"Are you okay?" She sat up grabbing my waist.

- Flashback -

She grabbed my waist sitting up and resting her back on the headboard with me still straddling her lap "are you okay, baby?"

I sighed "yeah" in reality I wasn't okay, I was far from being okay, we've been fuck buddies for about 2 months now, but it's hard for me when I've been in love with her for a year now.

"What's going on in that pretty head of yours?" She put a lose strand of hair behind my ear and cupped my face with her hand... and that's why she makes it hard to not catch feelings for her.

"Nothing, just family issues" I lied, it's sad how often I have to lie to her to not scare her away.

"Hmm, well let me take those thoughts out of there and replace them with ones that will be so hot they get burned away" she started kissing down my neck pulling me closer to her.

Her solution to everything is sex and I mean it's great, the sex with her is great, but sex isn't the only thing I want.

"I actually gotta get home before my mom calls me and I get a punishment" I lied... again, my mom does punish me and beat me when she knows I'm not at Biancas house but if Biancas mom tells her I'm not there than I get a punishment, it was currently 2am and Biancas mom does think I'm at her house so I actually don't have a actual reason to leave.

"You're lying to me... again"

"I'm not" another lie

"Just tell me what's wrong"

BEACUSE IM IN LOVE WITH YOU!

Is what I so badly wanted to say, but instead I said, "Because I don't want anymore scars than what I already have from my mother"

"Okay" she let go of me, "leave, like you always do"

"We're just fuck buddies man!" I got off of her and put my clothes on.

"You're right, that's all we are"

Yeah, that is all we are, I looked at her one last time and walked out.

- End of Flashback -

"Yeah, I just came here to do my job is all" it was my job, if she wanted commitment than I'm out cause I don't want anything to do with anyone, atleast not so soon after losing the person I fell in love with.

"Right...uhmm.... it's right there" she pointed to the door to the far left, and just now I started to realize just how big and beautiful her room was, (I'm not gonna describe it cause its gonna be to hard so use your imagination, ty)

I got up and walked over to the restroom, I closed the door and instantly turned the water on letting it run hit for a bit.

I felt numb, I wanted to cry but I couldn't.

I walked into the shower closing the glass see through door, the water instantly making all my tensed muscles relaxed.

"Hey uhm, can I join you?"

"Sure boss" I don't know why I was starting to get frustrated.

She opened up the door to the restroom and closed it and I could hear her footsteps get closer, she opened up the shower door and closed it and than she put her hands on either side of my waist and gave me goosebumps from feeling the coldness of her fingers.

"You may have been done with me daddy, but I'm not done with you" she whispered into my ear as she pressed her front on my back and I could feel her erect buds on my back making me want to touch her.

I didn't even realize that she had pressed me up against the wall, she started kissing down my neck, she turned me around and started kissing me, she picked me up and I wrapped my legs around her waist, she instantly took one of my boobs in her mouth and i unwrapped my legs from her waist and got back down on my feet.

I spun us around so she was the one against the wall, "You didn't ask daddy permission" I wrapped my hand around her throat putting some pressure on it making her moan, "we're done here, but next time I see you, there will be a punishment" I smirked and turned the water off.

I stepped out of the shower and grabbed a towel wrapping it around me and grabbed another to dry my hair a little.

I went to the room and grabbed what I had of my clothes in there and put them on, I walked over to the living room gathered the remaining of my clothes and put them on and grabbed all my belongings, went to the entrance of the door and put my air force one on and as I was stepping out of the house,

"Wait" I turned around and she only had her towel around her body.

"You make me want to fuck you all over again" I looked at her up and down taking my bottom lip in between my teeth and smirking at her.

She blushed and looked down at herself.

"Look, just text me when you want me to come back" I smiled at her and I wanted to kiss her but I wasn't nothing more but sex to her so I turned around and went back to my hotel.

I looked at the time when I parked and was amazed to see that it was two am, atleast the hotel is open until 3am so I was still able to go back in.

As I threw all my belongings on the floor I instantly wanted to change out of these clothes, I changed my lingerie and put on a long oversized tshirt.

I brushed my teeth took off all of my jewelry, layed down on my bed and plugged my phone up as I went through some messages.

"Holly fuck" she sent me 6,000 dollars for that, her offer was only 1,000-3,000 not 6,000 and not for each night, maybe she was paying me for the next few time or something.

Me: hey, i think you put a 6 instead of a 1

Sugar mommy: nope, it was just a really good job you done.

Right..

Me: oh, okay :)

Sugar mommy: I have tomorrow night free, can you come over than?

Me: Sure :)

I mean the more money I get the better cause than I'll be able to get my own apartment and I'll be able to get a good one.

Sugar mommy: at 8pm?

Me: Sure no problem ( ;

I turn my phone off and doze off into dream land in no time.

"Wake up baby" I heard her angelic voice.

I slowly open my eyes and see her on my side hooked up to all the same machines she's been hooked up to for the passed month, every day I feel like she gets paler and paler.

"I'm here baby girl" I whispered kissing our intertwined hands.

"I love you" I put her head on my chest and tried to swallow down the lump i had in my throat.

"I love you more princess" I whispered hoping she didn't hear how weak and shaky my voice sounded.

"I'm in love with you, I have been for a while now" the words I so badly wanted to hear back than were the ones I was scared to hear now.

"I've been in love with you for quite some time too baby girl" onky she doesn't know I've been in love with her for more than a year now. Falling in love with her was hard, but knowing that she fell in love with me too, and knowing we only had a little but of time left together until she died was even harder, possibly the hardest thing I've ever had to face.

"Baby.." she whispered her voice sounding shaky.

"Yes my love?" I cleared my throat trying to get the lump out of my throat.

"I'm hungry" I could hear a small giggle leave her mouth.

"When are you not?" I laughed hugging her a little tighter, "I'll go get you something, I'll be back"

I slowly removed myself from her and her hospital bed trying to not disconnect anything from her or all the machines surrounding her.

As I was about to walk away and out, she grabbed my wrist, every time she would do something like this I would get terrified thinking she knew that she was at her last breathe.

"I want a kiss from the love of my life" she pouted and gave me puppy dog eyes.

I chuckled and gave her a long kiss as I pulled away she cupped both sides of my face and with her thumbs she wiped away tears that I didn't even know had fallen.

She smiled weakly and let me go, every time I went out of that room I felt like I had to look back at her like of it was the last time, even if it was just to use the restroom.

So as i reached the doorknob i turned around and looked at her, realizing just how much she's changed physically broke a part of me that never got fixed, i smiled and walked out.

A few moments later i walked in and she was no longer on her bed, instantly dropping the food i had gotten feeling dizzy, sick to my stomach.

I jolted up realizing i was crying in my sleep from all the tears on my eyes and on my pillow, it's been a while since I've had a dream of her and our last days together.

Not wanting to have those thoughts in my head I went to the restroom and decided to take a shower and get ready for the day.