Taking a deep breath, I typed the message I wanted to send to Maya.

Hey.

Hello

Can we see?

I'm at work.

After work?

I'll be too tired to talk. I'm usually too tired nowadays to do anything except eat and go to bed.

I'd been trying to see her for almost a week but I kept getting the same replies from her. I'd gone to her father's house at night but the housekeeper told me that she'd gone to bed and said no one should disturb her. I assumed she did not want to see me and it was just so frustrating and understandable at the same time. I'd hurt her for so long and she'd finally gotten tired of bearing it. I hadn't known her true worth until she actually signed the papers and up and left when I wasn't around.

Just then, my mum barged into my office and I just sighed and leaned back in my chair before pressing my fingers against my eyes.

"Keith I do not know what you're high on but you will stop this madness right now."

I sighed before replying."I don't know you're talking about." I could feel the beginning of a headache and I didn't want to see her.

"Oh you damn well know what I'm talking about. Divorce? Didn't you read the contract? Do you not know the terms of the contract? Do you not know what the result of a divorce before the birth of a child is? I'll lose everything I've worked for." she screeched.

"I don't really care at the moment. It's not like I'll be out of a job." I replied, watching the veins I didn't even know she had in her neck pop out as her anger level increased.

"How can you be so selfish?"

"I learned from the very best." I drawled and watched her eyes widen before took a deep breath to calm herself and then plopped down into the couch.

"I may have been selfish when it comes to my relationship with other people but not with you Keith."

"Really? Why did you talk me into getting married even though you knew I didn't want to, all under the guise of business even though it was all a big revenge plan? I feel so fucking stupid. Why didn't it occur to me that you must have a reason for arranging a marriage between me and your ex's daughter? It wasn't for business. It was just to get your hands on Gunther's company."

"That may be true but everything I did, I did for us. For you, to make sure you won't want for nothing."

"No. You did it for yourself. You did it because you love having power. You did it because you're vengeful."

She just sighed and stood up to leave. "Put an end to this Keith. Meanwhile I'll talk to Maya and Gunther about this."

At that I rolled my eyes. "If you intend to bully Maya into anything it's not going to work. Besides she's signed the papers and moved out and you know Gunther will not spare you a glance. Give it up mother. You're the reason for your loss. Don't blame me for it. And please do not stress her out anymore than she is."

"If you think I'm going to sit back and watch my lifework go to someone else, you have another thing coming." and with that, she left the office.

TWO WEEKS LATER

Trying to see Maya for the past two weeks and failing to had to be the most frustrating thing I ever had to go through.

I'd call and she'd say she's busy or tired or not pick at all. I decided to go and see her at home but she was asleep the times I got there, or so I was told. All that pointed to one thing: She didn't want to see me.

Dialling her number again, I waited for her to pick up and she finally did at the 5th ring.

"Hello."

"Maya, hi....How are you?"

"I'm fine. Everything is fine."

"oh. Alright. I'm happy to hear that."

"Do you want something? Because I can't be on the phone for long." she said briskly and I sighed before continuing. "I need to see you. Please. I've been trying to for the past two weeks and you keep giving excuses."

I heard her let out a breath before agreeing. "Fine. Come around 8pm. I'll be in my room. I'll let them know that they can let you up." and with that, she hung up.

Wondering when she had changed so much, I dialled Leo's number and when he picked up, he said "hello" with so much aloofness it made me cringe.

"Leo. I haven't seen you in a long while, so I was wondering if you want to hang out with me and the other guys or something."

"I'm busy." he replied and that made me let out a deep breath. Everything in my life was just falling apart because of the choices I made but Leo and my mum were the most surprising ones.

"Please. I need your help."

"What's the point? It's not like you've ever listened to anything I say to help."

"Okay." was all I said before disconnecting. I shouldn't have called him in the first place. Throwing my phone to the side, I drank the rest of the whiskey in the glass and turned on the music channel and from there, I fell asleep.

When I woke up, it was 7pm and at that, I more or less shot out of the couch where I fell asleep. I brushed my teeth because I had the smell of alcohol on my breath and showered quickly before leaving the house.

When I got in there and was let into the house, first thing I saw was Blinky lying down in the hallway with her hind legs crossed as she watched me walk in. Bending down to stroke behind her ears, the way she purred at that made me smile. I picked her up, hoping that she wouldn't scratch me and when she didn't do that and tried climbing my shirt, I whispered a little I missed you too girl. Just then, the Butler came out again and said Miss Roberts will see you now and at that, I followed him upstairs to see her.

