I felt so nice and so light hearted after talking to Sania. She is so kind hearted and told me everything truthfully. When she told me that she does not hate me I felt that I still have a chance, and maybe she still loves me but I am not sure if I am right..

I was so overwhelmed with her words and I desperately wanted to hug her. I was not sure if she would allow me to touch her. But to my surprise on my request she did hugged me. She hugged me so tight and I could literally feel her heartbeat..

I sniffed her scent and slowly muttered,"I missed your chocolaty and sweety smell.."which she did not hear because I purposely muttered slowly.

She broke the hug and ran away and I kept looking at her retreating figure and smiled thinking,'She is so shy from me..' I thought and smiled looking at her running figure🥰🥰

Then even I went in my room, but could not sleep. I was just turning right and left on the bed because sleep was far away from my eyes.

I did some exercises which that

psychiatrist taught me but still I could not sleep. I could not disturb Sania again and again, So I was awake whole night and was just thinking all the things going on in my life.

Soon it was time for fajr prayers and I left my room to get a glass of water. While I was passing I did not find Sania's rooms light on.

'Did she not woke up for fajr Namaz.. or maybe couldn't wake up..?' 🤔🤔

'Should I knock and wake her up. Otherwise she might miss her prayers..' I thought and knocked on her door..

I was very nervous 'what if she gets angry on me for disturbing her sleep..? No..No Sania can never miss her fajr prayers..' I thought and knocked again..

Few seconds later the door opened and Sania was standing there so sleepy.

I looked at her and my eyes widened, she was not wearing her hijab... She might have not expected me to show up so early in the morning..

I immediately turned because I did not wanted to make her uncomfortable.. "I am sorry Sania.. I should not have knocked at your door so early in the morning.." I said feeling embarassed..

"No..its okey Rehan.. Just give me a second.." she said and ran inside the room.

In like two seconds she came back and said,"You can turn Rehan..

and its not your fault.. It was clearly my mistake I should have taken care of my hijab.." she said.

I nodded and said,"Actually I did not find your lights on, so thought that you might miss your fajr prayers.. therefore decided to knock.." I said hesitantly..

"Ohh, Thankyou so much Rehan, I would have really missed my prayers, because I dont know how but my alarm went off..." she said and smiled brightly..

I nodded and turn to go back when she said,"Rehan.."

I turned and looked at her, "Will you accompany me for fajr prayers.." she asked looking at me for an answer.. Actually I wanted to ask her the same, but was not having enough courage..

I nodded my head and she smiled so brightly... "Come fast I am waiting for you.." she said excited..

We both performed Wuzu and laid the praying mat in Sania's room itself..

"Rehan, will you lead Namaz.." she asked and I nodded.

I started reciting loudly and she was reciting slowly with me. I was feeling so good after reciting Namaz after so long. My heart which was not finding peace in anything was feeling contended..

We both completed Namaz and raised our hands for dua..I thanked Allah for all the things he gave me and also Apologized for the time I stopped praying to him..

I completed my prayers and looked at Sania. She got up and blew the duas on Sierra's face.

I folded the mat and said,"I will be going down.." I said and left from her room.

I came down and was thinking what should I do, I dont know how to cook and I cannot burden Sania by making her cook for me the whole time.

Just because she is ready to live with me that doesn't mean that I will take her for granted and make her work day and night..

I took the egg and was thinking how to make it.. My baba was right, even boys should learn cooking...you never know when you will require to cook for yourself..

I was in my thoughts when I had a pat on my shoulder.. I turned and saw that it was Sania and she was also holding Sierra.

I am so happy, today is the best day of my life.. I always had a dream to pray Namaz with my husband and today that dream came true..

I am really on cloud nine today.. Mashallah may Allah bless us everyday like this Inshallah..

I then woke my betu up, and she is so cute early in the morning.. She shows so many tantrums not to wakeup and I just love this side of her.

I could see my mini version in her as even I did not liked to wakeup early in the morning, and my mother was pissed from my habits of waking up late.

"Sierra I want our day to start with a good start so lets click some selfies.." I said to excite her so that she wakes up because she loves clicking selfies..

We took so many selfies in so many poses..

This one was my favourite because she did the tongue out by herself and said that she learnt it from her Rizwan uncle..

This Rizwan will teach all the new trends to my daughter..😂😂

I then carried her down because Rehan has already gone down, he might be waiting for breakfast..

As I was coming down I saw Rehan was looking at the egg and was figuring out something..

I felt like laughing looking at his expressions. He was looking so funny..

I patted his shoulder and he turned, "What are you doing Rehan..?" I tried to ask controlling my laughter..

