I have a kid. This is insane. I swore I would never have children after the way I grew up. A drug addicted mom and an abusive father aren't the best role models. I always figured if I had a kid I would become my father and I don't want that. But now I have no choice. After I found out I spent the rest of the day balls deep in whiskey and yesterday was pretty much the same. There are a millions things running through my mind. I have a kid out there I know nothing about, with a woman I know nothing about.

Maybe I have become my father already, Imelda has carried my child and raised it for six months on her own. Driving around in that piece of crap car, is she broke? She said she didn't want anything from me, but is she struggling? I should step up and do something but I'd be no good as a dad and she told me to stay away from her.

"Alright you've had two days to mope, that's it." Cordelia says sitting down beside me. I reach for the almost empty bottle in front of me but she pulls it away

"Just leave me alone Cordelia." I groan

"Sorry Ice But you need to figure this shit out, come on." Scarlett and Cordelia pull me to my feet and guide me to a booth with Indigo, Izzy, Skye and Evie. Thank god Adeline is out of town or I would be dealing with the whole firing squad

"Come on big guy, we're all moms and Indigo is pregnant, we're gonna help you figure this out." Scarlett says sitting beside me

"Nothing to figure out, she told me to stay away." I reply as I rest my head on the table, I can't tell if I'm drunk, hungover or both.

"She was just hurt that you called her a slut." Cordelia says

"I didn't call her a slut."

"You kinda did. I've known Imelda for years, we worked together in the ER before I met Killer, she was with the same guy she dated in college, she isn't the type to sleep around."

"She's a nurse? Man I don't even know anything about her." I groan

"So go get to know her. You have a daughter Ice, do you want her to grow up without her father?" Scarlett says

"You know the risks of sticking your dick in a million holes, you need to grow up and take responsibility for the consequences. I'm amazed this hasn't happened sooner." Skye says

"I bet there's loads of little Ices out there, when they start turning eighteen your doorbell will be busy." Scarlett smirks

"Imelda is probably scared. I have all these girls and Rowan and I'm still terrified, she did it on her own. I wonder if she has any family, I can't imagine being pregnant and alone." Indigo says.

"So Ice What are you going to do? You going to carry on getting drunk, nailing a different girl every night or are you going to step up and be there for your daughter?" Scarlett asks

"I don't know what the fuck to do." I groan. The girls continue giving me shit for what feels like hours, I need to step up, I need to stop sleeping around, I need to apologise and make things right. I already knew it all but I know they were enjoying making me suffer

"Get off your ass and go talk to her." Scarlett says

"I don't even know where they live." I reply as I run my hands down my face

"Well you smell disgusting, so go shower, get a couple hours sleep and I'll get Circuit to help me find her address." Skye says before wheeling off

"Cordelia, hold on." I say as the old ladies start to leave

"What do you know about Imelda and my daughter?" Fuck that sounds weird to say, my daughter.

"Imelda is 29, I don't know much but I know Natalie is her best friend, I worked with Natalie more than Imelda. She was with a guy she met in college, he's a professor, I know they lived together and she said they broke up before she got pregnant. Isla is six months old and she's adorable. Her eyes are exactly the same as yours, that deep shade of blue." Cordelia smiles as she looks into my eyes, I got them from my mom.

"Go take a shower, it'll work out and I'm here to help if you need me." She places her hand on my forearm before walking out of the bar.

A pot of coffee and a couple hours sleep later I pull up outside the apartment building Skye gave me, this isn't exactly a safe neighbourhood. I manage to catch the front door as some one is leaving, glad I don't have to use the buzzer, I'm not sure how Imelda will feel about me showing up. I make my way to her floor, the carpeting is all ripped up and there are several suspect stains, this place looks like something out of CSI, not exactly the best place to be raising a kid. I knock on the door several times but there's no answer

"Stop banging that goddamn door, she hasn't been here for days." An elderly woman says coming out of the apartment next door. I apologise and make my way back outside before heading back to the clubhouse. She's not there, has she left town because of me? I have to find her and try to make things right.

"How did it go?" Cordelia asks eagerly as I walk into the bar

"She wasn't there, lady next door said she hasn't been there for days." I sigh as I sit on a stool and Indigo puts a beer down in front of me

"Leave it with me, I'll see what I can do." Cordelia says before walking off. It's dark out now and I still have no idea where they are. Cordelia called a friend at the hospital and she's supposed to be working tomorrow, but if she's skipped town in a hurry maybe she hasn't quit her job yet.

"Found your girl and your kid." Socket says sitting beside me

"Where?" I ask as I turn to face him

"She's staying with Natalie, fucking cock blocked me." He groans

"Text me the address." I say as I jump up and pull my keys out of my pocket, thank fuck I didn't get drunk again this afternoon, I need to see her and try to make things right.