Alexa's POV

I start to wake up and I realize that theres no weight on my chest which means Elizabeth's head isn't on me anymore.

I close my eyes again and turn to my side and reach out hoping she's laying there, when I feel nothing but cold empty sheets my eyes open and I jolt up.

"Liz?" My voice is all rough and filled with sleep.

I get up not even caring that I still have no clothes on, my feet hit the cold floor and it makes goosebumps run throughout my whole body, I walk into the bathroom and she's not there.

I walk fast to the kitchen and she's not there, I look in the living room and only my clothes are on the floor, i run to the lounge room and she's not there either, i run to the pool and hot tub room and she's not there either, I run up to the gym room and she's not there either.

I walk over to the window and look outside and realize her car is already gone.

I walk back to my bedroom and grab a oversized t-shirt and put it on, I sit on the bed for a while and my mind starts to wander... "was any of this actually real? Or was... am I just going crazy?"

I put my face in my hands and rest my elbows on my legs, I than hear my phone get a notification and decide to just check my phone, maybe she left me a message.

I go to grab it and realize there is a little note by my phone, I pick it up and read it.

-note view-

Hey Alexa, last night was... it was a mistake I have a girlfriend, you and I both knew that and we still ended up having sex, I shouldn't have met you in your house.

I hope you understand, thanks for clearing some stuff up though, I hope everything goes good in your life and you fall in love with someone who does good for you.

-end of note view-

I drop it and just lay back down, suddenly sleep sounds so good, I just fall asleep.

A few hours later I wake up with the sun shining in my eyes, "ugh barely 2 pm?" I get up and close the curtains and turn the light off and close the door, I grab my phone and see a message from Elizabeth.

Elizabeth: I'm sorry.

I decide to text her.

Me: you and I both know it wasn't just sex, don't say it wasn't to me, you can say what ever you want to everyone else including yourself but not to me.

I mute her chat and lay back down to sleep.

Elizabeth's POV:

Alexa: you and I both know it wasn't just sex, don't say it wasn't to me, you can say what ever you want to everyone else including yourself but not me.

I sigh knowing that it wasn't just sex, but I can't go back to her, I'm already with emily and I don't want to hurt emily, she waited all these years for me and was willing to take my children in as her own.

I undress myself and only put on some silky shorts and a silky tank top and lay down to sleep for a bit.

As I close my eyes all I see are happy memories flashing back and forth of Lexa and I.

I open my eyes and turn to my side and close my eyes, and than I see sad memories of us.

I sit up and let all the weight off of my shoulders as I cry.

I feel something vibrating and look to my side and see my phone under the sheet light up.

I grab it and realize Emily is face timing me, I quickly wipe my tears away and smile as I answer her call.

"Hey baby" Emily says with a large grin on her face.

"Hey" I say as I try to smile and act all excited.

"What's wrong?" She asks and puts more attention on me.

"I- I slept with someone last night"

"You... what?"

"I'm sorry" I start to cry even more.

"What else?"

"What?" I ask confused and start to wipe my tears away.

"I know you aren't just crying cause you cheated on me, sooo what else is it?"

"Why are you so calm?"

"Hey, I'm asking the questions here"

"I don't know why else im crying" I say sincerely.

"Do you... do you love her?"

"Why do you assume I slept with a girl?"

"Cause I know who you slept with, I saw your face when that girl called you like a week ago, the way you almost teared up when you heard her voice and the way you let out a breathe of relief"

"I- what?"

"You're in love with her, aren't you?"

"I-" I sit and think and it all makes sense now, I am in love with her and I love her with all my heart, "yes i do love her and I'm in love with her"

"Than go tell her Elizabeth! Get your ass out of bed and go tell her before it's too late"

"But- what about you?"

"I'll be okay Alexa, I knew you were holding back with me, if she makes you happy than go get her, send these next few days with her and than I'll buy you a ticket to come back and get your kids and I'll also buy you three tickets to go back"

"But.."

"No buts! I want you to be happy, some day I'll find someone who I will be madly in love with like you are with that girl, but for now i will be okay, plus it would be what your sister would want"

Her mentioning my sister after not talking about her or my family in years makes me tear up.

"Go get your girl Elizabeth!" Emily says as she pumps her fist up in the air.

"Thank you so much Emily!"

I hang up and run down the hall that has never felt longer until now, as I reach the door I grab my house and car keys and run out, I run down the steps and than remember that I didn't lock up the house so I run back and lock the doors.

I run down and into my car and drive off to her house.

As I get to a red light I text her and tell her that I'm going to her house and that I have something important to tell her.

Once I reach her house and park, I look at my phone and see that she hasn't even looked at my message.

I get out and the cold finally hits me and I realize that I'm still in my pajamas.

I walk up to her door and ring the bell, I get no answer after a minute so I ring again, and again and again, I start to get worried so I just go inside, as I walk down the hallway my feet seem to already know where they're going.

First I check the living room, and I don't see her there so I go to the kitchen and theres nothing but a empty bottle of tequila.