"I.. I was actually trying to make breakfast.." he said hesitantly..

'Why he is becoming so awkward and hesitant towards me. He was not like this before..' I thought in my mind

"Actually I did not wanted you to feel burdened regarding me. So I thought to try cooking.." he said looking down.

"No Rehan, dont feel like this and its totally fine, I can cook for both of us..." I assured him but he was still not getting me..

So I took the pan from his hand and said,"You take care of Sierra and dont worry, I really dont mind cooking for you aswell.." I said and stood in front of stove and started preparing the eggs..

He did not said anything and just nodded and left taking Sierra in his arms.

We then had breakfast in silence after I finished preparing everything..

"Sania, I will be going to the I psychiatrist after breakfast.." he said while getting up after finished eating..

"Rehan dont forget to wear an extra coat it is snowing outside.." I said getting worried for him.

He nodded and went to change.

I again got busy with Sierra and then he came down all ready..

'Yaa Allah though he was not well, but still he managed to look handsome as hell.. The coat was looking so stunning on him. 🙈🙈'

'I just hope all womans out there dont eye my husband.. Because he is looking so hott.. 🥵🥵'

He came and bid bye to us and was going but Sierra was not ready to leave him, even she wanted to go out with her dadda...

I somehow took her in my arms and gestured Rehan to go, but she was still crying..

"Sierra Jaan see it is snowing outside.." I took her towards window and started showing her..

"Mumma Shieawa bant to gdo obt (Sierra want to go out).." she said getting excited looking out..

She is same like Rehan, very very stubborn..

"Okey Sierra Jaan, Mumma will take you out, but promise me we will come back in sometime after playing in snow..." I said..

She nodded her head with a big smile and I took her to change..

I made her wear a very fat coat and myself got dressed in warm clothes..

We both then went in lawn and it was fully covered in snow..

The view was so amazing.. Everywhere it was all white.. It was looking as if someone has but one coloured cloth on each and everything..

Sierra got so excited because she was viewing the snow for the first time..

We played so much and It was looking as if I was enjoying more than Sierra..

Because I just love snow.. back then in london also I used to just look outside the window to check if it was snowing..

Me and Sierra were playing like we were of same age.

We even tried to make snowman but again and again Sierra Jaan was breaking it by kicking him in his stomach.

And was laughing so loudly when I made a sad face after she used to break the snowman..

"Sierra Jaan Mumma will not make again, you are breaking it again and again.." I said in a complaining tone making a pout..

"Mumma Shieala ish wnjoin sho mush (Sierra is enjoying so much).." she said laughing loudly..

I kissed her,"You have become very naughty day by day.." I said tickling her and she laughed even more..

I then spotted Rehan standing in the corner. We were so busy playing that we did not notice when he came back...

He was looking at us and smiling..

I smiled at him and said,"Rehan join us..We are having lots of fun.." I said motioning him to come towards us.

"No Sania, I dont feel it would be appropriate.. You both enjoy.." He said and started going..

I ran towards him and clutched on his coat.."Rehan please accompany us..please.." I said trying my best to make him come with us. 'I was trying to involve him with us so that he does not feel left out but this man was not at all ready to co-operate..'

"Sania due to my presence you will not feel comfortable.." He said and started going up..

"Rehan why do you feel that you are making me uncomfortable It is nothing like that.." he nodded his head as a no.

"I know Sania, you still dont like me.." he said and went upstairs..

I was so confused by his sudden change in behaviour.

'I will never be able to understand this man, At one place he is apologizing to me and hugging me , And the next moment he is running away from me.

What is going on in his mind..' I thought in my mind

I looked behind and Sierra was playing alone. I went and took her back home..

"Lets go betu.. We will again come tomorrow okey.." I said and started taking her inside..

We then had dinner in silence and then went in our rooms..

Sierra Jaan was so tired that she had dinner and immediately slept.

I put her to bed and went to change my clothes.

'I guess that me still wearing hijab in front of him is maybe making him feel that I still have not accepted him as my husband.. So should I give him this right to look at me without hijab..' I got busy in my thoughts..

'But do I still believe him..? I think I can atleast give him a chance..' I am so confused..

I was in my thoughts when I heard "Mumma, Mumma.." I turned and saw Sierra Jaan.

She was saying Mumma while sleeping..

"Aww.. My betu is still remembering me while sleeping.." I said and kissed her cheeks

She smiled while sleeping and I hugged her to sleep, she hugged me more tightly and I smiled..

I will think about all that tomorrow.. But for now I am more than happy with my betu..😘😘😘 I said and kissed her forehead.."Good night Jaan.." I said and slept..