Chapter 7

I think he was too shocked by my boldness to really say anything as I climbed onto his bunk and the surprise clearly didn't die down because he allowed me to climb on top of him without saying a word either.

It was only when I hovered over him wondering what the hell I should do next, that he finally seemed to regain his senses and pushed me somewhat roughly off him.

"What the fuck do you think you're doing?"

I flinched at his harsh words but steeled myself against any further onslaught. I'd been brave enough to drag myself onto his bunk and I'd be brave enough to finish what I'd started.

"I want to sleep here...with you." Was the best way I could portray my intentions.

He was silent for a few seconds, watching me with those intense green eyes and I bit my lip nervously.

"What's wrong with your bunk?" he glared at me and I had to swallow the lump which had formed before I could answer.

"The only thing I can do down there is sleep." My words were barely a whisper and I hated myself for not staying firm.

It didn't take long for him to grasp the meaning behind my words and before I knew what was happening he shifted to the left, grabbed the bed's railing and launched himself over the silver poles and onto the floor below. Then as I watched in surprise he reached up and grabbed the sleeve of my shirt and pulled me off his bunk.

He grabbed both my arms before I could slam into the floor and righted me after my knees buckled and before I could get a word out he shoved me onto my own bunk where I landed haphazardly with a loud thud.

"This is a prison, not a damn whore house, you want somebody to fuck go find another cell." He said harshly and I felt the hurt right down to my stomach.

"Don't say that." I said surprised that my voice came out firm when inside I felt crushed.

A moment of silence passed before Nathan sighed, almost in defeat and his next words were gentle. "Riley... you don't know what you want but trust me, it's not...this." He finished gesturing between us.

I bristled. "I know what I want, I have a mind of my own."

"Then if you took a moment to use it you'd realize that this isn't something you really want to get into." He tried to convince me.

"Why not? I know you're attracted to me, I can tell and don't try to deny it." I couldn't look at him as I said the words. The embarrassment was burning through me and slowly sapping my courage.

"It doesn't matter whether I'm attracted to you or not Riley, look at where we are." He gestured to the cell bars. "You're stuck in a desperate situation and you're trying to turn our...friendship into something it doesn't need to be."

"I'm not telling you I love you for god's sake" I said looking up at him and if I didn't know better I'd say he'd flinched at my words but the situation was such that I'd probably imagined it all. "I'm just talking about...you know, physical attraction between two people." I finished somewhat uncertainly.

I couldn't tell what he was thinking and that made me nervous. He just stood there staring down at me with an expression I couldn't read. I was putting myself out there for the first time in my life; propositioning to a man who shouldn't even be interested in a straggly boy like me and it wasn't easy.

"And I'm saying no. I'm not interested." He finally spoke up.

I jumped up from the bed, standing close enough to feel his body heat. "Of course you're interested. What about that kiss?" my voice cracked on the last word and I knew I sounded like a kid for just saying it but it couldn't be helped.

He took two steps back. "That was a mistake."

"How terribly cliché. Why do men always do this? They finally do something that's worthwhile in their lives and the moment they're confronted with it they start running scared." And now I sounded like a chick.

"You read too many romance novels. There are a lot of things in this world I'm afraid of Riley, but trust me; this isn't one of them. If I say I'm not interested it means I'm not interested and just because I made the mistake of kissing you once doesn't mean that it was anything other than just that. A mistake. Now drop it." he retorted, then took another step back to lean against the wall.

He shoved his hands into his shallow pants pockets and turned his head to look out into the corridor. The noise from before had finally died down some and I could hear the snapping of my too long fingernail as I bit into it.

And with all the emotions and probable comebacks roiling around in my head, all I managed to say was; "I've never read a romance novel in my life."

At least I got him to smile but as soon as it had appeared it was gone and we were right back where we'd started. I took a step forward then took a deep breath.

"Just tell me why." I said.

"Why what? Why I won't have sex with you?" he asked incredulously and I blushed.

When he put it like that it made me seem foolish and loose. Neither of which I was.