Maya's POV

Pulling the blanket that was covering my cold kegs a bit higher, I swallowed nervously. I had been putting off seeing Keith for over two weeks because I didn't know how I'd react. This was the man I had loved so much and was willing to do anything for. To have him serve me with divorce papers just like that, like I didn't mean anything to him had hurt so much but I had sucked it up and done what he wanted. But after that day, I didn't want to see him again. I didn't want my heart to skip a beat in my chest like it did everytime I saw him. I didn't want to see him and miss him more than I already did. I didn't want to see him and have my breathing accelerate because of how yummy he looked. I didn't want to want him. I didn't want to hope that he wanted to see me because he missed me as much as I missed him only to have my hopes bashed but most of all I didn't want to see him and risk having my bottled up anger and frustration and disappointment explode. But I knew I couldn't put it off for so long, and so after making excuses for two weeks, I finally agreed.

I looked up when he came into my room. I would have gone down to see him if I had the strength to but I had been too tired.

"Hi." he said with a small smile which I returned. He was holding Blinky who was snuggling into his arms.

"Hey."

He looked around for where to sit and I patted my bed as I sat up. Reaching behind to rub my aching back, I asked how he was doing and all that.

"I'm fine. You? The babies?"

"I'm fine. We're fine...No offence but I will just go ahead and ask what you want because I am really really tired." I said while pulling my pillow closer as the pressure in my bladder increased. The constant urge to pee annoyed me more than my swollen and aching feet and back pain.

"I'm sorry for everything." he started and I frowned a bit, wondering where that came from.

"I don't hold anything against you."

"I knew you'd say that, all the more reason why I want to apologize. For how I treated you right from the start and the fact that I had the guts to say you have issues when I helped compound it. For the way my mother and I treated you, for not appreciating you, for hurting you, for not being more vocal about how I really felt, for not being the support a husband is supposed to be, I'm sorry."

Nodding again, I repeated the same thing. "Apology accepted." I waited for a minute for him to say whatever it was hetill had to say And when he didn't say anything, I opened my mouth to tell him I was really tired when he said the words I didn't expect.

"I miss you."

"What?" I asked, the shock I felt written all over my face.

"I miss you so much. I miss having you around."

"Or you miss having your maid and cook around." I asked bitterly as my feelings suddenly changed to anger.

"No! I swear to you Maya. If I could turn back time to undo all that I would. But I need you to know that I'm really sorry for how I acted in the past. I shouldn't have treated you that way and I should have protected you from my mum. I should have been more understanding and not that selfish. I was an ass and for that I am sorry."

Letting out a breath, I told him what was on my mind. "I'm tired of hearing the S-word Keith. It's not doing anything good right now except irritate me. Yes, you should have been much more understanding. I was a fat insecure 19 year old who wanted nothing more than for people to like me. I could have left when my dad said I was getting married but I didn't because I wanted to be useful to him. I thought I was not useful and I really wanted to, so I stayed back. I ended up in your house and you made everything worse. I could have said fuck it and not do any of those things but I cleaned and cooked because I thought that maybe it'd make you see me in a different light but instead of that, you exploited my insecurities and made everything worse and had the guts to tell me I had issues two months ago? You know what? I hold everything against you. I hate you for what you did to me. You treated me horribly for so long and I still forgave you and I fell in love with you. I was willing to move the earth for you but you threw me to the side just because of one thought I didn't even end up doing.-" but then he broke me off.

"I was hurt. I didn't know how to react what to feel."

"It's always about you. Did you even think about how I felt? Did you think of the possible self hate I felt for thinking of killing my own baby just to keep you? You know how I am. You know I'm a really sensitive person but you didn't think of how it affected me. You were all distant and cold and I pleaded with you but you refused. And now you're telling me you miss me? Fuck you. This is the reason why I didn't want to see you. No matter how calm I tried to be about everything, you still succeeded in making me open the door to how I feel. Well there you have it. You are selfish and an ass and *sighs* please go away. I do not want to be around you right now."

I whispered that last part tiredly as I dried my tears with my sleeves. I promised myself I wasn't going to cry anymore but once again, my emotions got the best of me. I awkwardly got out of bed and made my way to the bathroom, hoping he'd get the unspoken message of my dismissal.

Closing the door behind me, I leaned back on it and pressed my fingers against my eyes to force the tears back. It hurt that bad because of my feelings for him. It hurt because the man I'd done all I could for could do that to me.

His words had thrown me off balance and made all the negative feelings I had bottled in come forward and for that I was thankful because it felt like I finally got rid of the weight on my shoulders since I left our home. I finally moved to pee and wash my hands before opening the door again. He was no longer there when I got out and for that I was a bit happy. I didn't want to see him again until I calmed down

I settled into bed and just before I fell asleep, my phone chimed indicating I had a new message. Reaching behind me to get the phone, I opened it and it was a text from him.

I didn't mean to make you cry this night and for that, I apologize. I hurt you and I understand why you hate me now and may never want to take me back again but I want you to know that I love you Maya, and I always would. Have a good night rest.

Dropping my phone on the other end of the bed, I fell asleep with just one thought in my head. Ass. I hate that I love you too.