My eyes fluttered open, being met by the glaring sun. I checked the time: 8:45am, I must've fallen asleep.

I bolted out of my bed and rushed downstairs, Valentina was in the kitchen putting together breakfast for the pack.

"Morning"

"Morning darling" she smiled.

"Urm, do you know where that guy from last night went" I panted.

"Sorry sweetie, he left last night"

"Oh, that's fine" I mumbled. But it wasn't fine, I needed to speak to him.

Then a light bulb moment hit me, if he left last night he probably phased and slept in the forest out back, if I hurry maybe I can catch him, before he leaves for good.

I started running, making my way out of the back door and across the fields towards the forest.

I sped in between the trees and bushes screaming his name frantically.

"ALEX!"

ALEXX! I know you're here!"

That's when I heard a low growl behind me, it was him, you could barely see any of his disheveled fur, so many pink fleshy scars covered his body.

I stepped closer towards him, the growls becoming more intense, warning me not to step closer, but as always I didn't listen.

"I just want to talk-

Before I could finish my words he pounced on me, pining me to the ground, his wolfs face only inches away, his hot breath on my face, the stench of raw meat filing my nostrils.

"Kill me. It's not like I don't deserve it" I whimpered, a tear rolling down my cheek, a couple moments passed and he stepped off of me and went behind a large tree and turned back.

"What do you want?" He scoffed as he pulled his shirt on.

"Don't leave" I breathed, I can't lose him again.

"Why should I stay? Until now you didn't even think about me, you thought your dear baby brother was dead and no longer your concern" He jeered as he stared me down.

"I was 15" I faltered.

"And I was 14! I was 14 and you left me, you left me because you were fucking scared. How do you think I felt Andorra, I come home one night after messing around with my friends to see the place surrounded by firemen and police. Suddenly everything and everyone I knew was gone!" He exclaimed, pain imbedded in his voice.

"I tried to run in, save them. But the only thing I got from that was half my fucking body melting off"

He was right, who am I to talk about pain? I was a kid...but so was he, I left my baby brother all alone and I have the audacity to imagine a life for myself with a mate and children and actual friends.

"Your not gonna say anything?"

"What am I meant to say Alex, I'm a horrible person, I know I am, I tried to forget, tried to run from the past. But the past always catches up" I sighed leaning against the tree behind me and slipping onto the soft ground. Bringing my knees to my chest and burying my face between them, I felt the ground shake under me and then a presence appeared besides me.

I lifted my head to see him sat besides me legs crossed.

"Feels just like old times" He spoke.

"When we would go deep into the forest and find a nice clearing. Everyone thought we went for a run but I just liked sitting besides you, in silence. You made me feel safe...my big sister" he croaked.

"I miss it. I miss you..." I sighed.

"I know"

"But I'm afraid it's too late sister. To much time has passed, to much bad history" he shrugged.

You'd think heartbreak was only for love lorn people.

But through all the people I ever loved, my parents, family, all the Chads I dated...even my own mate. This break up will probably be the most earth shattering.

"I understand" I breathed lowly, a lump formed in my throat, tears rushing out of my red and blood shot eyes.

I understand...I really do.

A/N: sooo sorry for such a long wait. I have been so busy and I had absolutely no ideas. But I am back!