Emma's POV

"So.....Jonny huh?" Caitlyn asks me with a mischievous smile as she comes towards the table I'm cleaning. It's past the closing time and I have sent everyone home which leaves me and Caitlyn.

"What about him?" I ask blushing slightly.

" I don't know, you tell me. What's up with all the flirting and name calling?" She asks with a smirk.

"I don't know what you're talking about, Caty." I say whilst scrubbing the table clean.

"Oh come on girl. I heard your little chit chat with him. I think he likes you."

"Don't be stupid Caty" I chuckle. "He is just being friendly."

It's not like I'll get someone looking THAT hot.

"Ughhh Emma. Why don't you understand? That man has the hots for you. Have you seen the way he looks at you?"

"H-How does he l-look at me?"

"Oh come on honey, I'm not gonna point out every obvious thing for you. What's the fun in that? This one, you gotta figure out yourself."

"There is nothing to figure out Caty. He's just a friendly person. End of discussion."

"Whatever you say, Emmy."

I become a deep shade of read. Now, does he really like me? Wait, do I like him?

***

As I unlock my apartment door, a big furry body jumps onto me, which results in me landing on my butt.

Ouch.

"Hey Tony, my baby. Momma missed you so much!" I say lovingly to my pet doggo of 4 years.

Tony is a Border Collie. He is a rescue dog, Danny had found him in his factory plant. It being a very isolated area, many people come and dump their puppies or kittens which appear to be a burden to them. Many end up dead due to the excessive heat in the plant area. Tony, who was 2 month old then, was at the verge of dying when Danny found him. Since Danny and Caitlyn already have a cat, they couldn't afford to look after a dog, hence they came to me. I accepted Tony with open arms as soon as I saw his puppy eyes. He is the only one which gives me strength to keep going in life. He is the one who saved me from drowning in my own sorrow.

"Let's make you dinner. And then we'll watch your favourite movie." I say as enter into my room.

Tony and I have had our dinner which was spaghetti and meat balls, well, I had the spaghetti and he had the meat balls.

Now we are cuddled up in blankets in my sofa whilst watching Tony's favorite movie, The Secret Life Of Pets. It's during times like this, I wish I had a normal, happy family. I can imagine how it will be if mom and dad were here. Dad will be sitting on the two seater with mom by his side, and I will be sitting on floor by his leg. Mom will be lovingly stroking my hair while Tony is napping in my arms. But there is no way I can live that scenario ever again. My parents won't come back. I will have to find solace in myself , Sweet Tooth and Tony. This is my world now and this is what it will be forever.

In the midst of all these thoughts, my mind suddenly goes to what Caitlyn told me.

I'm not gonna point out every obvious thing for you.

This one, you gotta figure out yourself.

Does Jon really like me? It's pretty hard to believe it.

I don't mean to push myself into a huge ditch of self pity but lets be practical. Jon is a very attractive man. Whereas I, on the other hand is extremely average looking. I have dark brown hair, emerald green eyes, and a really.....bizarre body. I can't say I am fat, but I am not thin either. Well, I don't have a flat stomach, it's pretty flabby, I have slightly thick arms and legs, and my breasts are pretty big for my liking.

Sigh.

I guess I am fat. I should probably hit the gym. But I have terrible mood swings which disrupts my visits to the gym, instead I end up watching a cheesy movie with a tub of ice cream. I have a syndrome, PCOS. It causes extreme mood swings along with a whole new set of insecurities. But I shouldn't let them affect me in any way. Mom and dad wouldn't like me being all gloomy and dull. So for their sake, I will be the big fluff of optimism. Life is too short to be worried about your insecurities anyways. There are so many other things I should be focusing on. I won't let my insecurities bring me down. Life should be spent in enjoying yourself, not crying in self pity.

I've got a very homey,cozy bakery. I've got some nice friends, even though it's just Caitlyn,Danny and little Liam. They are enough for me. And above all, I've got the best Doggo in the whole wide world. With this thought I give Tony a tight hug which wakes him up from his deep slumber, but he does not mind. He goes back to his peaceful sleep.

Gosh he is the most adorable creature I've ever seen.

I give myself a pat on the shoulder, appreciating the mini Ted talk I had with myself. But despite all this, at some point I do feel insecure, I do feel worthless, and I do wish I wasn't alone.

Now, going back to Jonny.

Jonny is a really attractive man, with sharp features, beautiful height, broad shoulders, amazing hair and mesmerizing eyes.

Oh those eyes.

I can stare at those eyes forever. I can drown in the warmth given by those eyes. I can engulf myself in the love and adoration those eyes hold for me. I can yield myself to its unceasing depth.

Uh oh. I guess I figured it out......Sweet baby Jesus!

Jon likes me!