"WHAT!?"

I start to pace around thinking of why she would do that.

I finally snap out of it when someone puts their hand on my back, "hey, what's wrong?"

"She's gone Bianca" my voice cracks as I try to keep in the tears that are threatening to poor out.

Bianca just stands there hopeless not knowing what to do, "we'll find her"

"How?" My voice cracks again.

"I promise we will, but right now we needa put our heads on straight and get in the car relax and call your brothers up and tell them that you'll explain everything when you get there"

I just nod as some tears silently fall down my cheeks.

After a while of Bianca driving and trying to get my mind off of Elizabeth I decide to call my brother Daniel, "LEXA!?" he asks with nothing but hope in his voice.

Without warning I breakdown by hearing his voice for the first time in months, "alexa, what's wrong?" He asks, with his voice now more softer.

"I'm going back to see you guys for a while, I'll explain everything than" I say during sobs.

"REALLY!?" he asks with pure enthusiasm which makes me feel a little better.

"Yes, we should be there in a hour"

"We?"

"Bianca and i"

"Okay I'm not gonna ask anything else until you come back home"

"Yeah... home" the word home while thinking of going back to that place just echoes in my mind like if it didn't seem right to call it home anymore.

"I'll see ya when you get back, love you stay safe!"

"Love you too" my voice cracks a little realizing how much I missed exchanging those words with him... I've always looked up to him more than any of my siblings, I just hope he understands and supports me and isn't putting on a act right now just to get me back to hell.

I wake up to someone slightly shaking me awake, "lexa, we're here" bianca whispers, I hadn't even realized I'd fallen asleep.

I don't say anything as to why she's still here instead of why she's home and just let her do what she wants, we both get out of the car and she grabs my hand and squeezes it to try to comfort me.

The more we get closer to my house in the more I realize how much nerves I have inside of me, Bianca squeezes my hand again to try to come from me and remind me that she is still here for me.

I take a deep breath and try to open the door with my hand shakes too much, Sol Bianca opens the door for me.

As soon as the door opens I realize all eyes are on me, I take a deep breath and before I know it everyone is hugging me.

I let out a breath of relief and my eyes start to water up as I hear everyone's familiar voices saying how much they missed me and that they were worried and that they love me.

After a long while of me explaining everything to them they all stay silent, my mom stands up and walk over to me, "find out where she is... you can't lose the person you are deeply in love with" she says with her eyes watering up as she smiles sadly at me.

After a minute or so of talking to my mother I leave the room and call Elizabeth, it sends directly to voice mail which means either she changed her number or she has no service.

I text her on all her social media and try to call her through snapchat but it doesn't go through.

I pace around not knowing what to do until I finally just sit down and silently cry, not being able to hold anything else in i just cry and cry letting it all out as silently as possible.

I decide to look her up in Instagram and surprisingly her account isn't private so I look at her profile and her story, theres no new posts but she does have something on her story.

I open it and it's a boomerang of her and her sons on a airplane and it says "ready to take off".

She's smiling and all but I can't find the sparkle that I usually can find very easily in her eyes... she's not happy.

She posted it two hours ago so maybe she's just on a long flight...

"Where is she flying to?" I jump by the sudden sound of Bianca and get confused by her question.

"You were speaking outloud again" she says as she tries her hardest not to laugh.

After I catch bianca up I also decide to catch my family up, than I offer bianca a ride home but she insists that she spends the night with me in case Elizabeth calls me and I freak out which I totally will.

Than Bianca goes to sleep since i had a nap on the way coming than i wasn't so sleepy, i stayed up talking to my family everyone catching me up, and every now and than I hear a apology from them.

One by one they start to leave to go to sleep and since some of them have their own house and family they leave to go to their home.

Soon it ends up being just my mom and I sitting in silence not knowing what to say to eachother.

She takes a deep breath and looks at me with sad eyes, "i don't expect you to forgive me for all what I've done for you but I just want you to know that I am so deeply sorry for all the wrong that I done to you"

I tear up by hearing that, I never thought I'd actually hear those words come out from her mouth and much less them being forwarded to me.

I sigh knowing that I can't just leave her without a response, "it will take time but I know someday I will completely forgive you and let you in again"

She smiles at me and hugs me, it makes me flinch at first expecting her to smack me but than I melt into her touch realizing how much I've missed her hugs, I haven't had one since I was 8 years old.

When I was eight my dad and mom divorced and that's when she became abusive.

"I hope you find Elizabeth, she sounds like a very sweet girl" she says as she stands up, "it's late we should sleep and try again tomorrow"

I just nod and she walks to her room leaving me alone with nothing but my thoughts.

I decide to take a hot shower and lay down with Bianca not worrying about anything else tonight and worry about it tomorrow.

As I'm finally dozing off into sleep I feel Bianca shuffling a little which wakes me up, "hey" she says realizing I finally came to bed.

"Hey" I smile at how she's squinting her eyes like if there was lights on.

She smiles and kisses my forehead, "don't worry so much" she turns back around and Instantly falls back asleep judging by the way her breathing slows down.

Soon after I doze off into sleep.