Alexa's POV

I wake up almost fall off of the bed when I see someone in my bed who isn't Ally, after a second of adjusting my eyes to the sunlight I remember that it's just Bianca and were still in Joshua's house.

I than remember that I was about to call ally last night but I fell asleep, I sit up and stretch out and grab my phone unlock it and dial Allys number.

After five rings she finally picks up, "hello?" Oh no, that voice... it's her voice that she has when she spent a whole night crying herself to sleep.

"Baby are you okay?"

I hear shuffling and than she clears her throat, "yeah, yeah, i- uhh, sorry I didn't call you last night I just came back home and fell asleep"

"You're lying, you have that voice that I recognize when you're emotional and cried all night"

"Baby it's just cause I'm sick, by the way it turns out it was just a bug that I cought, the doctor said that its contagious and told me that i shouldn't see anyone for a while"

"Well, good thing my mom is still on her supposedly business trip, we can spend more time together and we'll have a excuse to not come in contact with anyone"

"Baby, what part of not seing anyone for a while didn't you get?"

"Yeah but baby I'm not just anyone, well... I mean you're not just anyone to me... I guess I never asked if I was just anyone to you"

"Baby that's not it, damn now you're sounding like you're on your period"

"I'm not!"

"Okay chill baby, look I just don't want you to get sick, we can face time everyday, and watch the same shows so it's like if we are together"

"But I won't be able to kiss you and hug you when there is a sad or scary part of whatever we watch, and no one is as good as a cook as you are, and I just-"

"Baby, its only gonna be a couple of days" she says while giggling at me.

"Fine!" I say getting upset.

"Baby"

"What?"

"I love you"

"I love you too"

She hangs up and I lay back down and just look up at the ceiling, my eyes start to feel heavier and heavier after every blink I take.

I jolt up when I hear someone calling my name, I look around confused not remembering when I fell back asleep and than I see a worried Bianca by my side.

"I heard you on the phone with Ally earlier, is everything okay?"

"If you heard earlier than why you asking now?"

"Because you fell asleep and I also was too tired to wake up at that moment"

I just nod and get up, "yeah her doctor said that she caught a bug and now I have to wait for her to be better which will be like a week, and it's been a long while sense I haven't been that long away from her"

"Oh, wow you really are a baby"

I give her a "really?" Look and just continue to fix up the room and bathroom before we leave, I look at my time and it reads 12:56pm

After I'm done we both grab our clothes knowing that josh wong care if we take his home, we walk down stairs and theres still a lot of people passed out all around the house and some are still drinking and smoking, some are drinking coffee and some are still dancing with secondly loud music, some are making out in different places.

We finally make it out side after being stopped by almost every person to say happy birthday to me again and to remind me that their gift is in the kitchen.

"I think we were suppose to grab the gifts"

"I'll just call josh and ask him to keep them for me and I'll pass by later and give him back his clothes and pick up the gifts"

Bianca just nods and we both go to my car, as we walk to it theres still a couple of people passed out on the front yard.

We get in and I drive away to Bianca's house.

-a week later-

"Okay baby, the doctor said I have to get some rest, so I'll talk to you later, love you" she waves goodbye and hangs up before I can even say goodbye.

Ally's POV

I hang up quickly throw my phone to the side and close my eyes hoping it'll help the nauseousness and dizziness.

It's getting harder and harder to make up excuses to Alexa, and it's starting to hurt me more and more.

"Hey baby girl, maybe we should go get some more medicine and maybe check out how the rooms look and-"

I cut him off being sick of having the same conversation," no dad I am not gonna fucking stay in a hospital for the rest of my time being alive"

"Okay sweety, I'm sorry it's just that- they could help, dont you wanna see me and Alexa for more time than just three months?"

"No, I'm breaking up with Alexa, I dont care about anything anymore" I roll over to my side avoiding his gaze.

"What about me?" His voice cracks at the end which makes me tear up for the fifth time today and probably the thirtieth time this week.

"Of course I wanna see you daddy"

"Than please just do me the favor of thinking about going to the hospital"

"I will" I hear him sigh from relieve which makes me feel a little better.

I don't feel him get up and walk out so I turn back around and see him looking down at where he's sitting.

"What?" I asked confused.

"Princess, why are you gonna break up with Alexa, when just a week ago on her birthday you were planning on proposing to her"

"Because dad, were younge and I still can't believe I was going to, we arent even eighteen yet"

"Baby girl, you two are in love, who ever said marriage had to be at a certain age?"

My eyes tear up thinking about the fact that I won't be able to propose to her anymore, I than break down in tears knowing that everything we ever planned for will never happen.

"Oh baby girl, its gonna be okay"

He takes me in his arms and hold me tight as I lose my breath and voice a couple of times from crying so much.

"Just next year I won't be here anymore" I say crying out loud.

"Shhh baby girl, it's okay, it's okay"

She says with tears streaming down his face as well and his voice cracking at the end.

After a half hour of crying we both calm down and drink some water, "you know, when your mother was sick, she wanted to leave me too, we had so many arguments because of the fact that she wanted to leave"

I nod understanding why she wanted to, her just like I don't want them to pause their lives with me when in a hear Alexa could already have another girlfriend and my dad could already be in love with someone and forget about me, they could already have gotten over me and had such a good life instead of being hung up on me.

"Baby girl, I know what thoughts your thinking of right now, and no, we are not gonna be okay in just a year, we will never leave your side, you know why?"

"Why?"

