trying to prevent the dust to go into my nose and mouth. I then opened the box and saw many photos of my parents when they were young, photos of me and Preeti when we were kids. I smiled as I looked through the pictures. I was so happy then, life was so peaceful until my parents left me.
While looking through the photos I came across a letter. Feeling curious I opened the letter and read it.
'Dear Preeti and Ezhil
by the time you read this letter I would be dead. My children I have committed a huge sin, a huge mistake. Your father and me have hidden many things from you and I chose to hide these secrets from you as I didn't want you both to grow hating your father. I know how much you both love your father and how much he loves you both, so that's why after his death I chose to stay silent but the guilt is eating me up. I won't get peace until the truth comes out, so I decided to write this, because I wouldn't be able to face my children, seeing the hatred for their parents on their face.
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My children, you both know how your father died by a heart attack and you also know what caused that heart attack. I'm sorry for lying to you my babies....the truth was...your father stole money and betrayed Mr and Mrs Roy while being their partner in business. Mr and Mrs Roy were probably one of the nicest people we have ever known, they helped us through all our hard times but your father decided to betray them.
Your father became jealous seeing the success of the Roys, people were praising Mr Roy and not your father, so your father did something which caused us so much troubles. He stole money, ruined their business and ran away making them bankrupt. I tried telling your father that this was wrong and he should surrender but he yelled at me and told me to not intervene in his business.
But looks like karma had hit us hard. I don't know what happened to your father but slowly he started to lose all that money. He tried to be like Mr Roy but he wasn't able to be like him. We became so poor my children. Your father lost his job, he was fired and that was his breaking point. He had a heart attack and left us to fend for ourselves.
Please don't hate your father my children, he did this because he loved us....he wanted us to have a better life. I hope you can forgive me and your father. We love you so much and wish you all the best for the future.
Please stay strong my kids, we will always be watching you from above.
I stared at the letter in utter shock, tears running down my face not wanting to stop. My eyes re-reading the words on the letter repeatedly. My dad....my dad was the one who did everything and I thought that it was Eyshana's par....
I ran my hand over my face, my breathing increasing as the letter fell out of my hand. "I can't believe this...all this time it was my dad...my dad? and here I was thinking it was her parents. I insulted her dead parents when in fact it was my own parents....my own dad who betrayed the Roys.
I tugged on my hair in anger as the insults I threw at Eyshana echoed in my ears. "Fuck...fuck...fuck" I stood up and punched the wall in anger. I walked back and forth and stopped, punching the wall again until my knuckles bled.
I need her...I need her with me, she is the only one who can calm me down. I stormed out of the room, driving straight to the hospital. I didn't care if I get arrested, no one can stop me from seeing her. I parked the car and stormed towards the building while breathing heavily. I scanned the opening of the building only to see that the security guards weren't there but were replaced by new ones.
A sigh of relief left my lips as I made my way towards her room. I opened the room looking at the ground and smiled while closing the door. I turned out with a smile on my face only for my smile to die down when I saw the bed empty. I opened the door and checked the room number to make sure I was in the right room and indeed I was in the right room.
"Eyshana" I whispered as I searched the whole room. The doors then slammed open making me flinch, revealing Sagar standing there breathing heavily. His eyes were blood shot red with anger as he strode towards me and punched my jaw making me stumble a few steps back.
"Where the fuck is she?....WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU HIDDEN HER?" he grabbed my collars and yelled in my face. I was in shock for a few seconds until I pushed his hands away and grabbed his collars in anger. "I DON'T KNOW WHERE SHE IS....I JUST CAME NOW SO YOU TELL ME WHERE THE FUCK IS MY EYSHANA!" I yelled back, the both of us breathing heavily in anger.
"FUCK!" he cursed as he turned around and punched the wall. He ran his hand through his hair and closed his eyes tightly. I ignored him and ran outside. "Nurse....nurse" I stopped a woman who gave me a weird look. "H-have you seen the patient in this room?" I pointed to the room she was in. She shook her head and left.
"Ezhi...what's happening?" Sona suddenly said from behind me. I turned around and saw the group looking at me with pain and confusion. I just looked at them with tears as I punched the wall. "She is gone....she isn't there" I muttered with pain.
"What...what do you mean she has gone?...I mean how?.." Farhan spoke in shock. "I DON'T FUCKING KNOW BUT I NEED TO KNOW WHERE SHE IS" I shouted making them flinch. "Where has she gone?...she couldn't just leave unless she-"
"Woke up" Sagar finished off Vicky's sentence. "This is all your fucking fault" Sagar spat at me. I looked at him with anger but hurt. "But I don't blame you...it's my fucking fault for bringing you here. I'm going to find her" he said in a cold tone and started to walk away. I started to panic so I ran behind him. "Take me with me you...we will find her together" I said in desperation, pleading with him.
"I swear the next time I find her, I will take her far away from you....so far that you will never even be able to see her shadow" he spat. My eyes grew wide as I held his arm. "Don't do this Sagar....let me repent for my mistakes...please...please...I can't live without her...I will die....I am already ruined Sagar....please.....please just let me help....don't do this Sagar...don't do this" I cried as I slid down to the floor, my hand grabbing his leg.
"I don't give a shit about you Ezhil, from today onwards I Sagar Agarwal break my friendship with you all" he said in a cold tone. I heard a few gasps and sobs behind me but I just sat on the floor in tears.
He kicked my hand away and walked off making me get up quickly wanting to run behind him. "SAGAR STOP......SAGAR STOP....DON'T DO THIS.....SAGAR....I WILL DIE SAGAR...I WILL DIE" I yelled as I ran behind him ignoring the calls of my friends. Sagar sat in his car and drove off but I kept running behind his car.
"SAGAR PLEASE....TAKE ME WITH YOU....TAKE ME WITH YOU....SAGAR" I fell to the ground, rolling as I cried and shouted out for him. My knees were scraped and bleeding, my hands now had cuts as I just laid there on the road, my hand reaching out for his car that was now far away from me.
"please....take me w-with you" I whispered before I lost conscious.
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