Did I lose her forever

I can not even bear the thought of her leaving me.

I had cursed myself for more than a thousand times for letting that girl near me.

I know I made a mistake but she suddenly started crying and everything happened so suddenly.

I had so much to tell Anna but she is so angry at me. Does she hate me now?

Well, I hate myself too but I really don't want her to hate me.

This is the third day that I could see her face. I should not have listened to Kate. If I had gone to her house on the first day then..... Then what?

Then maybe she would have broken our relationship even earlier.

I shivered at such a thought.

Why can't I kill a girl? If it was not for Sam's father, I would not have let that girl come near me.

Her dad is an advocate and my dad's friend. He told my dad that Marcus will not be a problem. Everyone knew about what happened and they will testify too.

I know I made a mistake but I will do the same if he dared to mess with my girl.

And who is this Victor? Where did he come from? How could he put his hand on her?

I was out of school and to the hills. It's a secret place of mine. I used to come here when I was little. My family used to have camped here.

I sat there on a bench and thought about what she said.

Am I wrong for her? Should I really leave her alone?

Fuck no. I will never do that. She has to bear with me. I will say sorry to her every day, she has to accept my apology. Leaving her is not an option for me.

Today I am going to her home and talk to her directly.

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The whole day I spend like that. Now I am standing under her room window. Her room light was on, that means she is up.

I called her on the phone. I already knew that she will not answer it just like the days before.

But to my surprise, she picked up her phone.

"Hi." I didn't say anything. I was still a little shocked that she actually answered my call.

"We need to talk." She said after a long pause.

Okay, now I want to run away from here. She really is planning to break off our relationship. Is it so easy for her to do that?

"I need to apologize to you. Sorry for not hearing your side of the story. Sorry for getting so angry at you, without giving you a chance to explain yourself. I know I always do this to you but please..." She stopped for a few moments then continued. "Please don't hate me. Please don't leave me. I know I was wrong but please don't break our friendship." She said. Her voice sounded weird. I doubted why is that but with her sob it was confirmed, she was crying.

Thinking that she was crying because of me made me go crazy. I looked around her wall.

I need to see her.

There was a pipe which goes up to her room. It was perfect but just one problem. The pipe was a little farther than her room window.

The phone was still on and I heard another sob.

We will see what happens next. Right now I need to be with her.

I started to climb up the pipe. I was in mid-air when she asked. "What are you doing? Why your breathing is uneven?"

"Nothing love. Nothing for you to worry about." I replied anyhow. I reached the top.

I sighed in relief. Then I heard her whisper. Her voice felt like a breeze.

"Xavier" She called my name with so much gravity that it made my heart flutter. My whole body started to burn up. It almost made me loose my balance.

I stayed still, even stopped breathing just to hear what she wants to say.

"I want to see you... right now." She said. I can tell she must have turned red just after saying this.

I chuckled at the iconic situation. I smiled and said.

"You know, I can do anything for you. If my Princess wants to see me then who am I to not comply with it." I tried to reach her balcony but the distance is a little too much.

I looked down.

If I fall from here then can guarantee that some of my bones will crack for sure.

I had no other choice.

"Princess will come out in your balcony?" I asked her.

"Why?" She doubted.

"Just come." After one or two seconds I saw that she opened the window and came out.

"Hi, there princess." I said looking at her. She looked at me and her phone slipped from her hand.

"Xavier. What the hell are you doing up here?" She asked shocked.

"You said, you wanted to see me." I told her innocently.

"Shut up. There is no way you could come this fast. I told you not more than one minute before." She said frowning.

"That doesn't matter. What matters is that you wanted to see me, so here I am." I said smiling at her.

She turned red again.

'I didn't mean it.' She whispered.

"Okay, then should I go?" I said and looked down. I almost loose balance again.

"Xavier" Anna shouted and extended her arm to try to catch me.

She was so loud that I was afraid people around must have heard it.

"Princess, I think you should be a little low. If your family or your neighbor heard you and came out to see you, then it will be an awkward situation for us. You know it's not everyday people see a guy climb up to a girl's room in the middle of the night. So please be quiet and help me out here." I reminded her of the situation we were in.

"Okay. Okay. Give me your hand." She said.

She extended both arms towards me.

"No Princess. Hold onto the railing with one hand and then look for something in which you can stick your foot so that you don't loose the balance." I saw she did what I asked her.

We reached out to each other's hands. I chuckled. She looked at me frowning.

"Doesn't this scene seem familiar to you?" She looked confused.

"I feel like Romeo, who came to meet his Juliet right now. They must have felt like this. Don't you think." Hearing this she chuckled too.

On the count of three, I let go of the pipe and she pulled me towards her. I guess in the fear of falling I used extra force to reach the railing but in the process, I bumped into her. We managed to balance by holding onto each other.

We were very close. I feared that my heartbeat could be heard by her. So to make the distance in between us I backed away but I forgot that where was standing.

She was the one who grabbed the neck of my T-shirt and pulled me back but this time the gap between us almost vanished. Because of the force, my face touched her. Or to be precise, my lips brushed against her.

My heart, lungs, and brain, all stopped working.

She kept us in that same position for some time. I don't know if it was because of fear of me falling down or because of the almost-kiss that we just had.

Whatever the case is I have no complaints.