(There's gonna be a bit of time skips in this chapter and probably in the next cause I miss Elizabeth lol)

Also you guys should prepare yourselves for some more sadness, sorry for doing yall like this.

Alexa's POV

"Are you okay baby? Are you hungry?are you thirsty? You need to pee? You wanna stand for a minute? Ig you can't really stand anymore since your hooked up to all of that, want me to turn the tv on? I can get you something from the vending machines if you want, or maybe-" Ally cuts me off of all my nervous rambling.

She finally came into the hospital today, and before she went in she had a total meltdown in my arms and so now I'm trying my best to make her feel comfortable and not feel stressed.

"Baby, it's okay, I'm okay"

I look at her and she immediately tries to look for my eyes, once our eyes meet I can see that she is okay.

She sends me soft smile, "you know what would make me feel better though?"

"What?" I stand up rapidly already ready to do whatever it takes to help her feel better.

"For you to come lay with me, I want my baby right here" she scoots over a little and pats the empty part of the bed.

I smile and walk over to her bed, I carefully lay down beside her, she smiles as do I, I peck her lips a couple of times and than I lay my head on her chest.

She puts her arms around me and tightens her grip around me, I look back up at her and I just now realize how fast her heart is pounding, by hearing the heart monitor thingy, I smile and give her a small kiss to the lips.

-timeskip two months-

I walk into the hospital, everyone already knowing who I am and me not having to ask if I can go up, I simply walk down the right hall and get to the first elevator.

I get in and go all the way up to floor twenty three, which Is the highest floor, her dad ended up getting her a private room, although most of these rooms are private ones he got the most expensive one.

Once the elevator doors open up I walk out and into the main room, "hey grace!"

"Oh hi miss Alexa, your two yogurts are on that counter and your usual will be in her room in five minutes"

"Thank you so much"

She just gives me a warm smile and keeps writing down what ever she was writing down, grace is a nurse in this hospital and works on this floor, she works everyday over here so she knows Jack, Ally and I now and knows what drinks we get.

I grab the two yogurts and walk into Ally's room.

Before I get to where her bed is I first close my eyes take a few deep breaths and than put a smile on my face before I walk passed the living room area and into her room.

She's already experiencing a lot of pain and weight loss from the lack of eating and her body fighting a lot and not really walking anymore.

I turn the corner of her room and see her and jack chatting as usual, "hey baby, hi jack" I wave to Ally than to jack.

"Hi baby, hi honey" they both say.

"I see your mom is out of town again?" They already know that if I come back again a second time of the day it means that my mom isn't home.

"Yep" I say as I make my way to Allys bed, she scoots and I as always carefully lay down in the empty spot, "here baby" I give her her yogurt and she smiles and pecks my lips a couple of times.

I never get tired of hearing her heartbeat go faster everytime we kiss or hug or cuddle or sometimes even when we make eye contact, I mean it just reminds me that I'm not the only one.

After we're done eating our yogurts Ally asks her dad if he can step out for a moment and tells him to tell who ever is gonna come in that we'd like some privacy and that we won't be available for a while.

We both seem confused cause Ally has never asked that, "okay darling, if either of you need anything than just tell me, okay?"

We both say yes and he walks out.

Theres nothing but silence for a few seconds, "baby?" Her voice breaks the silence.

"Yeah?" I ask and carefully sit up to look at her.

She shuffles nervously a little, "i-" she sighs, "never mind"

"No baby tell me"

"Baby I want you"

I look at her confused, "what do you mean"

"Baby it's been so long" I than realize what she means.

"Baby were in a hospital not in our bedroom"

"I know but baby, I'm gonna be in here for the rest of my time, please"

I think for a few seconds than decide, "if it's what you want baby than I'll make love to you, cause your my one and only baby"

She smiles and nods, she gently grabs my hand and pulls me gesturing for me to get on top of her, I straddle her and start by gently kissing her soft, pink full lips.

She pulls my shirt off and I look down at her and make eye contact, I hear her heart beating faster and I see her face go a light shade of pink as she blushes.

It fills my stomach with butterflies, "I love you" I whisper to her.

"I love you" she says back to me.

That day I made love to her as gently and as loving as I ever could in my life, I touched her like a delicate petal cause to me she always has been a delicate little petal, I made sure to memorize every part of her as I tried my best to love her, I gave her all of me, and at the end we both had tears in our eyes, and a part of us knew that most the the tears were sad ones, knowing that this is where our story will be ending, in this hospital.

After she fell asleep I went into the hall bathroom so I could scream and cry as loud as I wanted without worrying about waking her up, I cried knowing that I won't be left with anything of her but memories, and I cried not wanting to grow old and forget them, I cried cause I wished I could be the one who had their days limited instead of her, I cried cause I didnt fully understand what she was going through and how much more she could fight, I cried cause I dreaded the day when she took her last breathe, and i cried by knowing that all the plans we ever made before wont ever come true, I cried at the fact that we wont be able to adopt two boys like we wanted and to have two girls of our own, I cried cause we never got to travel, I cried cause its not like we have kids for me to tell them just how strong and beautiful and fun and funny their mother was, I cried knowing that one day, I will have to move on from her.

I cried.

I cried gripping so hard onto my shirt.

I cried so hard to where I had to gasp for air.

I cried so hard that my veins were popping out.