I than decide to skip the bathrooms and guest rooms that are along the hallways and go directly to her room, as I reach her bedroom door I realize that she has blasting music on in there.

TW: Self harm ahead!

I open the door and I see her on her bed doing something on her thigh, she doesn't seem to see me yet, I look at her nightstand and realize that theres another half empty tequila bottle.

I walk over to her and she finally realizes I'm next to her, she just looks up at me and I can see her blood shot eyes mixed with teared eyes.

She just looks back down and I realize that she is swaying a little from being drunk, I than realise that she is cutting herself.

I panic and pull her hand away, I take the blade away from her and she just looks at me and gets out of her bed, I look at her confused as she walks over to her bathroom.

I follow her and she opens a drawer and takes out another blade, I take it away as well and open the drawer and realize theres still two more, "what the fuck Alexa!"

"Wha leave me alonnee" damn she's drunk as hell.

I put the blades high up on a shelf that she can't reach and grab her hand and walk over to her bed, I grab her phone and turn the music off.

"What the fuck liz!?"

"What? I'm just trying to take care of you"

"Leave me the fuck alone, and go back to your stupid girlfriend!"

She slaps me and I just stand there, knowing I deserve it, she than pushes me and pushes me again and smacks me, she goes to push me again but instead I grab her and hug her.

"I'm sorry, i know i put you through so much, but i realized that i love you!"

"No! You fucking hurt me! Over and over again! You broke me so much! Yiu can't just come back and say that you're sorry!" She than starts to sob and my heart breaks as I see what I've done to her.

"I know I did, I know that sorry isn't just gonna fix all that I've done, but I wanna make it up to you, I wanna be here for you every day, everyday I will love you and care for you, i will always remind you how much i love and appreciate you!"

"I love you too, but my heart hurts" she says between sobs.

"Shhhh, it's okay baby, I'll make it up to you, I promise, " I kiss the top of her head she looks up and I see her eyes red and puffy and my heart breaks even more, she gets on her tippy toes and pulls me in to kiss her, i connect our lips and it makes butterflies erupt in my stomach, "c'mon baby, let's get you cleaned up, that alcohol smell is really hurting my nose"

She smiles and nods as her eyes start to fill with sleep.

"Undress yourself as I clean up a little in here baby" she nods and starts to undress herself.

I take the alcohol and junk food out of the room and into the kitchen and spray some stuff in her room and open up her windows to let it all air out.

Once I'm done I walk into the bathroom and Alexa is just sitting on the floor with only her shirt off, "what happened?"

"I can't take my clothes off" she starts to sniffle like a little baby.

I giggle and help her up, I undress her and turn the hot water on, as she stands up I realize that she can actually barely even stand up alone, I undress myself and feel embarrassed as I see her just giggle and stare at me.

"What?" I ask

"You're beautiful" I smile and help her into the shower, I help her shower and when it comes to her legs I do it carefully with the new cuts on her thighs.

I help her out and grab two towels for us both and dry us both off, I walk us over to her closet and I grab some baggy shorts for myself and a big t-shirt and another big t-shirt for her, just no shorts so it won't rub on her cuts.

I dress her and than dress myself, I lay her in bed and walk to the kitchen and grab a cup of water and a aspirin and walk back to her.

I set the stuff on the nightstand and walk into her bathroom and grab some stuff to disinfect her cuts and a bandage and some gauze, I walk back and kiss her forehead, I give her the water and the pill.

"Here baby, swallow this and it will make you feel a little better"

With her eyes half closed she takes it and swallows the pill, I than pull up the shirt and my cheeks get up as my eyes linger to her pussy, I look back down to her thighs and put the disinfectant on her cuts and luckily this stuff doesn't make it sting.

I put the gauze on her thighs and than wrap the bandages around her thighs.

I than go and get her toothbrush and toothpaste and grab a big bowl from her kitchen, I put the toothpaste on her toothbrush and help her brush her teeth, she rinses her mouth with the extra water from the pill, and spits it in the bowl.

"Look baby, this is gonna be right here on the floor in case you gotta throw up, okay?"

She nods sleepily and I set it down.

I put her toothbrush and toothpaste away and fill up the cup of water again and set it on her nightstand incase she gets thirsty in the middle of the night.

I kiss her forehead and go to walk out, "wait" I hear her small baby voice, I turn around and see her pouting.

"Don't leave me" she says again with her baby voice.

I smile and walk over to her bed and get in on the side of her, I kiss her forehead, "i wont baby" she than pulls me in to kiss her, she connects our lips and I can feel her smile through the kiss, it stays gentle and lovingly.

She pulls away and says goodnight, I repeat it to her and I lay down on my back, I feel shuffling and than feel her cuddle up to me, I turn to my side and open my arms, she than lays her head on my chest with her arm and leg over my body and I wrap my arms around her small body.

She soon dozes off into sleep as her breathing slows down, I than doze off very happily and comfortably after knowing she is asleep.