Her jaw drops and she runs over to me and hangs on my legs for her dear life and before I know it the other two are clinging onto me as well.

The room is filled by our sobs, just like my nephews they try to speak but they can't cause they keep getting interrupted by their own sobs.

Every now and than they cry out a "I missed you" or "Alexa" or "where have you been?"

After a moment of calming down we all sit in the living room and talk, they tell me about how it's been a so miserable for them without me and it makes me feel like a absolute dick.

"Sometimes I dream of you" Jessica says out of the blue.

"Really?"

"Mhmm sometimes I dream that we're playing hide and seek but i can never find you, and other times i dream about all the good times we had together"

I can't seem to find the right words, than hannah and tessa both start telling me about their dreams as well.

My sister didn't mind that I told them I'm gay, so I decide to tell them about Elizabeth except the parts of us having sex.

When I tell them I like girls they have a big smile and say that they kinda knew and that its okay, and jessica in fact tells me she likes girls too.

So jessica and I both talk a lot about how pretty girls are and tessa and hannah argue and say that guys are cuter.

After a little while of us bickering, we all give up and watch a movie together.

Jessica sits on my lap and tessa and hannah sit on either sides of me holding my hands and my eyes tear up by missing this feeling.

The sun shines in my eyes which causes me to wake up, I try to sit up but realize that something is on me, it makes me feel claustrophobic and I start to panic until I look down and realize I fell asleep on the sofa with my nieces and we're all still in the same positions as last night.

My stomach grumbles reminding me that I didn't eat yesterday.

I stand up making sure not to wake any of them up and lay jessica back down on the couch.

I make myself some cereal and eat it real quick, soon after hannah wakes up and makes herself some as well, than jessica wakes up and than tessa.

They all eat and complain that I'm leaving, I promise that I'll go back and visit them sometime soon and that makes them happy enough to let me go.

Not before each one of them hug me and give me lost of kisses on my cheeks and forehead, and two of them end up crying while the other just tears up, making me be on the verge of crying.

"Tell your mom I said thanks"

"Okay, but you promise you'll come see us soon?" Tessa asked with hopeful eyes.

"Yeah you promise?" Both hannah and jessica asked in unison.

I smiled warmly and just with that it helped their tense little bodies relax a little, "I promise" I said and blowed them a kiss as I walked to the door and slipped put before they asked more questions.

I get in the car and as I'm backing out of their driveway I remember that I forgot my charger.

What ever I'll get it later, I don't want to end up staying a while more, I'm gonna go home and try to get a hold of Elizabeth.

Once I park in the driveway of my old home I check my phone for the first time since the day before yesterday.

As I scroll through my messages not wanting to answer any yet until I talk to Elizabeth, I than go through Instagram to see if maybe she sent me something or posted something.

I freeze when I see a post of a neet two story house with her and her boys posing in front of it and under it she wrote "new country, new view, new me, new us."

She actually moved to a new country!?

I than realize it was posted yesterday in the morning, than I remember that my family was whispering about something early in the morning when I woke up.

DID THEY KNOW ABOUT THIS!!?

I swear I'm gonna be so fucking pissed if Bianca knew about this and didn't tell me, but right now I gotta calm down and get a hold of Elizabeth.

Before I decide to text her I look at her story and suddenly feel sick to my stomach, I feel so broken that I feel nauseous, I feel like I can't breathe and I suddenly feel like being in the car is to little space, I feel like I gotta get out.

Surprisingly without my eyes tearing up even the least bit, i get out of my car shook, i walk to the front door, but it feels like hours as I walk to it.

Once I finally reach the door my hand feels heavy as I reach up to the doorknob to open it.

I walk in and one person at a time realizes my presence, I just sit down and I stare out the window, not really looking at it, more so lost in a trance of thoughts.

I jump when someone puts their hand on my shoulder, and than realize that tears are streaming down my face, she's gone, she moved and is dating someone else.

Bianca looks at me apologetically, and than I put two and two together and realize she knew about this.

"You...," I look down at my hands in my lap and look back up at her forwarding my eyebrows,"knew about this?"

She sigh, "I was gonna tell you but.. you- i- how am I supposed to tell someone who is in love with someone else- that- that the person their in love with- with moved... on?" She says stuttering through her words.

I look at her blankly and just stand up and walk out of the house, I walk back to my car and get in, having forgotten I left the car on this whole time.

As I back out I see Bianca at the front of the porch just staring at me with tears in her eyes.

I back out and drive, I keep driving, and driving and driving before I knew it its been a few hours and I am now driving into the town where I now live and also Elizabeth.

I zone out again and before I know it I'm driving up to Elizabeth's house, I burst into tears.

I felt safe in her presence, she made me smile without having to try, she made me laugh so hard my cheeks hurt, I haven't felt this way in so long and now she's gone.

After a minute I calm down and I grab my phone and dial her number.

It rings three times and on the fourth she picks up, only to realize its not her, which I'm guessing its her girlfriend.

"Hello? Hello..??" She asks

"Who is it babe?" I hear Elizabeth's voice in the background.

