I was sitting and was crying thinking about Sania.. I have killed my own happiness with my own hands..

I was in my thoughts when I heard the door of my room opening. I did not looked up as I did not feel like talking to anyone.

'I know Rizwan might have come and now he will again start telling me to go and meet the doctor..' I thought..

I could hear footsteps coming towards me. But I kept looking down. I had cigarette in my hand which I was smoking continuously and was just looking towards the ground..

But I dont know why, I could again feel that smell.. That smell which still intoxicates me. The smell of my Sania...

That person came towards me and bent down to my level.. and kept staring at me for sometime.

I still did not raised up my gaze..

"Rehan.." I heard and immediately looked up..

I gazed up and completely froze..

I talked to Rizwan and decided to enter the room.

I was nearing Rehan and saw that he was smoking cigarette..And was sobbing continuously..I went towards him and looked at him.

He has changed so much, he had long hair and even his beard has been grown..He has dark circles under his eyes and he was only looking down..

He did not even bothered to see who has came to visit him..

I called him,"Rehan..." and as soon as he heard my voice he jerked his head up towards my direction..

His eyes filled with tears and he immediately hugged me.. My eyes widen, and he tightened his hold on my waist..

"Re..Reh.." I tried speaking but he interrupted and said,"" he said and start sobbing..

I tried to break the hug but he was not ready to leave me.. "Re..Rehan please, please leave me..." I said and he finally left me.

He again started looking down.. And the strange part was that he did not even once asked anything about where I was, or why did I came back..

He really needed a doctor.. Because he was looking really ill..

"Rehan we have booked your appointment with a psychiatrist.." I said..

"I dont want to go..." he said and again turned to sit in the same place..

I took hold of his wrist and turned him towards me.. "Rehan why are you doing this..? You are ill and you need a doctor.." I said and tried my best to make him understand.

He did not said anything but kept looking down.."Rehan look at me.." I said..

He did not even moved an inch.. and kept looking down,"Rehan I said look at me.." this time I told a bit angrily but did not to raise my voice.

He finally looked at me and he had tears in his eyes.."Rehan our daughter is in hospital.. She met with an accident..." I said and he kept hand on his mouth and started crying loudly..

"Shh.. dont cry, she is out of danger now..You have to be strong.. All this while you took your health for granted but not now.. Your company needs you..Your daughter needs you and even I.." I stopped myself from saying further and again continued..

"So tell me, Will you go to the psychiatrist...?" I asked hoping for a positive response..

He nodded and I smiled.. Mission successful...😊😊

I immediately called Rizwan and he entered the room. I informed him that Rehan is ready to meet the doctor and he was so happy..

He muttered me a small thankyou, and I assured him by blinking my eyes..

I then left the room and started leaving the house when Rizwan called me once again,"Sania.."

"Yes.." I replied and turned..

"Sania I am taking Rehan to the doctor now and I wanted to ask you that, Tomorrow Sierra is going to get discharge.

So will you accompany her in this house..? As we can not even leave Rehan alone in the house.." he said hesitantly..

"Rizwan for you I got ready to meet Rehan.. But I cannot live here.." I said still getting scared of Rehan's wrath..

"Sania you dont have to get scared of Rehan, he will not do anything like that again... He is already regretting his past actions.." he said and tried to assure me.

"No Rizwan.." I nodded my head in a no..

"See Sania try to understand, as you know Rehan has not been going to the office since two months and the whole work load is on me.. And if you will tell me to even take care of him and live with him, so I wont be able to handle both the things..

And Sierra will not leave you know. And as she has gone through an operation, she needs someone to take care of her.. And I am not telling you to forgive him. That is your decision, but atleast stay with him and Sierra, because only YOU CAN HEAL BOTH OF THEM.." he said and I looked at him.

"Will I be able to do it..?" I asked unsure if I could do it..

"Sania, only you can do it.. And this is your chance to also bring Rehan on the right path and again turn him towards Allah.. I am sure he wont be able to deny you as he is very sorry for you.." he said clearing my doubts.

We were talking when we heard footsteps of Rehan coming down the stairs.

He has lost all the confidence and dominance, he is not at all able to look up in the eyes of the people. And just keeps looking down as if he is ashamed to meet the eyes of the people...

"Rizwan I will get going, Sierra Jaan might have woken up.." I said to which he nodded.

As I turned to leave

Rehan called me out,"Sa..Sania will you, will you come back..?" his voice cracking because he was controlling his tears.

I tuned and looked at his face, he was still not looking at me..

"Rehan, Sania will stay with Sierra today, and tomorrow she will come after Sierra gets discharge.." Rizwan answered his question.

I nodded and left towards the hospital in a cab.

I reached hospital and directly went in Sierra Jaan's room.

She was still sleeping, 'Maybe the dosage of medicine is high therefore she is sleeping so much..' I thought and enquired with the nurse about her health.

After she said that Sierra is totally fine. I went and performed my Wuzu as I was still left to complete my prayers..

I prayed Namaz on side table as I was doubtful if the floor might be clean. I then prayed for the good health of Sierra Jaan. And also that doctor gives good news regarding Rehan's condition..

I completed my prayers and sat beside Sierra Jaan.