"Do you have a boyfriend? Is that why?" I questioned praying he wouldn't say yes.

"Boyfriend? Why couldn't it be a girlfriend?" he questioned with a raised brow.

"Are you bisexual then?"

He still looked incredulous.

"Does it matter?" was his question and I shook my head in answer.

Silence descended for a few minutes, where I stared at him and he stared into the corridor.

Look, we're in prison...not exactly the ideal place to start a relationship...even if it's just sexual." He started and when I made to interrupt, he raised a hand and I fell silent, "and what if I have some disease? Did you even think of that?" he asked and I thought about it for a second.

"Do you?"

"No." he answered. "But that's not the point-"

"See you don't have a disease and neither do I and really who cares if it's not ideal...sex is sex right?"

What I didn't tell him was that for me it was more than just the sex I was after. I'd read enough books, blogs and watched enough TV to know that bonds could be forged through a sexual relationship.

I was hoping it would start out that way and eventually he'd grow to have feelings for me as I had developed for him.

"I'm not having sex with you Riley. It's just not gonna happen okay?" he said but he wouldn't look at me and that gave me the boost I needed to go on.

"Fine... no sex, then how about a kiss?" I said and he looked at me, suspicion tinged his gaze.

"One kiss and that's it...I won't bother you about it anymore." I lied.

"No." he said and I gritted my teeth in frustration.

"One kiss Nathan...why are you being such a coward?" I said the words out of frustration but the moment they left my mouth I wished I could take them back.

I braced myself for an attack but none came. Instead Nathan just stood there seeming unaffected by my words as he looked out into the empty corridor.

I swallowed hard and took a step forward leaving me with two steps away from him and he still said nothing.

"One kiss." I said again, this time a whisper and when he said nothing I took another step toward him.

I suddenly felt like a master seducer bent of ripping away his virtue and I felt a twinge of guilt which I quickly buried.

When I finally stopped directly in front of him I took another silent breath and slowly placed the palms of my hands on his chest, trailing them slowly down until I could feel the hardness of his abdominals.

He took a sharp breath then surprised me by grabbing my wrists. "One kiss right?" he asked, looking down into my eyes and the vulnerability there shocked me. I suddenly felt like the experienced one.

"Just a kiss." I assured him and after a moment of silence he let me go and I replaced my hands, moving them over and up, across and down until I reached the waist band of his jeans and when he sucked in another sharp breath, I trailed them back up to his chest where they settled.

He was still looking away from me and if I didn't know better I'd say he was nervous but this was Nathan; he was most likely trying to convince himself that he should push me away and forget this moment had ever happened and with this in mind I acted quickly.

I stood on my toes, bringing my forehead to his eyes and reached up to grasp his chin gently as I'd seen them do on those clichéd romantic comedies.

Bringing his face to mine, he finally looked down at me; his green eyes finding mine and I sucked in a breath; caught in their intensity.

"Relax." I told him and he cracked a smile. I imagined him thinking how ridiculous I was to be telling him; an experienced hunk of a man, to relax, but he said nothing and when he slowly brought his lips down to meet mine I quite literally saw stars.

My hand developed a mind of their own travelling over his body in a rush that matched the passion I was feeling. We kissed; tongues meeting and melding; bodies pressed together and skin unfortunately not quite meeting skin as the fabric of our clothes rubbed against each other.

I felt the pressure building in my pants and I didn't hide it, instead pressing into him as if I could pull him into my body. He responded in kind and I soon felt his own hardness pressing into my belly.

"Just a kiss right?" he panted when he pulled his lips from mine but I was quick to react, grabbing his muscular arms and pulling him even closer.

"Not yet." I breathed then reached up to latch my hand onto the back of his head, pulling his lips back to mine where I quickened the pace.

He sucked my bottom lip into his mouth hard enough to make it tingle, then it was a nibble before he released it all together and plunged his tongue into my mouth. I fought to keep up but my toes were getting tired and I fell back onto the balls of my feet. He followed; our mouths never leaving. He put his arm around my lower back, pulling me up and I was on my toes once more.