"Because we love you more than we could ever put in words, and plus, if I was the sick one would you just leave me and go get married to alwxa and forget about me?"

"Of course not"

"If Alexa was the sick one would you leave her and move away with me and find another girl and get married to them withing a year?"

"I am deeply in love with her, i could never do that to her"

"Than what makes you think we would do the same to you?"

I just stay quiet thinking about that, "you're right, thanks dad" we hug for a while and than he pulls apart.

"Dad?" He turns around before he walks out of my room, " I've thought about it, and I wanna go to the hospital to you know maybe check out the rooms they have-"

He interrupts me, "Yess!" He jumps up and down like a little kid who won something.

I giggle at him, "just let me tell Alexa to come over first so we can have a very long talk"

His eyes get glossy and he wipes them before they get filled with tears, "princess, I know how hard it can be, your mom told me how horrible she felt when she told me, she felt like she was torturing me, but what she didnt know was that I felt relieved when she told me, cause at the end, you remember all that we did, we would have never travelled that much if she would have never told us, and I got to love her more than I ever had, so just know that if Alexa is really in love with you, she will be there the whole step of the way and it will be sad and all that at times but never will you be torturing her from 'holding her back'"

I quickly wipe my tears away, "thanks daddy"

"Anytime babygirl"

"Hey baby, are you okay? Usually you sleep way longer"

"Yeah baby I'm okay"

"Okay; what's up?"

"Baby, can you come over? I need to tell you something"

"Baby tell me what it's about please"

"Just come over, I'll be waiting in my room"

Before she can say anything else j hand up and wait for her to come over.

Fifteen minutes later she busts through my door and runs up to my bed and jumps on it and crawls up to me and gets on top of me and hugs me.

After already being emotional all day just holding my baby makes me even more emotional, as quietly as I can I try ti hide the fact that I'm about to burst out into tears and cry up a storm.

"I missed you" Alexa says with her little baby voice.

I try to swallow down the lump in my throat, "I missed you too baby"

We just lay there in comfortable silence enjoying eachother's presence, as shes just laying on me and dragging her finger on me as she draws small things on my ribs with her hand inside my shirt I memorize this feeling, I memorize everything about her, the way she smells, the way she sometimes tries to match her breathing with mine, the way her heartbeat rises when I move or I give her a kiss, the way it feels to feel her heartbeat, the way she has certain small tics when she's too still, the way her hair is almost always messy, the way she looks up at me every little while to check if I'm still awake, the way she sometimes brings up the funniest and weirdest things, the way she sometimes just randomly smiles, I memorize how it feels to have her whole weight on me, i memorize the way i am truly deeply in love with this girl, I memorize it all for the last breath that I will take someday.

"Baby" after almost a hour of just laying in silence she finally breaks it.

I hum in response.

"What was it that you wanted to talk about?"

"Baby..." I take a deep breathe and than let it out, "just know that if you want to leave me it's okay I will completely understand"

"Baby its okay if you're pregnant, I kinda was getting suspicious of you having a thing with Chris but never did I think you'd have sex with him, I mean I did kinda like know that someday you'd cheat on me with someone better but never with a guy"

I smile as I watch her go on and on.

"No baby i-"

"Its okay baby, you don't have to keep the baby and even if you do than we can get through it together, we always get through everything together, you being pregnant is just another bump down the road of our life together, I've kinda been thinking about us having babies earlier than most people anyways"

I than get sad knowing that we won't actually be able to have kids and have a family, hell we won't even be able to start one before I die.

I cut her off again, "baby, please listen to me" I say with more concern so she knows that I'm serious.

She stops talking and than sits up and looks at me, "okay" is all she says as she just looks at me waiting for me to speak again.

"Baby i- baby I'm sick"

"No shit" she says as she giggles.

I smile at the sound of her cute giggles but than my smile falters remembering what are conversation is about to be in a second.

"Baby.." her smile falters when she sees my expression and looks down at her hands as she nervously plays with them, "I have cancer" I say it as fast as I can before I freeze up again or come up with a excuse or something.

She looks back up at me, "why would you joke about that?" She says with a forced laugh and forced smile.

My expression only gets sadder so than she realizes that I'm not joking.

"My dad and I found out the day or your birthday, when he took me to get checked out, the doctor couldn't find a reason of why I was sick the way I was until he sent me to a more high up place, they scanned me and found a tumor in my brain, they told me that I am already on stage four, which means that I only have a year to eighteen months, they told me that if I would have gone in sooner I would have had more than eighteen months to live, that night we got some meds cause I wanted to go see you, I wanted to run to you and tell you but than i remembered it was your birthday, how could i do that to you on your birthday?"

She just stays silent looking my way but not really looking at me, she has a look that I fell in love with when she looks at me, and she has a look when shes looking at something but not really looking at it, and she has that look right now, she's lost in her own thoughts.

I decide to continue, "I was gonna tell you the next day but I just couldn't, everytime we face timed you had such a big smile and it hurt me to even think of taking that smile off of your face, I finally decided to stay at the hospital so they can give me as much of everything as possible to keep me alive longer than three months, I wanted to tell you now before I have to go in to the hospital"

By now I already had tears running down my face and I didn't even know if she heard all that I said, cause she still was just lost in her own thoughts.

After a minute she just nods and lays back down on me with her head on my chest.

I feel her heartbeat beating so fast like if she was running but she wasn't, I put my hand on her head and brush it through her hair, "it's okay baby, we'll get through this" I reassure her hoping that it'll calm her big little baby heart.