I never thought that I will even see Rehan in such a miserable condition. He was looking completely broken... I am angry on him for how he treated me back than, but I cannot deny the fact that he has already regretted alott..

I will go at his house and fulfill my duty of a wife by taking care of him. But do I still love him like I used to before..? No I guess..

'Really then why your heart was paining looking at him in that state..?

Why were you feeling to embrace him tightly when he hugged you after so long..?

Why were you happy when he asked, if you will come back..?' I heard my inner voice.

Yes I wont deny I really liked when he hugged me. Because at that time I was so emotional and I wanted someone to give me warmth and a shoulder to cry on.

Though Rehan was the one crying on my shoulder, but I was feeling as if he was removing my emotions..

'I know that he is very guilty for his doings but he never loved me in the past and will never do in future..So I should be prepared because my love will forever be one sided..' I thought and chuckled sadly..

I then started waking Sierra Jaan, because then she wont be able to sleep at night..

"Sierra..betu wakeup, you have slept for so long.." I tried waking her..

"Mumma.." she said and lifted her hands as an indication for me to lift her from bed..

I smiled and took her in my arms,"My betu has become so naughty..she still doesnt want to wakeup.." I said and kissed her forehead..

She smiled and now I noticed she got a new small little teeth.."Aww Sierra Jaan you got a new teeth.. Now my betu has five teeths.." I said excited and showed her in the mirror..

She clearly did not understand but just smiled brightly...

She hugged me and asked,"Mumma whele ish dadda..? (Mumma where is dadda..?)" she asked sadly remembering Rehan.

"Chanda your dadda is not well.. He has gone to the doctor, we will pray for him to get well soon okey.." she nodded and again said,

"Mumma, dadda bil be phine..? (Dadda will be fine..?)"she asked having tears in her eyes..

"Yes betu, your dadda will definately be fine.. You also have to take care of yourself, you know dadda was so worried for you..." I tried to explain her..

She nodded, "Come lets play, Sierra Jaan..I missed playing with you.." I said to lift up her mood..

She became excited and started clapping her hand..

I and Sierra Jaan played for sometime and then it was night time for Sierra to have her dinner and have her medicines.

She had dinner from my hands but feeding her medicines was a big task..😩😩

But somehow I made her eat it, by scarring her that if she will not eat, she wont be able to fight with her injuries..

I was telling her a bed time story when we heard a knock on the door..

And then entered Rizwan and Rehan.. Rehan's eyes were red as if he cried so much..

They both came and stood in front of Sierra's bed..Rehan was continuously looking at Sierra and his tears kept falling..I decided go give him some time with Sierra so indicated Rizwan to come outside.

"Rizwan why was Rehan's eyes so red..Did he cried alott..?"

He nodded his head and said,"Yes.. the psychiatrist asked him about the reason for his depression and he told everything he did to you since the day of marriage.." he said and I was listening to him attentively..

"As the psychiatrist was asking him questions he could not control his hidden emotions and bursted them all together.." he said and I felt bad for Rehan..He is really regretting his mistakes..

"What did the doctor said, till when will Rehan recover..?" I asked getting worried for him

"When the doctor will start his sessions Rehan will first start talking to you and will also ask for yoru forgiveness.. And in some days with regular medication his brain will become normal, And inshallah he will again develop his confidence..." he said.

I nodded my head understanding.."But Sania.. you play the most important role in getting him back. Please take care of his meals as the doctor said that he has become very weak because of starving alott.." he said and I nodded..

"I know it is very hard for you Sania..but I will pray to Allah for you, Sister.. And Inshallah by Allah's grace you will succeed in your work.." he said and I smiled at him..

"Rizwan, I dont know what I would have done without you.. You took care of Rehan, Sierra and even handled business in my absence.. I will always be grateful to you brother.." I said having tears..

"Dont cry Sania..You deserve days filled with happiness..And Inshallah you will have them soon..Because I know what You feel Rehan feels the same.." he said and winked at me..

"Ohh please Rizwan dont give me false hopes.. Nothing like that is happening.." I laughed and said..

"You will see soon Sania..Let my Rehan recover then you will see his romantic mode.." he said laughing..

'Yaa Allah the mere thought of Rehan becoming romantic was enough to make me shy🙈🙈🙈..'

"Rizwan.. go now take Rehan home..I want to sleep with my daughter.." I said hiding my shy face from him..

"Ohh yes I will take him at my place today..because I dont want to take a risk of leaving him alone.." he said and I nodded..

We both entered and Sierra was not ready to leave Rehan, but Rizwan detached them and took Rehan with him..

I saw that Rehan was continuously looking at me since the time I entered and then finally went with Rizwan..

I laid beside Sierra on the small hospital bed and patted her head to make her sleep..

'Was the things Rizwan was telling were true..?

Does Rehan also started loving me..?

Should I give one more chance to our marriage..?' I was thinking all this..

"Yaa Allah if this time you give me my family, then also let me be with them.." I prayed and drifted to sleep hugging my Sierra Jaan..

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So here is your new update muffins..🤗🤗🤗

Sania is finally going with Rehan to live with him..🥳🥳🥳

Do you want me to post one more chapter in evening..?😚😚🤔

What do you think will happen next, Will Rehan tell his feelings to Sania..?🤔🤔

Or he will take time to open up..?

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