"I don't know, maybe it's just some creep" she doesn't have my number registered in her phone anymore? Wow she's really over me.

"Uhmm..." I suddenly say.

"Who is this?" Her gf asks.

"It's..." should I lie? Should I just hang up? Should I play it off and say I dialled the wrong number? All these thoughts ran through my head, than suddenly my lips just decided to say what ever it felt like, "Alexa... Elizabeth knows who I am"

"She said she's Alexa and you know her?"

I hear shuffling and than, "Lexa?" That alone just made me tear up, hearing her voice always calmed me.

"Liz?"

"Why are you calling me?" I now realize she sounds cold and mad.

"Wha- what do yo- you mean? You just up and left, I have questions like lots of them"

"Yeah well you lost the privilege of that when you never came back to me, when you blocked me on all your socials and never even called me, and especially when you told me to never talk to you again" she sounded colder and angrier after every word she spoke.

"Wha- what are you talking about liz?"

"DON'T! Don't play that stupid little game with me now that you're just lonely, what? Did you and your gf break up and now you're running after me!?" Damn wtf did I do to her?

"Lizzie..." I said softly

"No! I'm just wasting time here... goodbye!"

Before she could hang up I rushed to tell her to call me later and I'll explain everything, and told her that I don't have my charger with me and my ok phone is now dying.

After that she hung up, I went to a 24/7 open store and bought a charger, I went to my home and luckily I had spare keys on my car keys.

As i walked in it felt as if it had been a week since i left but in reality it was only about two days.

I go to my room and plug up my phone, I go into my walk in closet and grab only a oversized t-shirt and walk into the bathroom.

Only wanting a hot shower at the moment, I turn the water on hot and discard my clothes, I open the door to the shower and close it as I get in.

As the hot water hits my body my tensed muscles finally relax, i finally take a deep breath and let my mind stay in only happy thoughts.

Once I'm done washing off all the soaps from my body and all the shampoo out of my hair i decide not to out any conditioner in just wanting to sleep already.

Once I turn the water off the sudden coldness fills the room, I slide open the door to the shower and wrap myself up into a towel and than wrap one into my hair, as I'm drying my body off I hear a faint music coming from my room.

I suddenly realize it's my phone ringing, I open the bathroom door and sprint to my phone as fast as possible, without checking the caller ID already expecting it to be from elizabeth I answer.

"Hello?" I ask enthusiastically.

"Bitch what the fuck! You've been gone for like seven hours were the fuck are you!?"

Bianca, shit I forgot I just up and left.

"I uh..."

"You went back didn't you?" Damn this bitch really knows me.

"Okay yes, but I'll be going back tomorrow and I'll explain everything-" before I can finish what I'm saying Bianca interrupts me.

"Wait something happened?"

"Yes and no, I'll explain when I get back, byeeeeee" before she can answer I hang up not wanting to hear her say something and than give me a big ass lecture.

I go back to the bathroom and take the towel from my hair and realize I left the other towel just on the floor, I hang them up and put on my oversized t-shirt.

I put my used clothes into the dirty laundry and walk back to my room, I get into bed and turn on my TV and decide to watch some Netflix while I wait for elizabeth to hopefully call back.

After three episodes of friends I start to slowly doze off into sleep, I jump when my phone rings, this time I check the caller ID making sure it is Elizabeth.

Once i see her name i answer, "hello?"

"Look, I've thought about it.. i don't want to hear about anything over the phone-"

Before she can finish her sentence I interrupt her being to anxious," but how else will you be able to-"

She than interrupts me," just listen to me, god damn, I'm going back to pick up a few things and figure some stuff out, in exactly a week, I don't want to talk the day I get back, I'll be available the next day"

"Okay but-"

"Please just listen, I will see you in eight days, I want to see you alone and I'll text you at what time and where we will meet, you will explain and after that I will decide weather I forgive you or not"

Before I can even answer she hangs up.

After a restless night I go back home explain everything to Bianca and live my life for the next week spending it with my family and especially with the little ones, and some times with my friends, than I came back to wake up the next day to a text from Elizabeth just as she promised there were all the instructions of what were and what time.

Surprisingly she didn't exactly tell me a place, more so of asked for a place where there is no people at all, so I decided to offer my house and she again surprised me and agreed.

She said she'd be here in a hour so I rush to take a quick shower brush my teeth and dress up, just not so much and not to little, lately I've been using a lot of jewelry, so I put on some rings and some necklaces and a checker necklace, some earrings and my lip ring that i doubt she knew about.

My hair naturally curls up into it's natural curls it sometimes curls into and I quickly put some perfume on as I hear the doorbell ring.

I walk over to the door and open it, my eyes soften as I see her standing right in front of me, I blink back tears that I could feel creeping up on me, I than take her all in, her beautiful staright black hair, her beautifully green eyes staring back at me, her lip curved up into a slight smile, she's wearing a slowly belly shirt and some high top ripped jeans, with a cute bucket hat, and loop earrings.