His mouth left mine and he planted kisses onto my sensitive neck leaving me moaning with pleasure.

"We shouldn't" he breathed and my hands finally became useful, because when I dipped one into the front of his pants and gripped him he became putty in my hands.

He kissed me forcefully then ripped my head away from his. In a second we were sprawled on my bunk, where he covered my body with his own, trapping my roaming hands between us.

I fought to be free; wanting to touch him; needing to explore his body and when he finally allowed me the freedom I took advantage of it reaching around him to run my hands along his back, dipping into his shorts and gripping his cheeks, pressing him ever closer.

My boldness both shocked and aroused me further and before long I was out of my own head; my entire body focused on the pleasure I was receiving. Our shirts were off before I'd even registered it and the feel of his hot flesh against mine made me gasp.

"Nathan." I breathed as he kissed a wet trail down my stomach, when his tongue dipped into my navel an excited shout bubbled up in my throat and Nate covered my mouth with his hand, swallowing up the sound. I raised my hips to make it easier for him to pull off my pants and my boxer shorts were next.

Then it was his hands on me and the feeling was heaven. He ran his palms from my knees and down to the inside of my thighs with his mouth trailing along and when he finally touched that secret place only my hands had ever known I shook with desire.

"Nathan." I breathed when his head dipped and I felt his tongue on my overheated, hard flesh.

For a while I saw white then he withdrew, quickly moving off the bed to reach up to his own bunk. I watched him push his hand under the metal supports under his mattress and pull out something round. I couldn't make out much else from the shadows.

A second later, legs spread and eyes shut tight; I felt something cold drip onto the inside of my thigh, then his fingers were there at the small ring of muscle between my butt cheeks.

His fingers did sinful things to my body, sending ripples of pleasure along my spine, then the fingers were gone only to be replaced by something larger and infinitely more potent.

I felt a shock of pain and I gasped then bit my lip against the uncomfortable intrusion. Nathan's lips found mind again; this time gently.

"Relax, it'll get better." He whispered and as he kissed me I tried to do as he told and not particularly surprising; it worked. Soon I was enveloped in a world of pleasure completely beyond what I'd ever experienced.

I made sounds I was sure to be embarrassed about in the morning and clung to Nathan like a wanton young girl who'd just lost her virginity to the man of her dreams.

It was beautiful and painful and intoxicating.

When it was over he slowly eased out of me and fell onto the mattress beside me, then as I panted he pulled me to him; my back against his chest. I felt the coolness of the air drift over my naked flesh and I shivered.

Nathan reached down and pulled the thin sheet over our bodies and we settled in silence.

"Are you alright?" he whispered much later.

"Yeah."

"Are you sure?" he asked again and this time I nodded, not trusting myself to get the word out without my voice betraying my emotions.

What we'd shared was something deeper than I'd imagined it would be. It felt as if something had shifted inside me and my mind was filled with only him. It was both scary and electrifying. I took hold of the arm he'd wrapped around me, holding on as if for dear life.

To experience something like this...why had they never portrayed it right in the movies? Why had the actors and their directors failed in their jobs to prepare me for an experience so absolutely riveting? I hated them for it but in the time it took for that thought to form I found that another unfamiliar emotion had bubbled forth; love.

It couldn't be anything else.

I was in love with Nathan; everything about him since the moment we'd met up until this act now had a place in my heart and I didn't know if i could handle it all.

"Nathan." I whispered into the silence.

"Hmm?" I felt the vibration against my shoulder.

I took a breath.

"Don't hate me in the morning okay?" I mumbled against the pillow.

He was silent for a second before he answered.

"I won't."

AUTHOR'S NOTES

NOW THAT WAS FUN TO WRITE. HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOYED THAT. SIGH SEXY GUYS ARE MY LIFE.

THE OTHER INMATES WILL PROBABLY BE HAVING NIGHMARES OR SPORTING HARD-ONS BY THE END OF THAT NIGHT LOL

If you do any for these guys lemme know so we can all fangirl over them!

-DoUbLe.A

-unedited.