I cried so hard that I nearly lost my voice again.

I just sat there and cried so hard to where I got nauseous and threw up.

I cried so hard until I couldn't anymore, and all I was left with was a giant migraine.

After a half hour of just sitting there with no more tears to run down my cheeks I got up splashed my face with some water and straightened myself and walked out.

I froze when I saw Jack standing there, I immediately shot my gaze to the floor knowing that it was still visible that I had been crying.

He catches me by surprise when he suddenly pulls me into a hug, he suddenly starts to silently cry, i feel his pain, and so i begin to cry again.

In that moment i saw just how sad yet beautiful that moment was, we were both getting even more and more broken each day, we both understood eachother without having to say any words to eachother.

After a few minutes we calm down and take a few deep breaths, "she's still asleep if you wanna slip into her bed with her" Jack says as he moves the lose strands of hair from my face, I nod and he gives me a kiss to my forehead and wipes my tears away, "I'm gonna go for a walk, I will be back not to late"

I nod again but before he can leave I speak up, not really knowing if I can rely on my voice, "be safe, the last thing we need is to lose you"

"Always my dear" he says with his voice slightly quivering, we than both walk our separate ways, I walk back to Allys room and silently slip into her bed as Jack doesn't even make it out of the hospital before he runs into a men's restroom and bursts into tears again, he cries just as I did in the bathroom earlier.

-time skip five months-

By now my mother doesn't really care if I'm not home, and Jack and Ally have become a second family to me, I mean they already had been but even more now than ever.

"Baby, what you thinking about?" Ally speaks up.

"Oh, nothing, just how gorgeous my girl is" I say as I stand up and walk over to her and kiss her forehead gently, "what about you baby, what are you thinking of?"

"Obviously you baby, and just how lucky I am to have you" she smiles and a couple of tears escape her eyes, I gently wipe them off with the pads of my thumbs and gently place a kiss on her lips.

-timeskip three months-

Lately Jack and I have been holding our breaths everyday, feeling like we're being held down in a pool with water, feeling like the water is so high that we can barely even manage to take small breathes, being only on our tippy toes, being scared that a big something will happen soon and itll fall into the water and make waves that'll go passed our heads and we just won't be able to take any breathes anymore, we'll simply drown.

Lately I've picked up bad habits, I've started to secretly smoke and cut, I've got a therapist but I dont ever cooperate so I feel like theres no use if I'm not ready to even cooperate.

"What's on your mind honey?" Jack whispers from beside me as Ally sleeps.

Lately she's been really tired, I know she's tired of fighting, and I just wish I could do more than just be here, the doctors said that they cant do anything for Ally but treat it to give her more time to live, they cant take it out cause at her rate it'll be too dangerous.

"Ally" I whisper back to him.

"I get it, she's all that's on our minds lately"

"Yeah" is all I say.

We stay in silence for a while until he finally breaks the silence, "you know Alexa... I must thank you for everything," before I can ask what for he speaks again, "you've made my baby girl the happiest I've ever seen her, you fought for her, you gave her so much, you still continue to give her so much, I can see the way you both see eachother with both of your hearts on display, not being scared at all to show each other just how much you love each other, I have never seen Ally laugh the way she does with you, I have never seen Ally talk so highly of someone so often as she does of you, she believes in you, she believes you love her so much, and you always will but that one day you will also fall in love with another women or maybe man that you will love as equally as you love her right now, she believes that she won't be able to do all the things you both planned but that you will, you will do it for her, yourself and for the next person in your life, she believes that no matter how bad this will affect you, you will find a way out, someone will come to your rescue just as you both did for eachother, she believes in true love but she believes you have one other out there that will be just as equal as her" he pauses.

"I-" is all I could get out before I slam my hands over my mouth as I try to silence my cries, tears running down my face as I cry so hard that jack and I have to leave the room.

Once he closes the door behind us he pulls me into a gentle hug as I cry, my hands grip tightly onto his shirt, crinkling it so hard, trying not to scream, I squeeze my jaw closed tightly, and close my eyes tightly, he let's me cry for several minutes, after my cries turn into sniffles and my grip has softened, he speaks again, "remember the day I walked in your guys room and you were just cuddling and you were stuttering over every word being scared of what I'd say or think?"

I nod remembering it, it was the night that Ally and I had confessed our love for each other.

"That day, I remember thinking that you weren't gonna be just a person in her life who taught her a lesson in life and left her like everyone, I knew you were the one all the others prepared her for, I knew you were special," he stops for a minute, "and I was right, you are special, and all that Ally had told me, I believe it too, I believe it all and I hope you will see it too someday, I hope you will fall in love again and get married and do all that you and Ally had planned to do, and you know why?" Before I can ask why he speaks again, "you arent just my daughters girlfriend to me, you are a daughter to me, and if I can't sed you get married to my daughter, I want to see you fall in love with another and get married to them, I want to see you accomplish all that you and Ally had planned and more, I want to see you succeed and be happy in life, if I'm seing one of my baby girls die, I want to see the other be able to do everything the other couldn't, I want you to do it all for her, you, the next one you fall in love for and for me" at the end we were both crying again, and he was saying that between sobs.

I hugged him tighter than ever, for everything that he said, my heart broke and was put back together than broken and back together again so many times by everything he said.