I wake up from the sun shining into my eyes from the crack of the curtains.

I stretch my limbs and yawn the sleep away as much as possible, I turn to my side expecting Bianca to still be asleep since she usually sleeps in really late, but than realize she's not there.

I get up and walk out of my room and down the hallway, as I walk into the living room I hear whispers going around and see two of my brothers, my mom and Bianca whispering stuff to eachother.

It seems pretty sketchy to me so I decide to ask, "what yall whispering about?"

They all snap their heads towards me in surprise probably not hearing me walk in.

Bianca jumps in before anyone, "Oh, we were just talking we didn't want to wake you up so we tried to keep our voices down"

"Oh... okayy" I just go and sit down and feel eyes on me so I look around and realize my brothers are looking at me.

Once they see I'm looking at them they avert their gaze elsewhere.

"Uh lexa, everyone wants to see you today if you have the time and feel social enough to"

"I guess maybe that'll keep my mind busy for a while before I start to try to find Elizabeth again"

After taking a shower I decided to unblock everyone I had blocked and received a fuck load of messages.

Some of them were recent ones of people saying that they wanted to see me.

I decided to just ignore them and go see my little nephews and nieces before I see everyone else.

Finally I go and I see my two nephews cause my third nephew is in another country with his mom.

As i reach my brothers house i pause for a minute trying to take deep breaths to calm myself down, I know I shouldn't be but I'm super nervous to see my nephews and especially the youngest, my hand reaches out to grab the doorknob as my heart pumps faster than it should.

My hand slightly shakes, I finally just swallow and grab the doorknob turning it and walking in, earlier my brother had told me how his sons have been acting up since I left but has only gotten worse these last couple of months.

Especially the youngest one which is three, I walk in and hear the familiar sound of the tv playing and the boys fighting over something.

I walk down the hall and into the living room and my eyes water up as soon as I see them, it's been a few months and they already have grown way too much.

They keep on fighting until I accidentally make a noise by trying to suppress my cries, first Elliot sees me, he let's go of the toy that they were fighting over and than Enzo looks over and sees me.

They both are stood frozen in their spot first enzos eyes get glossy than tears stream down his face as he runs to me and tears pool out of mine as I drop to my knees as he jumps into my arms.

Than Elliott runs to me and hugs me as tears stream down his cheeks as well, both of them choking over their sobs to try to say my name but they can't even finish the first letter before they're sobbing again.

After a long while we finally all are able to calm down and talk and catch up, and than we sit and play and than we sit and watch some cartoons.

After a while both the kids fall asleep on either sides of me on the couch, I call my brother and tell him that I'm gonna be leaving now, a few minutes later he comes back as I'm barely done tucking them in.

We talk for a few minutes and he tells me that hes surprised they're asleep at 5pm but than I tell him that they're probably tired from all the crying we done and admit that I'm pretty tired too.

After we bid our goodbyes I drive over to my sisters house to see my nieces.

My sister does the same as my brother and leaves the house to give us our privacy which I greatly appreciate.

I feel even more nervous than my nephews cause they're younger and didn't completely understand why I left, but my nieces are old enough to have understood that i left them for my right, and that must've been shity for them.

Without thinking too much about it i open the door, and unlike my brothers house, my sisters house is more open so when you walk into the front door than you are already stepping into the living room.

As I walk in I make as little noise as possible, I realize that all three of the girls are sitting right in front of the tv on their knees and getting along with eachother, which my sister said is rare since I left.

Basically all the little ones gave my siblings a very hard time cause they were all super attached to me, they all laugh at a funny part on the cartoon that their watching and it makes my eyes tear up even though i didn't think i could cry anymore today.

The door closes slowly by the breeze and makes a small click which makes the youngest looks back probably thinking that it's their parent's.